The Gospel
(Good News)
according to Frank
It’s simple, We were created in innocence and will always remain as God (Elohim) created us. Our
dream of separation and specialness is only an illusion, a nightmare of fear and death, being without
Love, perception instead of knowledge. Jesus, “The Christ” proved this was true and with His and the
Holy Spirit’s guidance we can also recognize the Truth.
What God created innocent, always was and will remain eternally innocent.
Forgiveness is the key to understanding this, “I need do nothing”, in fact I have to stop what I have
been doing, making judgments and look through Christ’s Vision to see everything as it really is.
Innocent and shining in God’s Eternal Love.
Let me explain
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Table of Contents
Preface........................................................................................................................................................3
Chapter: (1) My Model – (The Dream of the World of Separation, Judgment & Suffering)....................4
Clarification of Terms..........................................................................................................................12
ACIM – “A Course in Miracles”....................................................................................................12
Real World – One with God - The final illusion of Heaven...........................................................12
The World (The illusion we think we live in).................................................................................12
Body – The actors in the dream .....................................................................................................13
Ego –Belief that God’s Son usurped God.......................................................................................13
Christ – The Son of God (Dreamer of the dream)..........................................................................13
Jesus – The earthly (body) representation of the Christ.................................................................13
Holy Spirit – The Thought of God..................................................................................................14
Sin - Errors (Judgments) that are in need of correction..................................................................14
Forgiveness – The Holy Spirit’s method to correct errors..............................................................15
Miracles Correction of errors, judgments.......................................................................................15
Healing – Healed Mind / Body.......................................................................................................15
Last Judgment – The Second Coming............................................................................................16
Chapter: (2) Summary Chart....................................................................................................................17
Chapter: (3) Supporting Data...................................................................................................................19
My descent into darkness – the world of separation & suffering........................................................19
My awaking from the dream of separation – AA..........................................................................21
When the student is ready the Teacher will arrive – ACIM...........................................................23
Religions and the Gods........................................................................................................................25
Bible and Judaism and Christianity................................................................................................26
Genesis.......................................................................................................................................26
Elohim MOST HIGH GOD.......................................................................................................30
Yahweh LORD God...................................................................................................................31
Buddhism , Islam, and other spiritual practices..............................................................................34
Hypocrisy of the Churches – at least my interpretation......................................................................36
Jesus’s Teachings.................................................................................................................................38
My God, My God, Why has Thou Forsaken me?...........................................................................39
Who do you say I am - Commandments, Sayings and Parables....................................................41
Judas and the Crucifixion & Resurrection......................................................................................46
The Holy Spirit –& Ego......................................................................................................................47
Holy Spirit (God’s quiet voice)......................................................................................................47
Analysis of the Ego (The loudest voice).........................................................................................47
My Miracles........................................................................................................................................47
Healing – The mind or the body - Spiritual Hypochondria.................................................................48
Special Relationships & Sexuality......................................................................................................49
Homosexuality................................................................................................................................49
AAAlcoholics Anonymous..............................................................................................................51
Modern Science, Entertainment, Misc................................................................................................52
Center of the Universe....................................................................................................................52
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Preface
Or
( How to catch a monkey )
Do you know how to catch a monkey. You build a transparent box with a round hole in one side just
big enough for a monkey to put his hand in – then you load the trap with a banana. The monkey will
see the banana and reach in and grab his prize and will not let go as you approach – greed. The
monkey is trapped. I was such a monkey – attracted by sex, power, money, alcohol, such an addict
that I could not let go and therefore I descended into darkness.
Chapter (1) Model of Human Existence & Clarification of terms used with the model
Chapter (2) Summary chart of a spiritual path = Outline
Chapter (3) Supporting data In Chapter (1) I present a general outline and discussion of the
model I propose . I have separated off the supporting data rather than include it in the main
discussion to make easier reading – detailed and sticking points can be further addressed in the
supporting data sections. If at any time, when some of the ideas which are presented here need
more detailed clarification, one can look to the supporting data.
3/31/2017
Frank Nystrom
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Chapter: (1) My Model – (The Dream of the World of
Separation, Judgment & Suffering)
When I was a chemist I developed a model of solubility based on physical measurements that I could
apply to any combinations of solvents and predict their solubility. Preforming numerous experiments I
could not find any combination that did not hold true to the model and so I considered the model to be
accurate, at least to the extent of the quality of my measurements.
I would come to apply this same methodology in developing a model defining Who, What and Where I
am. I would first determined the basics for the model and then test the existing data to see if it fits.
Every model has a starting point or assumption and its results or conclusions are influenced by that
reference point. The data is interpolated through eyes of this perspective. In my model of Theology, –
it will be started from innocence rather than from sin. I will explain as we go along.
