Medical Update

Sawadee Khrap

Last night I woke up at 1:30 AM, feeling very apprehensive and very hungry.  That same feeling I have had several times just before a change when my drug-induced Parkinson’s symptoms relax.   Almost like a panic attack,  my body was screaming it was missing something to be “normal” and I need to get it back.   That drug addiction feeling of withdraw.   That would have scared me but since this has happened several time before I am getting used to “coming off the drugs”, so to say.   Just hang in there and wait to see what will happen next.  Didn’t need the valium to calm the nerves..

I could swear I didn’t get any sleep, tossing and turning all night,  but this morning I seem to be quite awake and not very tired so I must have gotten some sleep.  Almost all of the shaking has gone including the lip tremors and my eyesight and balance is much better.   Walked over to get breakfast at the café and have been waiting for the shakes to come back – I did take the usual Valsartan (40mg) at 7AM and will take the 2nd dose (30mg) at 7PM    I’m writing this post at 3PM and still feeling great – much closer to normal.  It’s been 222 days since I stopped the Madiplot and Calcium Channel Blockers and my BP seems to be somewhat stable around 150-160/80 range now.   The Parkinson’s symptoms are almost completely gone.

It will take another month to make sure.


The Lesson

Saturday morning I participated in a On-Line Zoom ACIM meeting. 

As I learned in my AA meetings, “What is said here – stays here”,  but I can explain the lesson that I learned.   Great group of people on line from many different areas of the globe.   The focus of the group is reading from a Chapter in ACIM Text {this week was C23-IV, Above the Battlefield) and then sharing their perspectives on what the Holy Spirit was saying to them through the text.    At next Sat. meeting I will ask if it is OK to post the Zoom address here in the Blog.

At first, I found myself trying to explain “my perspective” of the Course – and had to admit to myself that I was doing it from an egoic mindset.   Thank God,  I couldn’t get my webcam to work properly so they could only hear me and not watch as I tried to fix it while getting increasingly frustrated.    It was here that I heard the Holy Spirit say to me – REMEMBER – Look, Listen, and Do Not Judge !!!!  and then I settled back to listen,

One of the participants gave an eloquent and right-on-the-point explanation of his perspective of the practical application of this aspect of the teachings.  I paraphrase, ‘Stop identifying with the body and rise above to the Christ Mindset to see the innocence of the situation, even for a instance is sufficient.” 

This morning my Oracle directed readings  ACIM  Chapter 6-V, “The Lessons of the Holy Spirit”, reinforced this teaching.  

“How can you wake children in a more kindly way than by a gentle Voice that will not frighten them, but will merely remind them that the night is over and the light has come?  You do not inform them that the nightmares that frightened them so badly are not real, because children believe in magic.  You merely reassure them that they are safe now.  Then you train them to recognize the difference between sleeping and waking, so they will understand they need not be afraid of dreams.  And so when bad dreams come, they will themselves call on the light to dispel them.

A wise teacher teaches through approach, not avoidance.  He does not emphasize what you must avoid to escape from harm, but what you need to learn to have joy.  Consider the fear and confusion a child would experience if he were told, “Do not do this because it will hurt you and make you unsafe; but if you do that instead, you will escape from harm and be safe, and then you will not be afraid.”  It is surely better to use only three words: “Do only that!”  This simple statement is perfectly clear, easily understood and very easily remembered.

The Holy Spirit never itemizes errors because He does not frighten children, and those who lack wisdom are children.” 

I hope, lesson learned, I will practice.   Another way to utilize Look, Listen, and Do Not Judge.     I am looking forward to next week group and maybe be able to add to it in a more constructive way.

God Blesses    Christ Blesses     I Bless


WHO will awaken?

Sawadee Khrap

Are WE INNOCENT as stated in the Genesis 1 story of Creation   OR  are WE forever doomed in a rebellion of sin as depicted in the Genesis 2+ myth?

This is “MY”  understanding of the Ultimate question is “WHO” will awaken?   Not Frank, for Frank is but a character in the dream.   Frank can awaken to the fact that salvation is near,  yes,  but not to fully awaken from the dream itself,  that is the awaking of the Dreamer..

But first, we will need some clarification of terms:

  • God – I AM – UNITY of LIFE
  • Heaven – The State of ONENESS – LOVE
  • Holy Spirit – God’s eternal MIND – TRUTH
  • Christ –  The Sons of God (ONENES)
  • Jesus –  The name of Jesus is the name of one who was a man but saw the face of Christ in all his brothers and remembered God.  So he became identified with Christ, a man no longer, but at one with God.

