Well its not easy to get back into single-land. Itâ€™s been over 7 months since I was there. I am very glad Team was honest and let me know he couldn’t or didnâ€™t want to, make any commitment at this time although I really wished it would have worked out.
Now, I am starting to look for new friends, but still I am only interested in finding a lasting relationship, not one night stands. And it seems the most of the guys here are JUST interested in quick hookups or only want a roommate with benefits. I had thought to return to Pattaya, but my trip to get my new phone poo-pooded that. Itâ€™s just way too humid down there for me. Boys or no boys, I just canâ€™t stand to be in that heat all the time. So Chiang Mai it is.
I really find Iâ€™m getting too old to chase around. So finding someone who wants to invest in a partnership that focuses on the future, primarily their future, is what I am looking for. I am not fooling myself thatâ€Loveâ€ will be the cement for any relationship particularly due to the age and culture differences. I also donâ€™t have the time or desire to starting anything for myself, for that matter my retirement VISA will not allow it. But I do think I have a lot to share, at least a great deal of experience in business and financial matters that Iâ€™m realizing is not being taught to these young men. Most are being trained to be â€œgood workersâ€ and little emphasis is being placed on how to plan, start or run a business. As I talk to a lot of them, there is no desire, they donâ€™t even consider that they have the ability or opportunities to start out on their own. Itâ€™s scary enough if you have had some help in this area, but daunting if your have never been introduced to it â€“ such is the case here. If anything I would like to help at least one to get a good start at a more secure independent future.
If I could leave this life knowing that I had helped just one to set a secure path then all my past problems would have ben worth it. God knows, at 76, sex cannot be the emphasis but I do want them to be devoted to the relationship for me to make any investment in their future. Thatâ€™s only fair to both for them spending time and being with me.
Oh well, just rambling â€“ back to the Grinder, Hornet, Blued apps and possible new friends.