This is what I have come to believe. I finally found my answer to the question “Who and What am I?
and Why am I here?”. All my life, I have had the feeling that I really didn’t belong here, but I can not
remember where I used to be. Or why do I even have this feeling.
My awaking began in AA when I was about 48 years old and has been developing ever since using the
teachings of AA (Alcoholics Anonymous), ACIM (A Course in Miracles), and the Bible. Guided by the
Voice for God – THE HOLY SPIRIT
Let me explain. I grew up in a Christian society and so I will start the development of my model from
that perspective but will show later, in the supporting data, that it is true for many other paths too.
Universal truths are in every theology and/or belief but the symbolism in each is more individualist and
so my starting point must be from where I based my belief, using symbols irrespective of being right
or wrong.
The only God I knew, prior to my awaking, was the one that I was told had sent His only Begotten Son
to die on the cross for me and my accepting Him into my life was the only way salvation could be won.
Salvation from what? This world?, From God? That always confused me – His Son had to die for me.
Did that mean that God was a vengeful God and demanded sacrifice and punishment for mistakes made
? Was I also being held responsible to “original sin” which someone else had committed but I was just
as guilty?. And of course, on top of all of this, were all of my own “sins”.
The stories, I learned or remember, in the Bible depicted a vengeful God, with human characteristics. A
doctrine full of myths, mysteries and demanded blind faith. An elaborate scheme that required God’s
Son or if God is All, God Himself to die on a cross for our mistakes. A church which was attended to
by a clergy who didn't even follow the same rules, The entire theology built on half-truths, excluding
anyone who didn’t believed exactly the same doctrine, even within their own ranks.- Nothing
consistent that I could base my belief on. I rebelled at every point of my life against this and lashed out
desperately to prove that I was right.
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The AA program opened the door, ever so slightly, to a new understanding of living. As AA puts it, I
would have to be in enough pain – hit my bottom – to be able to asked for help. The very thing I
thought gave me power and courage, alcohol, had only the power to destroy me and I was powerless to
fight against it A chink in the walls my ego had built as AA puts it, its pain, brought me to my knees,
and forced me to ask God if He would show me a better way to live.. This request was answered,
although the answer was not apparent to me at the that time,.
Nevertheless, my drinking continued and I was again confronted with another drunk driving
conviction. For a long time I would sporadically go to meetings and then after each go to the bars to
discuss with my friends whether it was a good/bad one. Just going to some meetings didn’t seem to
help. Help came through the courts , I was forced to start the AA program and attend on a regular
basis. I started doing what they told me to do and ran into my first obstacle, a belief in a “Higher
Power”. A true functioning and loving God, or what ever I wanted to call Him. But, a power
nevertheless that I could not see, or touch but had to know His presence was there. At this time in my
recovery, I took AA itself as my Higher Power and started doing the 12 Steps..
Step 4 through 9 Involved being honest to myself, and proved to be the turning point in my sobriety.
Making a list of my past actions and what and who they affected, my feelings and how they affected
me and my outlook on life, opened the door. Actually doing the steps rather than talking about them.
Reluctantly, I was becoming more honest with myself. Eventually, I could see where my misguided
judgments had formed the world that I believed I lived in. That in reality I was responsible for my life,
I alone, not any external influences. That I had built a wall around myself and refused to let others in
or actually know me.
The mask I had put on, in my frantic attempts to show the world what I thought they wanted , never
really allowing them to see who I really was. How could I find love, respect, happiness when what I
was showing the world was not me but a lie, How could they love a lie. AA started me on a path of
honesty, openly showing others who I really am. These early steps , where I admitted my resentments
and mistakes , showed me that forgiveness was possible and being honest with myself did promote a
better way of living.
As I stated to understand that I had been forgiven, I saw that I needed much more to forgive others .I
began to understand the true meaning of forgiveness. Forgiveness of what I thought others had done to
me but more important than that, I had to forgive them for what I had accused them of NOT doing – I
had hated them for not seeing how strong I was, how great, intelligent, sexy, and so on. One of my
major resentments was that God had put me here and then was not here when I needed Him, or at least
He didn’t do what I wanted. This was the hardest of all resentments to admit.
