Last night I had a battle with my demons. Before falling asleep, I had an anxiety or panic attack. Feelings of guilt, fear, pending doom, keeping me awake for quite a while . I couldn’t determine what they were actually about or for that matter WHY I was experiencing them, but they seemed very frightening. Some could call it the â€œdark night of the soulâ€. I am sure this will happen every time we venture into examining and exposing the egoâ€™s lies, on our path to recognizing the TRUTH. What are our memories but attachments or judgments as to what we considered good or evil, then classified to remembered or forgotten â€“ not let go as imagined, but regarded as true with some possibly deserving pardoning but never dismissed or forgiven.
Repeating , over and over, the statement â€œI am still as God created meâ€ helped and I did finally fall asleep. In the morning, I realized what had happened, the battle isn’t of this world but of the â€˜mindâ€™ dealing ultimately with the separation from God or my Self. My ego was trying to convince me that this world, which I see through the bodyâ€™s eyes, was real and as reality should be,
Today, as the day went on, I seem to have less tremors and side-effects from the old BP medicine â€“ must have been a withdraw affect from the drugs that triggered the attack, at least that sounds like a plausible reason. As I think back, the same process happened before at different stages of stopping the medsâ€¦The Parkinsonâ€™s like effects are getting less and less, but itâ€™s frustrating that itâ€™s taking so long, 6 months so far.,
God Blesses Christ Blesses I Bless