  • Ego– thought or desire to be special, separated from GOD
  • Dream – Material World – illusion or projection to be special or unique.
  • Dreamer –  That part of Christ’s Mind dreaming about being special.
  • Character – perspectives of being special, separate, and alone.

Each character in the dream is but a part of the  “Christ”  Mind experiencing the dream from the perspective of the character.  Having done so and given the characters the power to bind or lose the dream by their judgements.   In other words,  the Dreamer believes He is the character and not the dreamer.  For in fact, as God IS the ONLY REALITY or LIFE,  anything God did not create is un-real or an illusion or dream.

Since “Christ” is ALL the Sonship, then that part which dreams is actually the wrong-minded portion of a split-mind  (we could say, schizophrenia or psychosis or fallen ones),  experiencing itself as real in a projected illusionary world where it alone controls.

Does each character have a part? – yes – Any character giving up a judgment means that all characters have, since they are actually of one mind.   The judgements, grievances , resentments, attacks, denial, and so on,  are legion in number but so also are the Sons of God.  As they allow their past, present, future judgments to be acknowledged, examined and judged again,  through the Holy Spirit, this will allow the Dreamer to change the dream from one of attack and death to one of Heaven on Earth or joy itself.

This is expressed in St. Paul’s letter to the Philippians 2 :

“Let this mind be in you which was also in Christ Jesus,  who, being in the form of God, did not consider it robbery to be equal with God,  but made Himself of no reputation, taking the form of a bondservant, and coming in the likeness of men.  And being found in appearance as a man, He humbled Himself and became obedient to the point of death, even the death of the cross.  Therefore God also has highly exalted Him and given Him the name which is above every name, that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, of those in heaven, and of those on earth, and of those under the earth, and that every tongue should confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.”

The dream demanded his death – God did not –  He proved that death was un-real, he was the Light of Life,   He was innocent as Genesis 1 proclaimed, only in the dream was He judged as guilty.

Look, Listen, and Do Not Judge,

Leave judgment to the Holy Spirit.  Let the dream go.

God Blesses       Christ Blesses         I can only Bless



“Many will come in my name”

Sawadee Khrap

Although the language here is somewhat “New Age”, the underlying perspective is Look, Listen, and Do Not Judge.   The underlying theology is that elucidated in “Christ lettersA Course In Miracles”.   Following the daily lessons in ACIM will help to see the world through this perception.  Are these the words of Jeshua ?   Perhaps, but does it make a difference – the truth is the truth  – wherever it is said.    All who have pondered what the reality of God is and asked for help has received the Word of the Holy Spirit and can report what they have heard.  If we are “One” in God,  than ALL are “The Christ”, the Beloved Son of God, and hear His Word.  As Jesus said,:

“”Teacher,” said John, “we saw someone driving out demons in your name and we told him to stop, because he was not one of us.”   “Do not stop him,” Jesus said. “For no one who does a miracle in my name can in the next moment say anything bad about me,  for whoever is not against us is for us.  Truly I tell you, anyone who gives you a cup of water in my name because you belong to the Messiah will certainly not lose their reward.”     (Mark 9:38)

God Blesses     Christ Blesses       I need only Bless


Dream Analysis.

Sawadee Khrap

Had a very vivid dream last night where I was arriving from somewhere, not sure from where but I think I was in an airport.   I seemed to be going through a check in line and needed to be tested for some disease, and I was worried that I may not pass. The unique thing about the dream is that at one point I was the main character, Frank, and sometimes I seemed to be the observer looking over the shoulder or back of Frank and aware of the entire scene or background. Didn’t seem to be disturbing but just normal. That’s the only part of the dream I remember but on waking, was sufficient to get me started thinking.

My first morning thought was ACIM Chapter 27-VIII,. “The Hero of the Dream.”

The body is the central figure in the dreaming of the world. There is no dream without it, nor does it exist without the dream in which it acts as if it were a person to be seen and be believed. It takes the central place in every dream, which tells the story of how it was made by other bodies, born into the world outside the body, lives a little while and dies, to be united in the dust with other bodies dying like itself. In the brief time allotted it to live, it seeks for other bodies as its friends and enemies. Its safety is its main concern. Its comfort is its guiding rule. It tries to look for pleasure, and avoid the things that would be hurtful. Above all, it tries to teach itself its pains and joys are different and can be told apart. …………..