I had finally started admitting all my errors, mistakes and resentments. I was learning to be honest and
that would also force me to openly profess my sexual preference – I was gay. For years I had tried to
hide as a heterosexual, hiding all my feelings, never being happy, never knowing why. The “truth” was
starting to set me free. But still accepting the church and society attitudes , I was still filled with guilt
for my lifestyle How would this be resolved? Church theology said God hated gays but he was also
the perpetrator of my present situation, forgiveness was not possible in this frame of reference, pardon
at best.. -I had not asked to be here nor be gay -
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The church and its Theology seems to be based strictly on the happenings from Genesis chapter 2. As
outlined in Scripture, from a Jewish perspective, it was developed in the first five books of the Bible
(Pentateuch), called the Old Testament and culminated in the New Testament with Jesus’s teachings
and finally “Revelations”. It’s basic perspective was sin – original sin - Judaism demanded a Messiah ,
a Savior who would save God’s people from repression and slavery. A Warrior to liberate them from
their captors (Romans) hands and end their suffering and hardships in this life. But, rather than a
warrior, Jesus came as a Suffering Servant, the Sacrificial Lamb, Redeemer of God’s chosen people.
Jesus would have to die on the cross to satisfy God’s requirement for the forgiveness of all sins. The
narrative developed from Chapter 2 onward demanded His death for SINS.
Christianity, building on the Judaeo interpretation, continued to believe that God demanded sacrifice
for the forgiveness of sin. Jesus was that sacrifice. And finally “Revelations” summed it up, the classic
battle of the Anti-Christ (Ego, 666, man-man-man) and Jesus Christ’s second coming.
God had made an imperfect man, supposedly giving him free will, yet put him in a position where his
imperfection would sin. Only God or God’s Son could pay the supreme sacrifice and die for our sins to
correct the mistake. God had to die for God to satisfy the need for sacrifice demanded for God’s
original mistake. That theory completely leaves us out of the path for correction, we can never satisfy
that requirement for atonement. We would always be guilty and indebted to Jesus. I had trouble with
this theology and felt that something was missing.
Several years after I began my AA recovery, I was introduced to “A Course In Miracles”, (ACIM). I
was really leery of the “Course” but the more I read it the more I was convinced that this was the way
for me. As I started to study the “Course” and do it’s lessons, I was to find and know God and Jesus
from a different perspective than my old church version. A new understanding of Jesus’s message. All
inclusive, a savior for everyone, even gays. Forgiveness again was the key, forgiveness of the mad
idea that the Perfect could be corrupted. This Theology started from innocence.
Somewhere around 1995, I started to attend an ACIM church in the area and had a real awaking when I
attended in 2000 the first ACIM International Conference in San Francisco., there I heard Rev. Jon
Mundy say that all Rabbis at Jesus’s time started their sermons with a Psalm – “My God, My God.
Why have thou forsaken me”, is the start of Psalm 22 ending with Psalm 23. This is what Jesus was
to have shouted out on the cross, then he said “it is finished” and gave up his spirit. .This was a major
revelation for me. Jesus was telling what he was doing on the cross – not because his Father (Elohim)
demanded it but because the (Yahweh) Theology demanded it Everything started to fall into place for
me now.-
ACIM showed me a different perspective of Jesus’s message and a more inclusive Theology. (I’ll
explain this in more detail in the Supporting data) It began to show me what was valuable and what
had no value – the eternal, timeless world of God verses the transient, impermanent world of dreams.
Jesus said “why gain the world to lose your soul” To learn to distinguish and value that which is
God’s, not what I had made through my judgments in this world. To know what used to be a mystery,
to see the truth and “Christ” in everything, to understand Jesus’s teaching and follow His path.
I now believe that Jesus was the first man to see the face of “CHRIST”, [God’s Son], the reality of who
he actually was.. Remember in Revelations when Jesus said He was the Alpha and Omega, first and
the last. It began with “The Christ” and it will end with “The Christ”. Because of this, He could be in
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the world but not part of it, he could see the truth for the false, the lie of separation, the world of the
Ego. And knew it false. And so He could also forgive, not pardon, but forgive, realizing nothing had
really happened to the Son of God, that this was only a DREAM. He saw through the illusion and
therefor He could raise the dead, walk on water, turn water into wine, show us that the it was all a
dream, and finally teach us death is impossible.
Somehow in the church’s teaching the story of creation in Genesis (1) was glossed over, lost or ignored,
IE. God (Elohim) created the heavens and earth, God created His Son, man/woman in His own image
– spirit. God said it was Good (Perfect) – How could the All, the One have an enemy, how could the
All defy itself and attack itself. How could the All – timeless, eternal become limited by time? How
could “Spirit” become trapped in a finite body? These are the questions that plagued me and could not
be answered with the church’s theology based on original sin. Only from a perspective of innocence
could this be explained. I hope to address here.
In the supporting data I will also present more information about Elohim. For instance the story of
Enoch, who walked with Elohim, and references to Melchizedek, King of Salem(Jerusalem) and priest
of the Most High God Elohim where later in the Bible Hebrews 6:20 says, “[Jesus] has become a high
priest forever, in the order of Melchizedek” But for now back to my analysis.
