New Year’s Resolution

Sawadee Khrap

What is the difference between modem medicine and foods?  Last time I visited the doctor I was told that it would be impossible to eat enough greens to change my artery blockage, BUT I could take this 10 mg pill  to lower my blood pressure and solve my problem.   Sounds like magic to me.   The achievements of modern science.  Humanity trumpets over Reality.

But is doesn’t really make sense.   What  I ate and the actions I took  determined my present status,  high blood pressure and all.  I have to look at it honestly.

Did I eat the foods necessary to maintain a healthy system?  Did I exercise regularly?   Did I get the necessary sleep or did I have sleeping problems?  HONESTLY !!!   NO, of courses not.  I ate what I wanted and liked.  I drank what I wanted, not caring what it was really affecting.  I concentrated on changing reality to fit my desires without even considering the stress that would  create.   And when I felt the damaging effects of detritus material in my veins  I rushed to the medicine cabinet for a quick fix with a  cover up pill.  And it worked – getting me to where I am now. 

I have tempted God in every way and expected Him to send down His angels to save me from crashing on the rocks below – sounds like the same test Jesus took in the desert.  But I didn’t answer “Get behind me Satan”  I plowed right head and blamed God for not taking away my afflictions.

Today is a good time for Frank to begin his recovery by cultivating some basic habits, eating  only good foodstuffs, drinking only good liquids, getting proper exercise and sleep, and above all quite trying to change the world (forgive and reduce stress).

I do thank God that His help has always been provided, sometimes in the form of magic, to help me along my way.  That 10 mg pill will lower my blood pressure until I can find the right combination of proper foods to clean out my plugged arteries.  Right now I am trying to increase the Omega-3 / Omega-6 ratio by increasing plant  vs animal foods., – by adding 2 oz. of ground flaxseed in 3 Oz. applesauce every morning as breakfast.   Actually going back to what Elohim told me what He provide in Creation – “Plants and seeds will be my meat”.

God Bless    Ciao

What is ‘my’ Faith, Strength, Hope

Sawadee Khrap

My faith or belief is that this material world IS hell.  The opposite of what God (Elohim) CREATED .

      • Eat or be eaten
      • Life always ending in death
      • Attack, defend,  and attack again
      • Love given but later to be taken away
      • Existing in separate and special bodies
      • Constantly changing – nothing everlasting
      • Being SEPARATED from God (Spirit) – NOT ONE in ETERNITY

      I believe in direct communication with God/Christ and NOT dependent on a church, clergyman or any religious doctrine. I also do NOT perceive the world as good or evil,  but actually having NO value at all  except to be used as a temporary teaching aid  by the Holy Spirit. 

      I believe this world is but a EGO-centric projected dream of our perceived  desire to be special or separated from God and is elucidated in the Bible from Genesis 2 till the end.   A nightmare of ciaos.     My ‘mythology’  encompasses  the truths expressed in ancient Gnostics, ACIM, AA, Buddhism and the Bible.   I believe that a universal theology is impossible BUT that a universal EXPERIENCE is essential.

      ‘Salvation’  is to perceive and project a happy dream.  A dream that sees the world through the eyes of Christ – FORGIVEN.   A dream  so close to  heaven,  here on earth, that God Himself will lift us across the bridge from projection to knowledge without fear.

      So my core belief is that Jesus was the human  ‘material’  form,  in which “The Christ or God’s Son” was fully manifested.   He came into this world,  from the Elohim Creation, to overcome death, proving it was not real,  and to expose the ILLUSION or “DREAM of SEPARATION or SPECIALNESS”.   The dream that,  in the Abrahamitic tradition,  called for  the “redemption from sin” as described in the Bible  ( Yahwehist, Torah – The Law of Moses).  

      He, Jesus,  came to ‘FULFILL’  –  NOT endorse the law;     to ‘REDEEM’ from Sin  –  NOT  to condemn.   His message was to teach us that the story in Genesis 1 is the TRUTH and we are STILL, and have always been, as God CREATED  us,  “ONE” in His Image, Spirit, Likeness and Eternal Glory. Awakening to this fact or reality IS the end of suffering or Atonement/Enlightenment/Salvation.

