Littleness vs Magnitude

Sawadee Khrap

Here is one of my favorite sections from ACIM – Something to remember every day before planning my day. I AM A SON of GOD.

“There is a deep responsibility you owe yourself, and one which you must learn to remember ALL the time. The lesson will seem hard at first, but you will learn to love it, when you realize that  it is true, and constitutes a tribute to your power. You who have sought AND FOUND littleness, remember this: Every decision that you make stems from WHAT YOU THINK YOU ARE, and represents the value that you PUT upon yourself. Believe the little can content you, and, by LIMITING yourself, you will NOT be satisfied. For your function is NOT little, and it is only by finding your function, and fulfilling it that you can ESCAPE from littleness. There is no doubt about what your function IS, for the Holy Spirit KNOWS what it is. There is no doubt about its magnitude, for it reaches you through Him, FROM Magnitude. You do not have to strive for it, because you HAVE it. All your striving must be directed AGAINST LITTLENESS, for it DOES require vigilance to protect your magnitude in this world. To hold your magnitude in perfect awareness, in a world of littleness, is a  task the little cannot undertake. Yet it is asked of you, in tribute to your magnitude, and NOT your littleness. Nor is it asked of you alone.

The power of God will support every effort you make on behalf of the magnitude of His dear Son. Search for the little, and you DENY yourself His power. God is not willing that His Son be content with less than everything. For He is not content without His Son, and His Son cannot be content with less than His Father has given him. We asked you once before, “Would you be hostage to the ego or host to God?” Let this question be asked you by the Holy Spirit in you, EVERY time you make a decision. For every decision  you make DOES answer this, and invites sorrow or joy, accordingly.

When God GAVE Himself to you in your creation, He ESTABLISHED you as host to Him forever. He has NOT left you, and YOU have not left HIM. All your attempts to deny His magnitude, and make His Son hostage to the ego, CANNOT make little whom God has joined with Him. Every decision you make is made for Heaven or for hell, and will bring you AWARENESS of what you decided FOR. The Holy Spirit can hold your magnitude, clean of ALL littleness, clearly and in perfect safety in your minds, untouched by every little gift the world of littleness would offer you.

Decide for God through Him. For littleness, and the belief that you can be CONTENT with littleness, are the decisions YOU have made about yourself. The power and the glory that lie in you, from God, are for all who, like you, perceive themselves as little, and have deceived themselves into believing that littleness can be blown up, BY THEM, into a sense of magnitude that can content them. Neither GIVE littleness, nor ACCEPT it. All honor is due the host of God. Your littleness deceives you, but your magnitude is of Him Who dwells in you, and in Whom you dwell. Touch no one, then, with littleness, in the Name of Christ, eternal Host unto His Father.”  (T 15 D 3. )

God Bless    Ciao

Day to day living

Sawadee Khrap

What’s a practical way to incorporate, “Look, Listen, and do not judge”, into daily life.

For a broad picture and simplicity’s sake, lets imagine that the some of the Sons of God had a “Dream” that they were “Special” and therefore set apart and not on equal with the others (Oneness of God).   For example, think about the thought “Would anything other than God make me happy?”.  Thinking this would require projecting a world or illusion containing the opposites of God, Oneness to separation, Spirit to bodies, Life to death, Eternity to time, Love to attack, and so on. Similar to what we call schizophrenia, a “split mind” referring to the way that people are split off from reality; they cannot tell what is real and what is not real.
The right-mindfulness part of the Son’s split Mind realizes that separation is impossible, IS LIFE itself and always present, but is not dominating because being LOVE it cannot attack.  The wrong-mindfulness part  needs to project because it cannot create, being the opposite of God, and what it projects is an illusion dominated by characters (bodies).
The “Dreamer” is “Christ”, the Alpha and Omega, or more specifically what we can call the Mindfulness of the Christ Mind. The idea that separation can occur is called the “Ego”.  And the “Holy Spirit” is God’s answer that Oneness cannot be separated and “IS” Life, therefore separation is an illusion or dream. Additionally, in this dream, the Christ Mind gives the “characters of the dream” the power to bind or unbind the dream by their judgements. The “Original Sin”, missing the mark,  was the character’s choosing the Ego’s lie, to be as God, by making judgements.

Judgements are also “attachments”, something judged as needed or not needed, actually a two-edged sword which will cut in both directions.  Only the “middle path”, NOT Judging, will offer eternal peace with no attack.