The story of man and the Ego begins in chapter 2 where the Lord God (Yahweh) made man from the
dust of the earth and then made women from the rib of man. And breathed life into them
"The Bible mentions that "a deep sleep fell upon Adam," and nowhere is there any reference to
his waking up. ACIM Text Ctp 2 ppg 18:6)"
Consciousness was the first split that man introduced into himself. He became a PERCEIVER, rather
than a creator in the true sense. Consciousness is correctly identified as the domain of the ego. The ego
is a man-made attempt to perceive himself as he WISHED to be, rather than as he IS. To seek what
would make him happy and whole other than God. To perceive illusions. A “Collective
Consciousness” the world, and an “Individual Consciousness”. it’s characters.
From that chapter on, man was separated from God, sinned, became conscience of himself and
sentenced to a life of sin. But remember, Sin was “missing the mark”, making an error in judgment,
errors can be corrected by right thinking – we will also explore this fact later in more detail.
I am reminded of the lyrics in the song Stardust into Men:
There once was a time, when we live behind. In another space, in another space.
Stardust into men, only love was there. Happiness everywhere, all over the place.
Stardust into men, stardust into men. It's how we began, it's how we began.
Come in out of the rain, come in out of the rain. It's how we began, it's how we began.
In the beginning we had everything, now we're missing secretly.
it's time to change, this part of the game. Stardust into man, stardust into man/
That's how we began, that's how we began.
So this is our modern scene, even there’s. Somewhere in between, somewhere in between.
There you can hide, speak with your spiritual guide. Coming out, coming out of the rain.
We were given, given everything. All, all we had to do was listen.
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That's how we began...Don't forget, don't forget it “ [Stardust into Men (feat Rhonda
Bellamy)]
SO, between Genesis 1 and 2 something indescribable must have happened. I’m going to propose that
we start our model on the premise that “THAT indescribable something was that Gods Son ask
Himself a ridiculous mad (insane) question. “Is there anything other than God that will make me
happy?
And He thought about it, BANG, (The Big Bang, nothing from nothing) this world was created or made
if you like. A dream of God’s Son ( The CHRIST ), a dream of separation, a nightmare of being
without God. And so began our dream of turning our back on God, but how do we justify the existence
of the world - who created it, there must be something, so a god was invented, a god, with human
characteristics, after all we can only make from what our senses tell us – so thus the story begins.
My God, had we-killed God, or pushed Him out of our world, would He retaliate, punish us for our
“sin” As genesis (2) says ‘we saw our nakedness and were ashamed’ Perhaps it would be better if we
punished ourselves first to show God that we were sorry and lessen his wrath. A world of suffering was
born to adjudicate our guilt. Punishment being done to us but not by us. The entire story or dream
wrapped around the idea that we had left God and everything was being done to us – not by us.
So in the dream, the MOST HIGH GOD (Elohim – Chapter 1) would become a vengeful, and
demanding punishment, god– LORD GOD (Yahweh – Chapter 2), First he made Adam and Eve,
knowing they would sin, and put them in the garden and told them not to eat of the tree of knowledge,
then later he kicked them out of the garden for their inability to obey, condemning all of their children
to eternal hardship and toil, pain at giving birth, and so on. But they say God knows everything so he
would have known this would happen. Demanding obedience or He would display His wrath on us or
those He considered enemies. This doesn’t sound like the God who created everything perfect and like
Himself. But this was the god we developed in the dream to replace the True God Elohim.
Consider another story in the Bible of Lot, who the LORD God allowed to be tortured by the devil just
to prove a point. Lot had to suffer, proving his alliance, before God restored all his earthly treasures.
But we all know when you die you cannot take them with you, so what good would that be, give back
what he was going to lose in the long term anyway – theres no justice is that.
Problem is we can still see love and beauty in this nightmare dream. As we look around a world of
death, despair, hatred, war, we see killing and attack BUT, we also see love and unexplained beauty.
God [Elohim] is life and in God we live, we are still ONE even though we may think we turned our
back on God, we can never totally remove His Presence, nor stop seeing glimpses of His Love.
So, here is the model that I have come to believe in and follow:
The world I see is merely a dream of separation from God, [the Father], by the Son. A nightmare of
being alone, without God. Somehow in Eternity, where all is one, there crept a tiny, mad idea, at
which the Son of God remembered not to laugh Perhaps He asked a question “ is there anything other
than God will make me happy ?”, and he thought about it Bang, the illusion, the material universe
was made, time made including past and future, and all the possibilities were thought of. The Eternal
was isolated into a finite.”body”
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I think of it like a flip-card movie done at God speed. Any one card has only one instance of a
character but flipped at high speed it appears that a complete movie, frame by frame, is running. Each
character coming from a different perspective, interacting with each other, and yet actually there is only
one character at any time is in a frame.. A Disney animation of sorts, only running at God speed.
