Who is the “Teacher”

Sawadee Khrap

Who is the “Teacher”?   I am a teacher by my actions, I teach what I believe,  as I do only what I have faith in or proclaimed as true for myself.  HOWEVER, I CANNOT instruct or guide, That “Teacher”  is ONLY the Holy Spirit………   I need only to share my experience, strength and hopes and to listen to others as they share theirs.

It is through the voice of the Holy Spirit that I hear and learn the truth – IT teaches, through the symbols (including bodies) of this world,  the truth of God’s Created world – the release from the dream of separation – The Good News- The Gospel .

Listen, learn and Do Not Judge!   The ONLY lesson I really need to learn and develop the habit of using in all situations.  Realizing that ALL situations are really the same – The idea that I am separated from God’s Unity – and the ONLY response is ONENESS through FORGIVNESS and LOVE.  There is no hierarchy or degrees of suffering – either there is Love or a LACK of love.  Separation is merely the DENIAL of LOVE’S PRESENCE.

I cannot change the world to fit my needs – I need to change my mind about the world and watch it change for everyone’s needs.  Release my judgements that bind the world and allow the “Dreamer” to manifest reality which IS God’s LOVE.

God Bless       Ciao

Air-Quality Chiang Mai

Sawadee Khrap

Got to thank Team for this tip – last year he told me about the 3M filter sheets that you can put in your aircons and clean the air in the room.  They work excellently – 350 baht each pkg. and I change every month in heavy polluted air.   One filter fits 2 aircons for me.

I ordered mine from Lazada OnLine and got fast shipment.


Hope this helps      

Wasn’t Me

I got this shot of a young boy’s T-shirt in my Condo lobby.  That was MY story and life before finding my path to salvation – IT WAS NEVER MY FAULT – Wasn’t me.


My drinking was always the result of the action of someone or something else.  If you suffered what I did,  you’d drink too. I took no responsibility for my actions or looked at it from this standpoint – ‘want to play then you have to pay’.  Simple, I paid —  but NEVER my fault or MY need for correction.

If you had a problem, I would be right there to offer you a solution.  My opinion – actually my judgement.  But in AA I learned that ONLY my experience is what I could offer – everything else is just hearsay.  And by OFFER I mean share not instruct. 

That was the start of my Spiritual Journey to find peace and a reason for life.  A spiritual journey where Christ and the Holy Spirit is now my guide and teacher.  BUT, I don’t have anything to say — I just had to post this photo!

God Bless       Ciao

Waking up ????

Sawadee Khrap

What does it mean to “Awaken”?.   How do I see the world I  am in?.    Is what I see actually my projection of my inner thoughts?

If I see a gloomy world then in my mind I am gloomy? ; if I see joy then my mind is joyful, otherwise it couldn’t see it..  It’s impossible to see a gloomy world and be happy at the same time.    If I am seeing an awaking world,  then what I am really seeing IS MYSELF awaking ………

Remembering what Jesus said:

“Assuredly, I say to you, whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven.”   (Matthew 18:18)

But from Google (actually Religions) see it:

“The crossed keys in the coat of arms of the Holy See symbolize the keys of heaven entrusted to Simon Peter. … The gold key alludes to the power in the kingdom of the heavens and the silver key indicates the spiritual authority of the papacy on earth”

Isn’t it convenient that Jesus was entrusting “Peter” with the fate of the universe, a man that Jesus said would deny him 3 time in a singe night.  The “church” has become the authority ????

Jesus’s message of “Self” awaking is  completely sidestepped,  it becomes ‘look to the church’ !.  That’s what I was taught when I was young and rebelled against, BUT lately I am seeing reform in the Religious Realms.  The Bible story and it’s message is being  re-evaluated from a salvation (self) perspective, which I believe was originally intended in Christ Jesus’s actual words.

Is the world changing OR AM I WAKING UP?   Am I seeing (my) FORGIVNESS applied to this world and seeing a FORGIVEN world?   Am I releasing the world of the condemning JUDGEMENTS that I made and bound heaven with ?

If so, am I a savior of the world ? , NOT in grandiosity but in Grandeur,  that I am a functioning part of the “Christ”  – The Son of God.   That without MY part being fulfilled there can be NO COMPLTION – the ONENSS of GOD.    

If we are ONE then without YOUR part, Oneness waits.  If we are ONE then ALL share in each others awaking.