Since God’s Reality IS only LOVE, separation or “LACK OF LOVE”, is only in the illusion and is valueless. Since the character cannot possibly know why anything is being projected , only the dreamer can, then any choice or judgement,  by the character,  would be inappropriate.   But if the character ALWAYS looked for LOVE or a lack of Love, then the ONLY response would be – “give only love” for every situation, or instance, no matter what the dreamer started   As Jesus said “And whatsoever ye shall ask in my name, that will I do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son.”  John 14:13   As the right-mindfulness part is is also available to the character then this response would be a teaching aid and not used as weapons of separation.

For instance, hearing a screaming child – my only response should be to see that child embraced, in my mind,  with love and complete inclusion.  I would be more complete and therefor more joyful by extending as God’s LOVE extends.. Not in judgment, as to why or how the kid is suffering, but how the child is one with God and Myself.  Look not to change the world but to change my mind about the world.

I would love to hear your comments on other examples you could use to apply this solution to daily problems – please comment


Right “Seeing”

Sawadee Khrap

Here is a great video from Ken Wapnick (Foundation for Inner Peace) on seeing through the Christ’s mind.  Lesson 124:

“Today we will not doubt His Love for us, nor question His protection and His care. No meaningless anxieties can come be­tween our faith and our awareness of His Presence. We are one with Him today in recognition and rememberance. We feel Him in our hearts. Our minds contain His Thoughts; our eyes behold His loveliness in all we look upon. Today we see only the loving and the lovable.

We see it in appearances of pain, and pain gives way to peace. We see it in the frantic, in the sad and the distressed, the lonely and afraid, who are restored to the tranquility and peace of mind in which they were created. And we see it in the dying and the dead as well, restoring them to life. All this we see because we saw it first within ourselves.”

God Bless    Ciao

Corona Virus threat?

Sawadee Khrap

How am I going to confront this crisis?    Just received the health report for Thailand from the US Embassy – 19 infections and spreading fast.

Jesus taught:  “Caesar’s is Caesar’s, God’s is God’s and what you bind on earth is bound in heaven.  Your JUDGEMENTs are WHAT you control and bind or relinquish to God or Caesar.  Caesar being the symbol standing for the world or “the dream of separation”.  

I am the “Character” (Frank) in the dream but the “Dreamer” (Christ-the Unity of the Son of God) has given me the power to bind the dream through my  judgements.   The “middle path” is to look, listen and do not judge.  LEAVE all judgements to Christ – just follow the narrow “Middle” path to the reality of God’s Creation – “SELF”.  

As Jesus said:

“ Judge not, that ye be not judged. For with what judgement ye judge, ye shall be judged:and with what measure ye mete, it shall be measured to you again.”

First I need to remember that the DREAMER is examining the thought, from each one’s   perspective, “Am I separated from God and not LOVE itself and therefore only through attack I can get LOVE back ?”  

How I, Frank (the Character in the dream),  reacts will determine the path the dream takes.  Will my judgement be one of seeing attack (a call for love) OR Love itself OR the middle path of  realizing that it is only an illusion and do not judge allowing the Dreamer to decide with  the Holy Spirit.    So this can ONLY mean that any response should be one of GIVING LOVE or that what I am seeing is an illusion needing no response at all.   Is this  mental masturbation / spiritual bullshit ?    I don’t think so !!     This is how I should live my life.   How does it work, at a practical level,  to guide me through life’s experiences or crisis?  

Consider also, Buddhism.  Buddha teaches that to relieve suffering one first has to give up all attachments and the final one is the attachment to “self”.    Enlightenment is the recognition of “SELF”, free from all attachments, conflicts and limitations.    What is an attachment BUT a JUDGMENT ?  Or more simply a need or desire to change reality by judging something or someone of value or not.   He also espoused to follow the “middle path”.

So how do I plan to apply it to the “Corona Virus” scare existing today ?

First off understanding that “Frank” IS A CHARACTER IN THE DREAM and I won’t deny that.    Secondary,  I won’t deny that I have accepted common criteria  about the world (judgements) as TRUE,  which I witnessed to by believing I am living here.  I won’t deny that this is a “dream threat”.    So considering all that, I will react specially to the Corona Crisis by:

  1. Realizing I have NO problem NOW.
  2. All reports are just hearsay so far, I am not directly affected NOW.
  3. I know of no one NEAR me that is infected.
  4. I actually have NO problem UNTIL I am infected.
  5. I will take all necessary precautions to prevent  getting infected – hand washing and masks.  I will not TEMPT God to save me from any of my un-beliefs.
  6. I acknowledge that others have judged an attack is occurring and I can offer LOVE by prayers that they realize their ONENESS with God and attack is impossible.
  7. Maintain my peace, as best I can,  through prayer and meditation. Judging not and offering only LOVE where I am presented a lesson where I have made an error or judgment in the past or have been asked to give LOVE.