Similar to Star Trek's ”Holographic deck” or the “Matrix - connective incubator”.
Millions on millions of possibilities, different perspectives, characters or bodies, populating an entire
world, universe; all searching for the same answer. “Is there anything other than God that will make me
happy ? For instance, “Frank” one of the characters or bodies in the dream, searching for an answer
to what and who he was and what would make him happy. That is still my life to this very day –
searching for what will make and keep me happy. Into this dream Jesus “The Christ” came to bring
the light of God.(Elohim) God’s answer is the Holy Spirit. As Jesus said there are no secrets and all
will be reveled if we but ask. Slowly I am finding that this is true – the only LASTING thing which
will truly make me happy is a relationship with GOD.
The first judgment was a mistake, that we are separate from God, and then layer upon layer of
judgments plied on top until the world (I / we) was hopefully lost and so confused that we could not
possibly find our way back to the truth. The characters in the dream could not possibly know what
lives outside the dream, the bodys senses are only able to react to the dream. An external force would
be needed, knowledge that the dream was an illusion, a nightmare, had to come to show the way – I
believe Jesus, who saw the face of “Christ [the dreamer of the dream]”, bringer of the Holy Spirit is
that way.
Thus “the ONLY way to the Father is through the Son” is a statement of fact, NOT a statement of
exclusion. In REALITY there is ONLY the FATHER and the SON, UNITED as ONE THOUGHT -
[LOVE] – all else is an illusion, a dream of separation.
Matthew 23:9 And call no man your father upon the earth: for one is your Father, which is in
heaven.
John 8:42 Jesus said unto them, If God were your Father, ye would love me: for I proceeded
forth and came from God; neither came I of myself, but he sent me. 43 Why do ye not
understand my speech? even because ye cannot hear my word. 44 Ye are of your father the
devil, and the lusts of your father ye will do. He was a murderer from the beginning, and abode
not in the truth, because there is no truth in him. When he speaketh a lie, he speaketh of his
own: for he is a liar, and the father of it.
The “Course” states it so eloquently as an ancient song still remembered
You know the ancient song, and know it well. Nothing will ever be as dear to you as is this
ancient hymn the Son of God sings to his Father still. And now the blind can see, for that
same song they sing in honor of their Creator gives praise to them as well. The blindness which
they made will not withstand the memory of this song. And they will look upon the vision of the
Son of God, remembering who he is they sing of. What is a miracle but this remembering? And
who is there in whom this memory lies not? The light in one awakens it in all. And when you see
it in each other, you ARE remembering for everyone. ACIM
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So there it is: This world is a dream, an illusion, a nightmare where everything is the opposite from the
World God [Elohim] Created:
finite Vs. Infinite
time Vs. Eternity
darkness Vs. Light
separation Vs. Oneness
making Vs. Creating
perception Vs. Knowledge
Ego Vs. Truth
bodies Vs. Spirit
sin / sickness Vs Perfection
special relationships Vs. Love
death Vs. Life
Forgiveness, as Jesus proclaimed is the key to salvation. As Jesus showed in his last sermon, while on
the cross, that death was an illusion, a shadow in the valley he would walk through. It was not a
sacrifice demanded by God, but merely a nightmare dream justifying sin that could not stand up to the
Light of God. And He would prove it so by His Resurrection.
Sickness is also an illusion, a way the Ego uses to try and prove that God had been attacked. This need
not be. Miracles of Healing will remove the dream of separation from our eyes. Errors in judgment
will be corrected by the Holy Spirit and reveal a world where only the face of Christ can be seen. A
healed world as close to heaven as Heaven itself – where the MOST HIGH GOD could wake His
sleeping Son unto Himself again.
Jesus taught that it was only Right-mindfulness (thinking) that was important – If you were a soldier
be a good soldier, not stealing from those you protect,: If you were a tax collector, do not cheat the
government or the citizens. If you think about adultery in your mind you have committed a sin. He
did not come to take away our world but merely to show that it was unreal, a figment of our
imagination, but more than that, thoughts do have consequences. What happened in the dream was an
illusion and really didn't matter – it is the thoughts or judgements behind our actions that made the ego,
shame, guilt, and fear that keeps this world going.
The Last Judgment, the epic battle of Light verses Darkness, Good verses Evil, Satan,( Ego, the great
deceiver) verses Christ.. Right-mindfulness and the letting go of the dream. Seeing Christ’s face
everywhere, His Light shining away the darkness of the ego’s insanity. LOVE’s Perfection seen again.
Today, April 16, 2017 in Chiang Mai, Thailand – EASTER SUNDAY , I was watching a video by Rev.