      “We have a mission here. We did not come to reinforce the madness that we once believed in. Let us not forget the goal that we accepted. It is more than just our happiness alone we came to gain. What we accept as what we are proclaims what everyone must be, along with us. Fail not your brothers, or you fail yourself. Look lovingly on them, that they may know that they are part of you, and you of them.  This does Atonement teach, and demonstrates the Oneness of God’s Son is unassailed by his belief he knows not what he is. Today accept Atonement, not to change reality, but merely to accept the truth about yourself, and go your way rejoicing in the endless Love of God. It is but this that we are asked to do. It is but this that we will do today.”   (ACIM  L 139)

      God Bless           Ciao

      Tribute to a friend

      Sawadee Khrap

      Last month, Simon and I had a impromptu photo shoot with our visiting mutual friend Chris.  This is a special image I created using several Photoshop techniques.


      As you all know I study ACIM and it states that the body is but a symbol of separation from God.  But it is also emphasized that it’s NEITHER   good nor evil, but merely a symbol.  That symbol, can also be used by the Holy Spirit to show the beauty and grandeur of God’s presence,  if I but look from a perspective of Sinlessness. 

      A sunset, a rainbow, a nude,  These can all be opportunities to witness to God’ glory and Sonship.  As a gay man I prefer to view male bodies – how about you?   Where do you see the shining light of God’s love.

      God Bless        Ciao

      Dok Kaew Gardens

      Sawadee Khrap

      Jerry, a friend of mine , living in Dok Kaew Garden assisted living facility on McKean hospital Senior Center grounds showed me this beautiful area near his room.   What a wonderful place to meditate and relax.

      This is my    16 x 16 inch digital Acrylic Oil painting.  I’ve told them to keep a room open as I plan to retire there when my roving days are over – probably fairly soon   Lol.


      Grandeur NOT Grandiosity

      Sawadee Khrap

      “And I will give you the keys of the kingdom of heaven, and whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven.”   (Matthew 16:19)

      Wow, what responsibility !!    How humbling to realize that I have the power to block the peace of God  or BE the SAVIOUR of the world.  I have been granted the power of judgement – choosing Right from Evil.   Do I have the knowledge to use it properly or SHOULD I ASK FOR GUIIDANCE?   Isn’t  the improper use of judgment the ‘Original Sin’?.

      Grandiosity would dictate that I believe I have sufficient knowledge to make any and all judgements – Grandeur, would have me realize that I am an essential part   that is needed to complete the Sonship of God,  not block it.  Without ME the Sonship will be incomplete – my salvation IS the salvation of the world. 

      Grandeur would have me realize that I have the power to  enslave or free the world,  AS DOES ALL MY BROTHERS  –  Let me remove myself as an obstacle to peace of God and allow them to do their part.  They are as capable as I.   I am NOT their teacher as I am not my own.  I need not worry that they do their part – I need ONLY concentrate on doing MY part, bringing all my  judgments past/present,  binding the world,  to the Holy Spirit and allowing Him to choose for me.

      “Plan ahead is good advice in this world, where you should and must control & direct where you have accepted responsibility.   But the Universal Plan is in more appropriate hands. You will know
      all you need to know. Make NO attempts to plan ahead in this respect.”   (ACIM  T 1 B 4b)

      Lord,  Help me to change my mind about the world and stop trying to change the world to suit my needs.  Amen.

      God Bless    Ciao

      Can I accomplish MY part ???

      Sawadee Khrap

      I can,  if I concentrate on my function given me in the plan for awakening, fully recognizing that ALL others are doing THEIR functions as required.  I need NOT CONCEN myself about their progress – such concern will only serve to slow down mine which is needed to complete the whole.

      “Today I will judge nothing that occurs.  I will be honest with myself today. I will not think that I already know what must remain beyond my present grasp. I will not think I understand the whole from bits of my perception, which are all that I can see. Today I recognize that this is so. And so I am relieved of judgments that I cannot make. Thus do I free myself and what I look upon, to be in peace as God created us. Father, today I leave creation free to be itself. I honor all its parts, in which I am included. We are one because each part contains Your memory, and truth must shine in all of us as one.”  (ACIM Lesson 243)

      God Bless    Ciao.