“And, behold, a woman, which was diseased with an issue of blood twelve years, came behind him, and touched the hem of his garment: For she said within herself, If I may but touch his garment, I shall be whole. But Jesus turned him about, and when he saw her, he said, Daughter, be of
good comfort; thy faith hath made thee whole. And the woman was made whole from that hour.”    (Matthew 9:20)

Thy FAITH has made thee whole !!!. 

What happens tomorrow will be tomorrow’s problem – Living one day at a time.  I will not let the past interfere or determine the future.  I rest in God NOW.  I will NOT live in WHATIF’s   

Here is a great lesson from ACIM   #153  In my defenselessness my safety lies.   Click on the link for the Audio version

*Comments welcome – How are you copping *

God Bless            Ciao

Who is the “Teacher”

Sawadee Khrap

Who is the “Teacher”?   I am a teacher by my actions, I teach what I believe,  as I do only what I have faith in or proclaimed as true for myself.  HOWEVER, I CANNOT instruct or guide, That “Teacher”  is ONLY the Holy Spirit………   I need only to share my experience, strength and hopes and to listen to others as they share theirs.

It is through the voice of the Holy Spirit that I hear and learn the truth – IT teaches, through the symbols (including bodies) of this world,  the truth of God’s Created world – the release from the dream of separation – The Good News- The Gospel .

Listen, learn and Do Not Judge!   The ONLY lesson I really need to learn and develop the habit of using in all situations.  Realizing that ALL situations are really the same – The idea that I am separated from God’s Unity – and the ONLY response is ONENESS through FORGIVNESS and LOVE.  There is no hierarchy or degrees of suffering – either there is Love or a LACK of love.  Separation is merely the DENIAL of LOVE’S PRESENCE.

I cannot change the world to fit my needs – I need to change my mind about the world and watch it change for everyone’s needs.  Release my judgements that bind the world and allow the “Dreamer” to manifest reality which IS God’s LOVE.

God Bless       Ciao

Air-Quality Chiang Mai

Sawadee Khrap

Got to thank Team for this tip – last year he told me about the 3M filter sheets that you can put in your aircons and clean the air in the room.  They work excellently – 350 baht each pkg. and I change every month in heavy polluted air.   One filter fits 2 aircons for me.

I ordered mine from Lazada OnLine and got fast shipment.


Hope this helps      

Wasn’t Me

I got this shot of a young boy’s T-shirt in my Condo lobby.  That was MY story and life before finding my path to salvation – IT WAS NEVER MY FAULT – Wasn’t me.


My drinking was always the result of the action of someone or something else.  If you suffered what I did,  you’d drink too. I took no responsibility for my actions or looked at it from this standpoint – ‘want to play then you have to pay’.  Simple, I paid —  but NEVER my fault or MY need for correction.

If you had a problem, I would be right there to offer you a solution.  My opinion – actually my judgement.  But in AA I learned that ONLY my experience is what I could offer – everything else is just hearsay.  And by OFFER I mean share not instruct. 

That was the start of my Spiritual Journey to find peace and a reason for life.  A spiritual journey where Christ and the Holy Spirit is now my guide and teacher.  BUT, I don’t have anything to say — I just had to post this photo!

God Bless       Ciao

Waking up ????

Sawadee Khrap

What does it mean to “Awaken”?.   How do I see the world I  am in?.    Is what I see actually my projection of my inner thoughts?

If I see a gloomy world then in my mind I am gloomy? ; if I see joy then my mind is joyful, otherwise it couldn’t see it..  It’s impossible to see a gloomy world and be happy at the same time.    If I am seeing an awaking world,  then what I am really seeing IS MYSELF awaking ………

Remembering what Jesus said:

“Assuredly, I say to you, whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven.”   (Matthew 18:18)

But from Google (actually Religions) see it:

“The crossed keys in the coat of arms of the Holy See symbolize the keys of heaven entrusted to Simon Peter. … The gold key alludes to the power in the kingdom of the heavens and the silver key indicates the spiritual authority of the papacy on earth”

Isn’t it convenient that Jesus was entrusting “Peter” with the fate of the universe, a man that Jesus said would deny him 3 time in a singe night.  The “church” has become the authority ????