Jon Mundy’s “ACIM Tribute to Ken Wapnick” , and in it he said “that in Ken’s apt there was a special
black monolithic structure, actually, a door, which Ken had painted black and had “Elohim” painted in
gold at the top and below that a gold star, a symbol for the Light of Christ” which he had made for
Helen. I hadn't heard about this until now but it really serves to convince me my model is right.
Elohim is the All, the One, my Father. I/we are His Son.
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So here I sit by myself in my apartment writing this Gospel, a spiritual hypochondriac believing that I
am separated from God, alone, in a body, dying and doomed to eternal hell., but now I am not alone
and helpless.
He Has Risen !!!
Let US all walk in confidence that the Holy Spirit and Christ are always with us. Guiding us in all
matters when we ask for assistance. The realization that we are NOT in a world separate from God,
that MY life in this world actually has a function , and now I can be in the world but not part of it.
NOW, at least to the best of my ability, I am without guilt, and with the knowledge that I am being lead
to God. I can faithfully fulfill my function of bringing God’s Light into this world, being God’s eyes,
ears and mouth. The Prodigal son returns home to Elohim and Heaven and Spirit( male/female) as
they were created.
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Prodigal Son Parable
11 And he said, A certain man had two sons: 12 And the younger of them said to [his] father,
Father, give me the portion of goods that falleth [to me]. And he divided unto them [his] living.
13 And not many days after the younger son gathered all together, and took his journey into a
far country, and there wasted his substance with riotous living. 14 And when he had spent all,
there arose a mighty famine in that land; and he began to be in want. 15 And he went and
joined himself to a citizen of that country; and he sent him into his fields to feed swine. 16 And
he would fain have filled his belly with the husks that the swine did eat: and no man gave unto
him. 17 And when he came to himself, he said, How many hired servants of my father's have
bread enough and to spare, and I perish with hunger! 18 I will arise and go to my father, and
will say unto him, Father, I have sinned against heaven, and before thee, 19 And am no more
worthy to be called thy son: make me as one of thy hired servants. 20 And he arose, and came
to his father. But when he was yet a great way off, his father saw him, and had compassion, and
ran, and fell on his neck, and kissed him. 21 And the son said unto him, Father, I have sinned
against heaven, and in thy sight, and am no more worthy to be called thy son. 22 But the father
said to his servants, Bring forth the best robe, and put [it] on him; and put a ring on his hand,
and shoes on [his] feet: 23 And bring hither the fatted calf, and kill [it]; and let us eat, and be
merry: 24 For this my son was dead, and is alive again; he was lost, and is found. And they
began to be merry. 25 Now his elder son was in the field: and as he came and drew nigh to the
house, he heard musick and dancing. 26 And he called one of the servants, and asked what
these things meant. 27 And he said unto him, Thy brother is come; and thy father hath killed
the fatted calf, because he hath received him safe and sound. 28 And he was angry, and would
not go in: therefore came his father out, and intreated him. 29 And he answering said to [his]
father, Lo, these many years do I serve thee, neither transgressed I at any time thy
commandment: and yet thou never gavest me a kid, that I might make merry with my friends:
30 But as soon as this thy son was come, which hath devoured thy living with harlots, thou hast
killed for him the fatted calf. 31 And he said unto him, Son, thou art ever with me, and all that I
have is thine. 32 It was meet that we should make merry, and be glad: for this thy brother was
dead, and is alive again; and was lost, and is found. Luke 15:11
As Jesus instructed: When you pray, pray in secret saying:
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Our Father in heaven, hallowed be your name. Your kingdom come. Your will be done, on earth
as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread. And forgive us our sins, as we also have
forgiven our debtors. And do not bring us to the time of trial, but rescue us from the evil one.
Matthew 6:9–13 (NRSV)
And I am also constantly reminded of this beautiful prayer from the “Course”.
"Forgive us our illusions, Father, and help us to accept our true
relationship with You, in which there are no illusions, and where none can
ever enter. Our holiness is Yours. What can there be in us that NEEDS
forgiveness when Yours is perfect? The sleep of forgetfulness is only the
unwillingness to remember Your forgiveness and Your Love. Let us not wander
into temptation, for the temptation of the Son of God is not Your Will. And
let us receive only what YOU have given, and accept but this into the minds
which You created, and which You love. Amen." ( ACIM Text ppg 350 )
"Each day, each hour and minute, even every second, you are deciding between the crucifixion
and the resurrection; between the ego and the Holy Spirit. The ego is the choice for guilt; the
Holy Spirit the decision for guiltlessness. The power of decision is all that is yours. What you
can decide BETWEEN is fixed, because there are no alternatives except truth and illusion. And
there is no overlap between them, because they are opposites which CANNOT be reconciled
and CANNOT both be true. You are guilty OR guiltless, bound OR free, happy OR unhappy.