God Bless      Ciao

Chiang Mai cannabis clinic

Sawadee Khrap

Thanks Ed for the heads up – Click on the image for details


I received this comment from Ed :

I went there today…First of all, it is open only on Wednesday from 1pm to 4 or 4:30. Spent over 30 minutes just finding the location as it is not priority for the people in the main area where you have to register so that you can be seen in the clinic and pay your bill when it’s all done. I went with a Thai lady to help me and they told us to go to several different locations before we finally got the straight poop; they didn’t even know at the desk where I registered.
The article above is highly misleading to say the least, about the number of medical staff and the number of doctors…they must have been talking about the staff for the entire hospital.
If you plan on going, you definitely need a Thai person to assist you. English is not spoken, it is a Thai hospital that caters to lower income Thais (my bill was 100 baht after speaking to the doctor). If you think you’d like to go, you go first to building #3 where you need to register (need passport). Then, you go up the escalaor to the second floor and after you land, turn left and keep an eye out for an area on the right side that leads to a balcony. When you get to the balcony, turn left and the clinic is the last office at the end. The Cannabis “clinic” is one of three rooms in that office.
I waited close to 2 hours. There was only 1 doctor, and she does not speak very much, if any, English. She has to fill out a questionairre, so you need to coach your Thai assistant with what ailments you hope to alleviate…I went in for insomnia and anxiety. There were 3 nurses attending mainly to administrative duties. Only the one doctor.
The bottom line is that they were out of stock on “medicine” (I don’t know exactly what I will get, but I imagine CBD oil) and they are going to call me when they can provide to me in roughly 3 weeks.
There were 2 people in line ahead of me and maybe 2 more behind; a far cry from the 22 the article claims for the opening. The first was another falang with his wife or gf, and he was talking to the doctor for
the better part of an hour, and the doctor did not arrive until about 1:30. The lady in front of me was around 20 minutes.
Parking was a bitch and we ended up parking at least 1/4 mile from the hospital.
I have no idea what the cost of the medication will be, how much I will receive, or if it will help my ailments.


PS. I went there with Simon and did not have this experience – ours was excellent and attentive – got right in and the Dr I met spoke English – but the clinic was for PAIN control first and they told me that they did not expect the CBD oils or Traditional Thai Herbal Dr for at least 2-3 more months. Frank

New Year’s Resolution

Sawadee Khrap

What is the difference between modem medicine and foods?  Last time I visited the doctor I was told that it would be impossible to eat enough greens to change my artery blockage, BUT I could take this 10 mg pill  to lower my blood pressure and solve my problem.   Sounds like magic to me.   The achievements of modern science.  Humanity trumpets over Reality.

But is doesn’t really make sense.   What  I ate and the actions I took  determined my present status,  high blood pressure and all.  I have to look at it honestly.

Did I eat the foods necessary to maintain a healthy system?  Did I exercise regularly?   Did I get the necessary sleep or did I have sleeping problems?  HONESTLY !!!   NO, of courses not.  I ate what I wanted and liked.  I drank what I wanted, not caring what it was really affecting.  I concentrated on changing reality to fit my desires without even considering the stress that would  create.   And when I felt the damaging effects of detritus material in my veins  I rushed to the medicine cabinet for a quick fix with a  cover up pill.  And it worked – getting me to where I am now. 

I have tempted God in every way and expected Him to send down His angels to save me from crashing on the rocks below – sounds like the same test Jesus took in the desert.  But I didn’t answer “Get behind me Satan”  I plowed right head and blamed God for not taking away my afflictions.

Today is a good time for Frank to begin his recovery by cultivating some basic habits, eating  only good foodstuffs, drinking only good liquids, getting proper exercise and sleep, and above all quite trying to change the world (forgive and reduce stress).

I do thank God that His help has always been provided, sometimes in the form of magic, to help me along my way.  That 10 mg pill will lower my blood pressure until I can find the right combination of proper foods to clean out my plugged arteries.  Right now I am trying to increase the Omega-3 / Omega-6 ratio by increasing plant  vs animal foods., – by adding 2 oz. of ground flaxseed in 3 Oz. applesauce every morning as breakfast.   Actually going back to what Elohim told me what He provide in Creation – “Plants and seeds will be my meat”.

God Bless    Ciao

What is ‘my’ Faith, Strength, Hope

Sawadee Khrap

My faith or belief is that this material world IS hell.  The opposite of what God (Elohim) CREATED .

      • Eat or be eaten
      • Life always ending in death
      • Attack, defend,  and attack again
      • Love given but later to be taken away
      • Existing in separate and special bodies
      • Constantly changing – nothing everlasting
      • Being SEPARATED from God (Spirit) – NOT ONE in ETERNITY

      I believe in direct communication with God/Christ and NOT dependent on a church, clergyman or any religious doctrine. I also do NOT perceive the world as good or evil,  but actually having NO value at all  except to be used as a temporary teaching aid  by the Holy Spirit. 