Jesus’s message of “Self” awaking is  completely sidestepped,  it becomes ‘look to the church’ !.  That’s what I was taught when I was young and rebelled against, BUT lately I am seeing reform in the Religious Realms.  The Bible story and it’s message is being  re-evaluated from a salvation (self) perspective, which I believe was originally intended in Christ Jesus’s actual words.

Is the world changing OR AM I WAKING UP?   Am I seeing (my) FORGIVNESS applied to this world and seeing a FORGIVEN world?   Am I releasing the world of the condemning JUDGEMENTS that I made and bound heaven with ?

If so, am I a savior of the world ? , NOT in grandiosity but in Grandeur,  that I am a functioning part of the “Christ”  – The Son of God.   That without MY part being fulfilled there can be NO COMPLTION – the ONENSS of GOD.    

If we are ONE then without YOUR part, Oneness waits.  If we are ONE then ALL share in each others awaking.

God Bless      Ciao

Chiang Mai cannabis clinic

Sawadee Khrap

Thanks Ed for the heads up – Click on the image for details


I received this comment from Ed :

I went there today…First of all, it is open only on Wednesday from 1pm to 4 or 4:30. Spent over 30 minutes just finding the location as it is not priority for the people in the main area where you have to register so that you can be seen in the clinic and pay your bill when it’s all done. I went with a Thai lady to help me and they told us to go to several different locations before we finally got the straight poop; they didn’t even know at the desk where I registered.
The article above is highly misleading to say the least, about the number of medical staff and the number of doctors…they must have been talking about the staff for the entire hospital.
If you plan on going, you definitely need a Thai person to assist you. English is not spoken, it is a Thai hospital that caters to lower income Thais (my bill was 100 baht after speaking to the doctor). If you think you’d like to go, you go first to building #3 where you need to register (need passport). Then, you go up the escalaor to the second floor and after you land, turn left and keep an eye out for an area on the right side that leads to a balcony. When you get to the balcony, turn left and the clinic is the last office at the end. The Cannabis “clinic” is one of three rooms in that office.
I waited close to 2 hours. There was only 1 doctor, and she does not speak very much, if any, English. She has to fill out a questionairre, so you need to coach your Thai assistant with what ailments you hope to alleviate…I went in for insomnia and anxiety. There were 3 nurses attending mainly to administrative duties. Only the one doctor.
The bottom line is that they were out of stock on “medicine” (I don’t know exactly what I will get, but I imagine CBD oil) and they are going to call me when they can provide to me in roughly 3 weeks.
There were 2 people in line ahead of me and maybe 2 more behind; a far cry from the 22 the article claims for the opening. The first was another falang with his wife or gf, and he was talking to the doctor for
the better part of an hour, and the doctor did not arrive until about 1:30. The lady in front of me was around 20 minutes.
Parking was a bitch and we ended up parking at least 1/4 mile from the hospital.
I have no idea what the cost of the medication will be, how much I will receive, or if it will help my ailments.


PS. I went there with Simon and did not have this experience – ours was excellent and attentive – got right in and the Dr I met spoke English – but the clinic was for PAIN control first and they told me that they did not expect the CBD oils or Traditional Thai Herbal Dr for at least 2-3 more months. Frank

New Year’s Resolution

Sawadee Khrap

What is the difference between modem medicine and foods?  Last time I visited the doctor I was told that it would be impossible to eat enough greens to change my artery blockage, BUT I could take this 10 mg pill  to lower my blood pressure and solve my problem.   Sounds like magic to me.   The achievements of modern science.  Humanity trumpets over Reality.

But is doesn’t really make sense.   What  I ate and the actions I took  determined my present status,  high blood pressure and all.  I have to look at it honestly.

Did I eat the foods necessary to maintain a healthy system?  Did I exercise regularly?   Did I get the necessary sleep or did I have sleeping problems?  HONESTLY !!!   NO, of courses not.  I ate what I wanted and liked.  I drank what I wanted, not caring what it was really affecting.  I concentrated on changing reality to fit my desires without even considering the stress that would  create.   And when I felt the damaging effects of detritus material in my veins  I rushed to the medicine cabinet for a quick fix with a  cover up pill.  And it worked – getting me to where I am now. 

I have tempted God in every way and expected Him to send down His angels to save me from crashing on the rocks below – sounds like the same test Jesus took in the desert.  But I didn’t answer “Get behind me Satan”  I plowed right head and blamed God for not taking away my afflictions.

Today is a good time for Frank to begin his recovery by cultivating some basic habits, eating  only good foodstuffs, drinking only good liquids, getting proper exercise and sleep, and above all quite trying to change the world (forgive and reduce stress).