The miracle teaches you that you have chosen guiltlessness, freedom and joy. It is not a cause,
but an EFFECT. It is the natural result of choosing right, attesting to your happiness that comes
from choosing to be free of guilt. Everyone you offer healing to returns it. Everyone you attack
keeps it and cherishes it by holding it against you. Whether he does this or does it not will make
no difference; you will THINK he does. It is impossible to offer what you do not want without
this penalty. The cost of giving IS receiving. Either it is a penalty from which you suffer, or the
happy purchase of a treasure to hold dear." ACIM Cpt 26:5:13
AMEND!
And CONCLUSION
So there is is my model – an all inclusive model, Creation, Evolution, reincarnation, déjà vu, any and
all religious beliefs, Archon Parasites, Infected Anunnaki - Enki, Enlil, Marduk, Ra, Orion Dynasty
Robert Stanley, and Maya the illusion of the Self, even the latest scientific theory proving the earth to
be the center of our universe. The model leaves no one, no belief developed in the dream, or nothing
out – but only realizes God (Elohim) and His Son (CHRIST) as REALITY, all else is an illusion, a
dream that will simply fade away in the Light of Knowledge which Is God (Elohim) Himself.
So what’s the purpose? How can this theology or understanding make my life better? What is my part
in this? What am I to do? Who should I blame? Who should I look to for help? What is my
experience, strength and hope.
My original theology looked at the world through the eyes of sin – original sin. Declared sin real and
then looked to have it absolved or pardoned by the grace of God – but this was God of the Yahweh
theology, born of sin. My understanding now is one that comes from a place of innocence. Elohim
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created the Perfect, Innocent Love. Christ’s dream , born in innocence but dreaming of sin. A
nightmare that when realized as a dream needs not be forgiven but merely let go to fade away and see
the innocent face of Christ again. My forgiveness of my judgment of God, people/places and things in
the dream. for what I thought that they did to me but more important and subtle than that is what I
demanded and they didn’t do. Forgiveness of myself for what I thought I had done, and likewise didn’t
do, corrupted the UN-corruptible.
The “Good News” is that all of this is accomplished through FORGIVENESS, letting go of
JUDGMENTS, bringing all thoughts to question, correcting the error by choosing again with the
correct guide the HOLY SPIRIT not the Ego. .By forgiving we can turn the nightmare ego dream
into a happy dream for us and all the others. Collectively we made this world, individually we can we
can correct our perspective. Heal our believed sicknesses and dream in gratitude a happy dream where
all is seen through Christ’s vision, so God can waken us to Himself.
So as Jesus tells us in the “Course” ppg 202::1
No one can escape from illusions unless he looks at them, for not looking is the way they are
protected. There is no need to shrink from illusions, for they cannot be dangerous. We are ready
to look more closely at the ego's thought system because together we have the lamp that will
dispel it, and since you realize you do not want it, you must be ready. The "dynamics" of the ego
will be our lesson for a while, for we must look first at this to see beyond it, since you have
made it real. We will undo this error quietly together, and then look beyond it to truth
and later on ppg 207:4
In effect, then, what you believe you do see. That is what I meant when I said, "Blessed are ye
who have not seen and still believe," for those who believe in the resurrection will see it. The
resurrection is the complete triumph of Christ over the ego, not by attack but by transcendence.
For Christ does rise above the ego and all its works, and ascends to the Father and his
Kingdom. Would you join in the resurrection or the crucifixion? Would you condemn your
brothers or free them? Would you transcend your prison and ascend to the Father?
It doesn’t matter where the theologies of this world are based, all have a common theme. It is summed
up very well in Wikipedia (Creation Myth) Meaning and function “
"While creation myths are not literal explications they do serve to define an orientation of
humanity in the world in terms of a birth story. They are the basis of a worldview that reaffirms
and guides how people relate to the natural world, to any assumed spiritual world, and to each
other. The creation myth acts as a cornerstone for distinguishing primary reality from relative
reality, the origin and nature of being from non-being. In this sense they serve as a philosophy
of life but one expressed and conveyed through symbol rather than systematic reason. And in
this sense they go beyond etiological myths which mean to explain specific features in religious
rites, natural phenomena or cultural life. Creation myths also help to orient human beings in
the world, giving them a sense of their place in the world and the regard that they must have for
humans and nature."
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Buddhism Buddha mentions the “Indescribable” but does not assign it to any God.