      I believe this world is but a EGO-centric projected dream of our perceived  desire to be special or separated from God and is elucidated in the Bible from Genesis 2 till the end.   A nightmare of ciaos.     My ‘mythology’  encompasses  the truths expressed in ancient Gnostics, ACIM, AA, Buddhism and the Bible.   I believe that a universal theology is impossible BUT that a universal EXPERIENCE is essential.

      ‘Salvation’  is to perceive and project a happy dream.  A dream that sees the world through the eyes of Christ – FORGIVEN.   A dream  so close to  heaven,  here on earth, that God Himself will lift us across the bridge from projection to knowledge without fear.

      So my core belief is that Jesus was the human  ‘material’  form,  in which “The Christ or God’s Son” was fully manifested.   He came into this world,  from the Elohim Creation, to overcome death, proving it was not real,  and to expose the ILLUSION or “DREAM of SEPARATION or SPECIALNESS”.   The dream that,  in the Abrahamitic tradition,  called for  the “redemption from sin” as described in the Bible  ( Yahwehist, Torah – The Law of Moses).  

      He, Jesus,  came to ‘FULFILL’  –  NOT endorse the law;     to ‘REDEEM’ from Sin  –  NOT  to condemn.   His message was to teach us that the story in Genesis 1 is the TRUTH and we are STILL, and have always been, as God CREATED  us,  “ONE” in His Image, Spirit, Likeness and Eternal Glory. Awakening to this fact or reality IS the end of suffering or Atonement/Enlightenment/Salvation.

      “We have a mission here. We did not come to reinforce the madness that we once believed in. Let us not forget the goal that we accepted. It is more than just our happiness alone we came to gain. What we accept as what we are proclaims what everyone must be, along with us. Fail not your brothers, or you fail yourself. Look lovingly on them, that they may know that they are part of you, and you of them.  This does Atonement teach, and demonstrates the Oneness of God’s Son is unassailed by his belief he knows not what he is. Today accept Atonement, not to change reality, but merely to accept the truth about yourself, and go your way rejoicing in the endless Love of God. It is but this that we are asked to do. It is but this that we will do today.”   (ACIM  L 139)

      God Bless           Ciao

      Tribute to a friend

      Sawadee Khrap

      Last month, Simon and I had a impromptu photo shoot with our visiting mutual friend Chris.  This is a special image I created using several Photoshop techniques.


      As you all know I study ACIM and it states that the body is but a symbol of separation from God.  But it is also emphasized that it’s NEITHER   good nor evil, but merely a symbol.  That symbol, can also be used by the Holy Spirit to show the beauty and grandeur of God’s presence,  if I but look from a perspective of Sinlessness. 

      A sunset, a rainbow, a nude,  These can all be opportunities to witness to God’ glory and Sonship.  As a gay man I prefer to view male bodies – how about you?   Where do you see the shining light of God’s love.

      God Bless        Ciao

      Dok Kaew Gardens

      Sawadee Khrap

      Jerry, a friend of mine , living in Dok Kaew Garden assisted living facility on McKean hospital Senior Center grounds showed me this beautiful area near his room.   What a wonderful place to meditate and relax.

      This is my    16 x 16 inch digital Acrylic Oil painting.  I’ve told them to keep a room open as I plan to retire there when my roving days are over – probably fairly soon   Lol.


      Grandeur NOT Grandiosity

      Sawadee Khrap

      “And I will give you the keys of the kingdom of heaven, and whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven.”   (Matthew 16:19)

      Wow, what responsibility !!    How humbling to realize that I have the power to block the peace of God  or BE the SAVIOUR of the world.  I have been granted the power of judgement – choosing Right from Evil.   Do I have the knowledge to use it properly or SHOULD I ASK FOR GUIIDANCE?   Isn’t  the improper use of judgment the ‘Original Sin’?.

      Grandiosity would dictate that I believe I have sufficient knowledge to make any and all judgements – Grandeur, would have me realize that I am an essential part   that is needed to complete the Sonship of God,  not block it.  Without ME the Sonship will be incomplete – my salvation IS the salvation of the world. 

      Grandeur would have me realize that I have the power to  enslave or free the world,  AS DOES ALL MY BROTHERS  –  Let me remove myself as an obstacle to peace of God and allow them to do their part.  They are as capable as I.   I am NOT their teacher as I am not my own.  I need not worry that they do their part – I need ONLY concentrate on doing MY part, bringing all my  judgments past/present,  binding the world,  to the Holy Spirit and allowing Him to choose for me.

      “Plan ahead is good advice in this world, where you should and must control & direct where you have accepted responsibility.   But the Universal Plan is in more appropriate hands. You will know
      all you need to know. Make NO attempts to plan ahead in this respect.”   (ACIM  T 1 B 4b)

      Lord,  Help me to change my mind about the world and stop trying to change the world to suit my needs.  Amen.