I do thank God that His help has always been provided, sometimes in the form of magic, to help me along my way.  That 10 mg pill will lower my blood pressure until I can find the right combination of proper foods to clean out my plugged arteries.  Right now I am trying to increase the Omega-3 / Omega-6 ratio by increasing plant  vs animal foods., – by adding 2 oz. of ground flaxseed in 3 Oz. applesauce every morning as breakfast.   Actually going back to what Elohim told me what He provide in Creation – “Plants and seeds will be my meat”.

God Bless    Ciao

What is ‘my’ Faith, Strength, Hope

Sawadee Khrap

My faith or belief is that this material world IS hell.  The opposite of what God (Elohim) CREATED .

      • Eat or be eaten
      • Life always ending in death
      • Attack, defend,  and attack again
      • Love given but later to be taken away
      • Existing in separate and special bodies
      • Constantly changing – nothing everlasting
      • Being SEPARATED from God (Spirit) – NOT ONE in ETERNITY

      I believe in direct communication with God/Christ and NOT dependent on a church, clergyman or any religious doctrine. I also do NOT perceive the world as good or evil,  but actually having NO value at all  except to be used as a temporary teaching aid  by the Holy Spirit. 

      I believe this world is but a EGO-centric projected dream of our perceived  desire to be special or separated from God and is elucidated in the Bible from Genesis 2 till the end.   A nightmare of ciaos.     My ‘mythology’  encompasses  the truths expressed in ancient Gnostics, ACIM, AA, Buddhism and the Bible.   I believe that a universal theology is impossible BUT that a universal EXPERIENCE is essential.

      ‘Salvation’  is to perceive and project a happy dream.  A dream that sees the world through the eyes of Christ – FORGIVEN.   A dream  so close to  heaven,  here on earth, that God Himself will lift us across the bridge from projection to knowledge without fear.

      So my core belief is that Jesus was the human  ‘material’  form,  in which “The Christ or God’s Son” was fully manifested.   He came into this world,  from the Elohim Creation, to overcome death, proving it was not real,  and to expose the ILLUSION or “DREAM of SEPARATION or SPECIALNESS”.   The dream that,  in the Abrahamitic tradition,  called for  the “redemption from sin” as described in the Bible  ( Yahwehist, Torah – The Law of Moses).  

      He, Jesus,  came to ‘FULFILL’  –  NOT endorse the law;     to ‘REDEEM’ from Sin  –  NOT  to condemn.   His message was to teach us that the story in Genesis 1 is the TRUTH and we are STILL, and have always been, as God CREATED  us,  “ONE” in His Image, Spirit, Likeness and Eternal Glory. Awakening to this fact or reality IS the end of suffering or Atonement/Enlightenment/Salvation.

      “We have a mission here. We did not come to reinforce the madness that we once believed in. Let us not forget the goal that we accepted. It is more than just our happiness alone we came to gain. What we accept as what we are proclaims what everyone must be, along with us. Fail not your brothers, or you fail yourself. Look lovingly on them, that they may know that they are part of you, and you of them.  This does Atonement teach, and demonstrates the Oneness of God’s Son is unassailed by his belief he knows not what he is. Today accept Atonement, not to change reality, but merely to accept the truth about yourself, and go your way rejoicing in the endless Love of God. It is but this that we are asked to do. It is but this that we will do today.”   (ACIM  L 139)

      God Bless           Ciao

      Tribute to a friend

      Sawadee Khrap

      Last month, Simon and I had a impromptu photo shoot with our visiting mutual friend Chris.  This is a special image I created using several Photoshop techniques.


      As you all know I study ACIM and it states that the body is but a symbol of separation from God.  But it is also emphasized that it’s NEITHER   good nor evil, but merely a symbol.  That symbol, can also be used by the Holy Spirit to show the beauty and grandeur of God’s presence,  if I but look from a perspective of Sinlessness. 

      A sunset, a rainbow, a nude,  These can all be opportunities to witness to God’ glory and Sonship.  As a gay man I prefer to view male bodies – how about you?   Where do you see the shining light of God’s love.

      God Bless        Ciao

      Dok Kaew Gardens

      Sawadee Khrap

      Jerry, a friend of mine , living in Dok Kaew Garden assisted living facility on McKean hospital Senior Center grounds showed me this beautiful area near his room.   What a wonderful place to meditate and relax.

      This is my    16 x 16 inch digital Acrylic Oil painting.  I’ve told them to keep a room open as I plan to retire there when my roving days are over – probably fairly soon   Lol.