The body’s serial adventures, from the time of birth to dying are the theme of every dream the world has ever had. The “hero” of this dream will never change, nor will its purpose. Though the dream itself takes many forms, and seems to show a great variety of places and events wherein its “hero” finds itself, the dream has but one purpose, taught in many ways. This single lesson does it try to teach again, and still again, and yet once more; that it is cause and not effect. And you are its effect, and cannot be its cause. Thus are you not the dreamer, but the dream. And so you wander idly in and out of places and events that it contrives. That this is all the body does is true, for it is but a figure in a dream. …………….

Let us return the dream he gave away unto the dreamer, who perceives the dream as separate from himself and done to him. Into eternity, where all is one, there crept a tiny, mad idea, at which the Son of God remembered not to laugh. In his forgetting did the thought become a serious idea, and possible of both accomplishment and real effects. Together, we can laugh them both away, and understand that time cannot intrude upon eternity. It is a joke to think that time can come to circumvent eternity, which means there is no time.”

Thank God, Jesus came,  as the “Light unto the World”,  to help open our eyes from the sleep of death by awaking to the TRUTH of  God’s Creation.  NOT to attack it but to merely show its wrong-mindfulness and let the light of God’s LOVE shine away the darkness.   The “mad “ dualistic dream of specialness and separation from God or Ourselves.

“Be willing, then, for all of it to be undone, and be glad that you are not bound to it forever.  For you have taught yourself how to imprison the Son of God, a lesson so unthinkable that only the insane, in deepest sleep, could even dream of it.  Can God learn how not to be God?  And can His Son, given all power by Him, learn to be powerless?  What have you taught yourself that you can possibly prefer to keep, in place of what you have and what you are?       (ACIM Chapter 14-Xl, The Test of Truth)”

God Blesse      Christ Blesses     I Bless


Non-Duality verses Dualistic thinking

Sawadee Khrap

Listen closely and consider which version is Non-Dualistic verses Dualistic, where Creationeverything is ONE, Spirit or Thought  or everything is separate – special,  named, unique, materialistic bodies.    Taking this difference in to account the Teachings of Jesus takes on different meanings.  I will try to explain my interpretation of the quandary throughout the balance of this blog.

God Blesses      Christ Blesses        I Bless


Closest Gnostic Myth to my belief – Valentinians

Sawadee Khrap

valentnianI did  a earlier post on Gnosis as heresy, but here is another YouTube video definitely worth watching,  Gnostics; Valentinians and why orthodox believers feared them by Pat Pryor 

This Sect which was declared heresy by the Catholic Church fathers, I believe had a better understanding of the Myth of  Creation as stated in Genesis 1, except they also tried to make the this world and the body real.  They expressed the “ONE=ness” or Fullness of God as absolute but did not see this world as an ILLUSION or dream – not good nor evil – just an illusion.

From a still Egotistic vantage point they considered themselves the only ones saved because it, or Gnosis, or knowledge of the Divine was ONLY realized through their teachings – definitely excluding the Orthodox view from Christ’s salvation.   Of course the earlier church clergy would have to kick them out and trash their views.  History is always written by the victors.   The EGO always screams the loudest.

In the following posts of this blog I will attempt to point out the similarities and differences,  that I see,  in the Ancient and current Religious Myths that hopefully will point to a fuller understanding of the Creation and our relationship to God.

God Blesses    Christ Blesses   I Bless


I am determined to see !!

Sawadee Khrap

“I am determined to see”.   To SEE WHAT?

prayerFr. Richard Rohr talks about this as “Prayer” in this video chat about “How Ancient Christians used to Pray”     

ACIM also addresses this question in several lessons in the workbook such as:

  • Lesson 55  “I am determined to see the witnesses to the truth in me, rather than those which show me an illusion of myself.”
  • Lesson 54  “I would look upon the witnesses that show me the thinking of the world has been changed.”
  • Lesson 21  “It is merely an example of the belief that some forms of attack are more justified than others.”
  • Lesson 20  “You can see them differently, and you will.   What you desire you will see.  Such is the real law of cause and effect as it operates in the world.”
  • Lesson 84  “I am in the likeness of my Creator.  I cannot suffer, I cannot experience loss and I cannot die.   I am not a body.  I would recognize my reality today.”

In all the above,  it is the recognition that what I see is but a reflection of my inner thoughts.  It is an illusion of my desire to judge and control.  In all situations I am the “Hero” of the dream, regardless of whether I see myself as the victim or the attacker.   Only the separated or special have anything to attack – Oneness cannot attack itself.  “Seek not to change the world, but rather to change my mind about the world.”    Look, Listen, and Do Not Judge.

God Blesses    Christ Blesses

I   “can only”   Bless because I am ‘ONE’ with God


Inspiring Lesson – ACIM # 302

Sawadee Khrap

Where darkness was I look upon the light.