      God Bless    Ciao

      Can I accomplish MY part ???

      Sawadee Khrap

      I can,  if I concentrate on my function given me in the plan for awakening, fully recognizing that ALL others are doing THEIR functions as required.  I need NOT CONCEN myself about their progress – such concern will only serve to slow down mine which is needed to complete the whole.

      “Today I will judge nothing that occurs.  I will be honest with myself today. I will not think that I already know what must remain beyond my present grasp. I will not think I understand the whole from bits of my perception, which are all that I can see. Today I recognize that this is so. And so I am relieved of judgments that I cannot make. Thus do I free myself and what I look upon, to be in peace as God created us. Father, today I leave creation free to be itself. I honor all its parts, in which I am included. We are one because each part contains Your memory, and truth must shine in all of us as one.”  (ACIM Lesson 243)

      God Bless    Ciao.

      Getting my head around UNITY

      Sawadee Khrap

      UNITY of GOD – what does this mean?   God is ONE, the Sonship is ONE.  I AM

      I think the hardest part of trying to understand this concept is to realize that I am ‘a character in the illusion of this world’.   My perspective is a limited, special, separate character, Frank, in a chaotic illusionary world – A DREAM where I believe I am a real living  CHARACTER – the center of the dream.    If this is so, then I should carefully consider  ‘THE DREAMER’S part.

      First, Who is the Dreamer?  The Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End.   It’s certainly not me.  It’s the part of the ‘Son of God’ that ‘THINKS’ or dreams he is separate from God.  And as the character in His dream I need not bind the dream as reality – merely play the part given me, judging NOT, but allowing love to shine through.

      “Today I let Christ’s vision look upon All things for me and judge them not, but give Each one a miracle of love instead.  So would I liberate all things I see, and give to them the freedom that I seek. For thus do I obey the law of love, and give what I would find and make my own. It will be given me, because I have chosen it as the gift I want to give. Father, Your gifts are mine. Each one that I accept gives me a miracle to give. And giving as I would receive, I learn Your healing miracles belong to me.  Our Father knows our needs. He gives us grace to meet them all. And so we trust in Him to send us miracles to bless the world, and heal our minds as we return to Him.”  (ACIM Lesson 349)

      God Bless   Ciao

      Controversy–Messiah Season Series

      Sawadee Khrap

      I understand that there is a lot of controversy over the season.  First question,  is the lead character –  Jesus or the Antichrist?  Season 2 should begin to answer that question.

      The scene I have been talking to  my friend, Simon,  about is the scene that shows a child, I assume with her dad (with a shotgun), and apparently her dog who is  being crushed under the debris from a destroyed building,  after a tornado..  There was no other information provided and the little girl was crying and wanted someone to save her dog.

      Then the lead character (they are portraying like Jesus) enters and takes the gun and shoots the dog – The child asks “Why didn’t you save him? and he replied that he did and stopped his suffering.

      Wow, what do you think would be the best response to this story.

      I am reminded when in an alcoholic fog I prayed Jesus to heal me.  Let go and Let God (or Higher Power).   I believe He did and my mind was healed in that I no longer craved alcohol – BUT, I am still an alcoholic with a allergy to alcohol, only the pain, suffering and craving was healed or taken away.  My mind was healed NOT my body –  my allergy was not taken away and I have proven that to myself several times later by trying to have a drink.

      I am also reminded about a lady I met, 1990 or so,  when I went to a ACIM gay help group for terminal AIDS patients in San Francisco.  She told them she was given 3 weeks to live, from terminal cancer, and how blessed she was,  that she could relate to them and share with them her experience, strength, and hope.  She was there to tell them they were not alone and God loved them as He loved her.   She did die several weeks later.  Her mind was healed, NOT her body, she was at peace and could use her body and situation as a teaching device and not as an anchor dragging her down.  She was a wonderful profound teacher for me.

      My friend, Simon, also told me about his experience meeting a man with one arm.  I hope he comments and tells us the full story.

      As to the dog – there is not enough information that I could make a valid judgment.  Was the dog dying prior from another problem, cancer, tumor, old age, organ damage , etc., before the storm.  Would saving him from the current situation involve just releasing him from the trap?  Should healing go so far as to restore him to a ‘young’  healthy dog?  I cannot make a valid choice from my present perspective – I Don’t have ALL the facts and never really do.   Or is the LOVING response just to release him from his present suffering?

      Do NOT try to change the world – BUT change your MIND about the world !!!!   Look, Listen, and Do not judge – ASK for guidance.

      Please share your comments – we learn by sharing OUR EXPERIENCES, STRENGHTS, and HOPES….

      God Bless     Ciao.