Opening my eyes..

Sawadee Khrap

Today’s lesson and yesterdays experience.

Love, which created me, is what I am.

I seek my own Identity, and find It in these words: “Love, which created me, is what I am.”
Now need I seek no more. Love has prevailed. So still It waited for my coming home, that I will turn away no longer from the holy face of Christ. And what I look upon attests the truth of the Identity I sought to lose, but which my Father has kept safe for me.

Father, my thanks to You for what I am; for keeping my Identity untouched and sinless, in the midst of all the thoughts of sin my foolish mind made up. And thanks to You for saving me from them. Amen.

“In the midst of all the thoughts of sin MY mind made-up”    WOW – this was shown me yesterday on a trip I took with a friend.   A road trip to the Elephant Hospital in Lampang and along the way a visit the statue of the Sitting Monk at Lamphun.  It was a nice trip even though it rained the whole time and nothing was open,  but that was not to be the lesson.  What I did come to realize was a lesson in the  “Two-Sided Sword of Judgment”.

During our journey it was time for lunch and so my friend picked a restaurant to stop at, a Thai restaurant.  It was very small and when we went it  I realized at I had already made a judgment of what the experience would be like.  Sure enough it was, most items on the menu were not available, difficulty trying to order as I spoke no Thai and getting across my needs seemed almost impossible.  My friend commented “why you are you getting angry and raising your voice”, to which I immediately replied I was not angry but disappointed and frustrated.  I also explained the problems in Thailand of Thai’s holding resentments,  only to come out later as road-rage – on the other hand I display my feelings and let them go,  rather than letting them build up. Much better approach, and definitely a culture difference.   But is that the real case?

JUDGMENT is a two-edged sword.   So what are the ramifications of this?    First:  What I SEE is what I first determine in MY mind and then, denying it exists in my mind, I project it out in an illusionary dream of others,  who holding their resentments, are believing  to be victims being attacked by external forces.  The anger, that I accuse them of suppressing,  is actually the anger I have myself.   And to support this foolish folly,  I display a attitude of righteous indignation, which I profess as letting go.  I can then point to THEM and justify my actions.   NONSENSE

Both judgments start with the same anger –(a judgment not being met)  MINE.   There’s only one anger – MINE – when God didn’t grant my judgment to be SPECIAL.  I cannot escape it by letting it go OR projecting it out – as the CHARACTER in the dream I must realize that ONLY the DREAMER can control the story where it began, the fear of separation manifested as anger.  

“In the midst of all the thoughts of sin MY mind made-up”     I am still as God Created me  – but dreaming.   Letting the Holy Spirit with Christ make all judgements is the key.   The Character’s role is merely to LOOK, LISTEN and DO NOT JUDGE, and practice it in every situation.

God Bless        Christ  Bless          I Bless