      Getting my head around UNITY

      Sawadee Khrap

      UNITY of GOD – what does this mean?   God is ONE, the Sonship is ONE.  I AM

      I think the hardest part of trying to understand this concept is to realize that I am ‘a character in the illusion of this world’.   My perspective is a limited, special, separate character, Frank, in a chaotic illusionary world – A DREAM where I believe I am a real living  CHARACTER – the center of the dream.    If this is so, then I should carefully consider  ‘THE DREAMER’S part.

      First, Who is the Dreamer?  The Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End.   It’s certainly not me.  It’s the part of the ‘Son of God’ that ‘THINKS’ or dreams he is separate from God.  And as the character in His dream I need not bind the dream as reality – merely play the part given me, judging NOT, but allowing love to shine through.

      “Today I let Christ’s vision look upon All things for me and judge them not, but give Each one a miracle of love instead.  So would I liberate all things I see, and give to them the freedom that I seek. For thus do I obey the law of love, and give what I would find and make my own. It will be given me, because I have chosen it as the gift I want to give. Father, Your gifts are mine. Each one that I accept gives me a miracle to give. And giving as I would receive, I learn Your healing miracles belong to me.  Our Father knows our needs. He gives us grace to meet them all. And so we trust in Him to send us miracles to bless the world, and heal our minds as we return to Him.”  (ACIM Lesson 349)

      God Bless   Ciao

      Controversy–Messiah Season Series

      Sawadee Khrap

      I understand that there is a lot of controversy over the season.  First question,  is the lead character –  Jesus or the Antichrist?  Season 2 should begin to answer that question.

      The scene I have been talking to  my friend, Simon,  about is the scene that shows a child, I assume with her dad (with a shotgun), and apparently her dog who is  being crushed under the debris from a destroyed building,  after a tornado..  There was no other information provided and the little girl was crying and wanted someone to save her dog.

      Then the lead character (they are portraying like Jesus) enters and takes the gun and shoots the dog – The child asks “Why didn’t you save him? and he replied that he did and stopped his suffering.

      Wow, what do you think would be the best response to this story.

      I am reminded when in an alcoholic fog I prayed Jesus to heal me.  Let go and Let God (or Higher Power).   I believe He did and my mind was healed in that I no longer craved alcohol – BUT, I am still an alcoholic with a allergy to alcohol, only the pain, suffering and craving was healed or taken away.  My mind was healed NOT my body –  my allergy was not taken away and I have proven that to myself several times later by trying to have a drink.

      I am also reminded about a lady I met, 1990 or so,  when I went to a ACIM gay help group for terminal AIDS patients in San Francisco.  She told them she was given 3 weeks to live, from terminal cancer, and how blessed she was,  that she could relate to them and share with them her experience, strength, and hope.  She was there to tell them they were not alone and God loved them as He loved her.   She did die several weeks later.  Her mind was healed, NOT her body, she was at peace and could use her body and situation as a teaching device and not as an anchor dragging her down.  She was a wonderful profound teacher for me.

      My friend, Simon, also told me about his experience meeting a man with one arm.  I hope he comments and tells us the full story.

      As to the dog – there is not enough information that I could make a valid judgment.  Was the dog dying prior from another problem, cancer, tumor, old age, organ damage , etc., before the storm.  Would saving him from the current situation involve just releasing him from the trap?  Should healing go so far as to restore him to a ‘young’  healthy dog?  I cannot make a valid choice from my present perspective – I Don’t have ALL the facts and never really do.   Or is the LOVING response just to release him from his present suffering?

      Do NOT try to change the world – BUT change your MIND about the world !!!!   Look, Listen, and Do not judge – ASK for guidance.

      Please share your comments – we learn by sharing OUR EXPERIENCES, STRENGHTS, and HOPES….

      God Bless     Ciao.

      ACIM Lesson 355

      Sawadee Khrap

      When I clicked on my phone this morning  –  this was presented to me.  It needs no comments.

      “There is no end to all the peace and joy, And all the miracles that I will give, When I accept God’s Word. Why not today?

      Why should I wait, my Father, for the joy You promised me? For You will keep Your Word You gave Your Son in exile. I am sure my treasure waits for me, and I need but reach out my hand to find it. Even now my fingers touch it. It is very close. I need not wait an instant more to be at peace forever. It is You I choose, and my Identity along with You. Your Son would be Himself, and know You as his Father and Creator, and his Love.”