Father, our eyes are opening at last.  Your holy world awaits us, as our sight is finally restored and we can see.  We thought we suffered.  But we had forgot the Son whom You created.  Now we see that darkness is our own imagining, and light is there for us to look upon.  Christ’s vision changes darkness into light, for fear must disappear when love has come.  Let me forgive Your holy world today, that I may look upon its holiness and understand it but reflects my own.

Our Love awaits us as we go to Him, and walks beside us showing us the way.  He fails in nothing.  He the End we seek, and He the Means by which we go to Him.

God Blesses     Christ Blesses      I need only learn to Bless

Look, Listen, and Do Not Judge !


Choose Once Again !

Sawadee Khrap

“Would you be this, if Christ appeared to you in all His glory, asking you but this:

Choose once again if you would take your place among the saviors of the world, or would remain in hell, and hold your brothers there.

For He has come, and He is asking this.

How do you make the choice?  How easily is this explained!  You always choose between your weakness and the strength of Christ in you.  And what you choose is what you think is real.  Simply by never using weakness to direct your actions, you have given it no power.  And the light of Christ in you is given charge of everything you do.  For you have brought your weakness unto Him, and He has given you His strength instead.

Trials are but lessons that you failed to learn presented once again, so where you made a faulty choice before you now can make a better one, and thus escape all pain that what you chose before has brought to you.  In every difficulty, all distress, and each perplexity Christ calls to you and gently says, “My brother, choose again.”  He would not leave one source of pain unhealed, nor any image left to veil the truth.  He would remove all misery from you whom God created altar unto joy.  He would not leave you comfortless, alone in dreams of hell, but would release your mind from everything that hides His face from you. His Holiness is yours because He is the only power that is real in you.  His strength is yours because He is the Self that God created as His only Son.”

ACIM – Chapter 31 – VIII.  .    Reading for today.

God Blesses      Christ Blesses        I Bless


Franciscan Mysticism part1 An "INCLUSIVE" vision.

Sawadee Khrap

I am amazed and gladdened by the YouTube videos that have been recommended to me lately.   FranciacanThis one on the Newton Boyd channel about the Franciscan order of the Catholic Religion I think is outstanding.     The world is awaking.

Being is ONE     This abstract vision creates an inclusive universe.   Where everything is sacred and you can’t divide the world into the Sacred and the Profane.  Not the Dualistic view of the hell and brimstone orthodoxic church but a Christ like Non-Dualistic realization of God’s Genesis 1 Creation.

God Blesses    Christ Blesses       I need ONLY Bless


When I am healed I am not healed alone.

Sawadee Khrap

ACIM Workbook Lesson 137  “When I am healed I am not healed alone.”

“Healing might thus be called a counter-dream, which cancels out the dream of sickness in the name of truth, but not in truth itself.  Just as forgiveness overlooks all sins that never were accomplished, healing but removes illusions that have not occurred.  Just as the real world will arise to take the place of what has never been at all, healing but offers restitution for imagined states and false ideas which dreams embroider into pictures of the truth.

Yet think not healing is unworthy of your function here.  For anti-Christ becomes more powerful than Christ to those who dream the world is real.  The body seems to be more solid and more stable than the mind.  And love becomes a dream, while fear remains the one reality that can be seen and justified and fully understood.

Just as forgiveness shines away all sin and the real world will occupy the place of what you made, so healing must replace the fantasies of sickness which you hold before the simple truth.  When sickness has been seen to disappear in spite of all the laws that hold it cannot but be real, then questions have been answered.  And the laws can be no longer cherished nor obeyed.”

LOOK, LISTEN, and DO NOT JUDGE.    Leave all judgements and healings  to the ALL, the Holy Spirit of God.    

And, since I, Frank and/or we, are merely the characters in this illusion we could not possibly know when, where or how to best too apply them, either – only Christ or the Holy Spirit could.   All we,  or I,  need is the WILLINGNES to let it happen and not block it with our condemnation or judgements.  Do I honestly wish to see my brothers sinless?   OBSERVE and watch it happen.

God Blesses       Christ Blesses        I Bless


Gnosis as Heresy

Here is the best Lecture I have seen on Gnosticisms.   THE GNOSTIC WORLDVIEW – A Lecture by LAURENCE CARUANA .Gnostic  It’s 2 hr. long so be prepared but what a detailed analysis.  I also find it worthwhile to study the differences and similarities between early Egyptian, Semitic, Sumerian, Hinduism, Buddhism, Chinese , Ancient and the more modern Christian Theologies.   There is a commonality that can be observed and expressed throughout all of them,  yet each believe they have the “truest answer”  to the unknown.     The TRUTH is TRUE wherever it is spoken.

