Amazing, about Sept 7th I was told about having glaucoma and was prescribed eye drops to reduce the pressure in my eyes. Did that ever start a chain of events that a month would finally lead me to being single again. Prior to that my BP was stable about 110-122 and I felt very calm and happy – I think our relationship was too, I did have some apprehension about how close we were but I think that we were getting closer – I have to admit that I did rush into the affair, which I shouldn’t have have done and really taken it slower with him. But that being said, as I look back now I think we were on a path to possibly making it work. Then came the eye drops!!
The first drops, when sleeping, caused terrible pain in my legs and knees and real vivid bad paranoiac dreams. So we went to the next trial, the dreams became less but the pain continued and my BP started to climb. By the time we got to the third medicine, my BP was back to pre-stent time 160-200 and my composure and temperament had started to go through the roof. I could notice it in my driving but didn’t think I was also projection it toward my relationship. I had also started to develop paranoia about our relationship being true. Little things would really had become large problems. It’s always a task to make a multi-culture relationship work but with this added influence it would become impossible.
I had started lashing about about little things that I saw that I thought were undermining our relations, especially at night, trying to get to sleep, I would see all the possible infractions that was leading to the conclusion that he didn’t love me. Well the rest is history, we broke up after a big fight. Can’t use hind sight here.
For the past several days I have stopped all eye drops and my BP is slowly dropping with my mood and temperament becoming more calm. It’s really a remarkable change that I can feel, I don’t know what the glaucoma status is – too late for the relationship but possibly some help to others that are fighting high BP and glaucoma.
All I can say is be careful of what drugs you take – I am going back first to the Cardiologist tomorrow and go over the whole series of events and the BP drug interactions with the glaucoma medicine. And then get the two doctors in concert before trying any new drugs again. Hopefully there is a better way to control the eye pressure, short of Laser Surgery, that doesn’t effect my BP or personality. As for the relationship, I really hope he finds the Bear he was always looking for.