      Amen    God Bless     Ciao

      Gnosis vs Orthodoxy

      Sawadee Khrap

      Below is a link to a great lecture.  But pay close attention to what he is saying and at the end, in part 2, of what he is actually practicing in his daily life.   Gnostics or Orthodoxy – both extreme sides of the same road.     WHICH one is right?     WHAT is the MIDDLE path?

      Look, Listen, and do not judge!  See the world as a illusion of separation and specialness  – NOTHING  more and let it go.  NOT as good or evil – those are just judgements, made from my limited perspective, without ALL the facts.     Projections of specialness and separation.       Indeed:

      “Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it.”  (Matthew 7:13)

      NOTHING is hidden, NO SECRET ESOTERIC  KNOWLEDGE  –  ALL HAS BEN REVEALED – if I but look around and see through the eyes of Christ Jesus and relinquish all judgments to HIM.

      The Lost Gospel of Judas Discussed at RSE Part1,2

      God Bless    Ciao

      Historical Timeline

      Sawadee Khrap

      First, this is the best historical timeline I can find so far.  I will refer to it often in my following posts.

      1. Creation world    = 3950 BCE  Tian/Elohim = Heavenly Supreme (Love), Shang Di/Yahweh = Bringer of the law
      2. Tower Babel     = 2520 BC
      3. Noah born    = 2470-1320 BC
      4. Great flood     = 2342 BC   Shinar valley – migration Noah’s Sons – Ham, Japheth, Shem
      5. Chinese writing    = 2330 BC (Yellow Emperor-Huang Di) Shang Di (Chinese) story. (Shem’s prodigy)
      6. Hinduism(India)    = 2300 BC
      7. Emperor Shun    = 2230 BC   Last of the 5 Emperors.
      8. Xia Dynasty    = 2205 BC   Emperor personally preformed Border sacrifice.
      9. Abraham    = 2166 – 1991 BC
      10. Melchizedek     = 2066  BC   Abram tithes King of Salem (thought to be Shem)
      11. Ishmael, Isaac (Jews-Arabs) = 2000 BC
      12. Moses          = 1526 – 1406 BC   Yahweh (Hebrew – Israelites) Oral story.
      13. Altar to Heaven    = 1420 BC  Chinese complex built – no idols – one Supreme God.
      14. Israel mentioned  =    1208 BC  Egyptian – Merneptah Stele
      15. Daoism, Taoism    = 600 BC
      16. Buddhism (India)= 600 BC
      17. Torah         = 600-500 BC – modern scholars, collected during this period.
      18. Confucianism    = 500 BC
      19. Jesus        = 3-4 AD
      20. Buddhism in China = 68 AD
      21. Muhammad Born    = 571 AD

      Here are several videos on the Chinese pictograms.

      Knowledge of God, Creation and Flood in China’s History and Character writing.

      The God and Savior of Ancient China (Shocking!)

      The Gospel Message in Chinese Characters

      Note: The oral story of the flood, tower, and migration (Genesis) is told  both in both the Chinese Pictograms and Moses Myths. – but they are 750-1000 years apart.  Both cover the time from creation to the confusing of the languages and  scattering of the peoples (tribes).  They call their Gods by different names but everything else seems to be the same.   Both are monotheistic and comply to the same yearly sacrifice to their God – heifer, sheep, unblemished, killed with a spear, burnt at an alter. And both have sin and a SAVIOR  or Redeemer.  Interesting !!! 

      I will explore this subject in more detail in future posts.

      God Bless    Ciao

      “Messiah” on Netflix

      Sawadee Khrap

      Been watching Netflix’s  “Messiah”.   4 episodes so far and it’s great and keeps you at the edge of your seat.  But one glaring point has to be considered.  Is Jesus -the man, or , The Christ – The Spirit prophesied to return and usher in the new era. 

      TV has to use bodies, so the lead is characterized and looks like what is considered the historic Jesus.  But why would He come back in flesh, when He stated “His Kingdom was NOT of this world”?

      Jesus said His kingdom is in the heavenly world – Spirit – thought, beyond the material – where all is One.  It’s going to be interesting to see how they develop the message presented. 

      They tell you that it’s about a charismatic man who sparks a spiritual movement and political unrest.   A fictional story – or is it?     Who will we follow – the man or the Spirit?   Is the truth revealed EVEN in this series?

      God Bless     Ciao