The big problem I can see is the result of Christian Religionist’s attempts to justify “THIS”  Material World as “reality” even though, their redeemer,  Jesus, The Christ said  “My Kingdom is NOT of this world”.   The first Chapter in the Bible states that God Created the world and pronounced it GOOD and COMPLETED and that Man was Created in the Image and Likeness of God, male / female  – Spirit, no mention of bodies.   Then in Chapter 2 to the end, a world was “made” that was the complete opposite of that Created in Chapter1.  Consider, in the Gospel of John,

  “In the beginning was the Word and the Word was with God and the Word was God.  The same was in the beginning with God.  All things were made by him; and without him was not any thing made that was made.  In him was life; and the life was the light of men. And the light shineth in darkness; and the darkness comprehended it not.”

Unlike the modern Christian view where “sin” is the paramount protagonist and this world is real, the body is God’s temple and salvation is by Christ’s blood sacrifice   OR    like the Gnostic view where this world is evil and salvation is only to a select few who are given Secret Divine Knowledge,   I’ve believe in a inclusive ‘mythology’ that encompasses the truths expressed by the ancient Gnostics, ACIM, AA, Buddhism and the Bible.   I am convinced that a universal theology is impossible BUT that a universal EXPERIENCE is essential.  I believe this world is but a EGO-centric projected dream of our perceived desire to be special or separated from God and is elucidated in the Bible from Genesis Chapter 2 till the end, with the first Chapter of Genesis being the UN-separated story of Creation. I also believe that Jesus was the physical manifestation of the Self or Son of Creation stated in Genesis 1, and existed in the Dream to show us the way or path to salvation.  Look, Listen, and Do Not Judge.  Leave judgement to the Holy Spirit.

Additionally, I also find the teaching of “A Course In Miracles” to be a more understandable mythology that is INCLUSIVE and NON-DUALISTIC and does NOT purport to be salvation’s end but merely develops and demonstrates a practical approach to remove the obstacles to LOVE and leaves salvation to God, The Holy Spirit, and Christ.   It does however emphasizes the teachings of Jesus as recorded in the Scriptures.

All of the esoteric sayings of Jesus, expressed in the Canon and Apocryphal Books are easily understood when viewed from a NON-DULISTIC perspective.  “I and the Father are ONE”  and NOT from a dualistic perspective where the “ALL” is divided and separated into competing attempts to be SPECIAL and/or DISTINCT.

God Blesses      Christ Blesses     I Bless


Clear lesson from the Holy Spirit ! — Attack Thoughts

Sawadee Khrap

This morning I got a clear message from the Holy Spirit.  My reading for the day, as suggested by the ACIM Now Oracle, located in “Read Now” dropdown ,  was Workbook Lesson 26  “My attack thoughts are attacking my invulnerability.” 

“Because your attack thoughts will be projected, you will fear attack.  And if you fear attack, you must believe that you are not invulnerable.  Attack thoughts therefore make you vulnerable in your own mind, which is where the attack thoughts are.  Attack thoughts and invulnerability cannot be accepted together.  They contradict each other.”

and after contemplating on the lesson,  I followed it up with my normal YouTube search for new videos and was presented with attack  7 Truths To Lower Blood Pressure With Breathing Exercises (Holistic Doctor Explains) // Dr Ekberg  .  This reinforces the same lesson – NOTE in the video the Doctor’s statements:

  • abnormal stress is caused by unwanted thoughts.
  • Breathing control can re-focus the mind

This amounts to nothing less than developing a habit formed   “Meditative” practice.   Prayer is meditation and contemplation,  and many other  resources, such as a definite exercise routine or “Yoga” can also be helpful. 

When I ask for help – it is always there if I but look, Listen and Do Not Judge…..

God Blesses    Christ Blesses        I Bless


Non-Duality in Religions ????

Sawadee Khrap

This is a “Must Listen To”  talk or podcast for AwakeningawakeingThe universal problem of changing one’s mind about duality to a Non-Duality perspective.  Stop the “Fire and Brimstone”  punitive and restrictive perspective without hurt feelings.  Two different world views. 

The Holy Spirit is truly working in the world – this is an excellent example of how to “do not try to change the world but change our minds about the world.”

The question that always has to be addressed is “WHO is the YOU ?,  you are talking about.  The Dreamer or the Character in this dream world.  How to see Christ in everyone.

God Blesses      Christ Blesses      I Bless