Buddha’s concern was the removal of suffering in the world, caused by one coveting judgments
or attachments. The release of which, one would obtain “Enlightenment” a state of “Onenes”
Hinduism "Brahmanas of the Brhad-arayaka Upanishad, which was written in India in the
700s or 600s B.C. The principal actor in this story can be taken to be Praja-pati, the Lord of
Creation, or Brahma the Creator. Like the original, however, this story uses "he" as its subject
[......] He thought, "Let me have a self", and he created the mind. [..…] Thus in the beginning
the world was only his self, his being or essence, which then took the shape of a person. At first
he was afraid, but realizing that he was alone and had nothing of which to be afraid, his fear
ceased. However, he had no happiness because he was alone, and he longed for another. He
grew as large as two persons embracing, and he caused his self to split into two matching parts,
like two halves of a split pea, and from them arose husband and wife. They mated, and from
their union arose the human beings of the earth.
(http://www.gly.uga.edu/railsback/CS/CSSelf.html)" Karma, reincarnation, re-birth and so on.
Islam same origins as Christians and Jews but Allah not Yahweh is God and Mohamed is
considered the final prophet. A detailed discussion of this in supporting data taken from
[http://bibleandquran.com/allahandelohim4.htm] Bible and Quran.
A more complete list will be developed in the Supporting Data.
P.S. NOTE: I tried to write this Gospel Chapter 1 and 2 to stand on it’s own, but not overly
detailed Please refer to the Chapter (3) Supporting Data to explain in detail any specific question on
the Theology presented here.
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Clarification of Terms
ACIM – “A Course in Miracles
This is a course in miracles. It is a required course. Only the time you take it is voluntary.
Free will does not mean that you can establish the curriculum. It means only that you can elect
what you want to take at a given time. The course does not aim at teaching the meaning of
love, for that is beyond what can be taught. It does aim, however, at removing the blocks to the
awareness of love’s presence, which is your natural inheritance. The opposite of love is fear,
but what is all-encompassing can have no opposite. This course can therefore be summed up
very simply in this way:
Nothing real can be threatened.
Nothing unreal exists.
Herein lies the peace of God.” (ACIM, Introduction )
This Gospel (and the Model discussed here) is based on the teachings of ACIM.
Real World – One with God - The final illusion of Heaven
.”The real world is a symbol , like the rest of what perception offers. Yet it stands for what is
opposite to what you made. Your world is seen through the eyes of fear, and brings the wittiness
of terror to your mind. The real world cannot be perceived except through eyes of forgiveness
blesses, so they see a world where terror is impossible, and witness to fear cannot be found…...
The real world is the symbol that the dream of sin ans guilt is over and God’s Son no longer
sleeps. His waking eyes perceive the sure reflection of His Fathers Love, the certain promise
that he is redeemed. The real world signifies the end of time, for its perception make time
purposeless. (Workbook for Students Lessons ACIM ppg 443”
The World (The illusion we think we live in)
"The world is false perception. It is born of error, and it has not left its source. It will remain no
longer than the thought that gave it birth is cherished. When the thought of separation has been
changed to one of true forgiveness, will the world be seen in quite another light; and one which
leads to truth, where all the world must disappear and all its errors vanish. Now its source has
gone, and its effects are gone as well..The world was made as an attack on God. It symbolizes
fear. And what is fear except love's absence? Thus the world was meant to be a place where
God could enter not, and where His Son could be apart from Him. Here was perception born,
for knowledge could not cause such insane thoughts. But eyes deceive, and ears hear falsely.
Now mistakes become quite possible, for certainty has gone... Workbook for students Lessons
ppg 413"
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Body – The actors in the dream .
"The body {self} is a fence the Son of God imagines he has built, to separate parts of his Self
from other parts. It is within this fence he thinks he lives, to die as it decays and crumbles. For
within this fence he thinks that he is safe from love. Identifying with his safety, he regards
himself as what his safety is. (Workbook for Students Lessons ACIM ppg 425)"
These bodies make up the characters in the dream of separation, our bodies, Frank, Mary,
John, and so on, both past ,present and future. Every conciveable possibility or perspective
searching to answer the questions, Who am I ? , Why am I here ?, what will make me happy?.
Ego –Belief that God’s Son usurped God
The ego is idolatry: the sign of limited and separate self, born in a body, doomed to suffer and
to end its life in death. It is the "will" that sees the Will of God as enemy, and takes a form in
which it is denied. The ego is the "proof" that strength is weak and love is fearful, life is really
death, and what opposes God alone is true. The ego is insane In fear it stands beyond the
Everywhere, apart from ALL, in separation from the Infinite. In its insanity it thinks it has
become a victor over God Himself. And in its terrible autonomy it “sees” the Will of God has
been destroyed. It dreams of punishment, and trembles at the figures in its dreams; its enemies,
who seek to murder it before it can ensure its safety by attacking them. (Workbook for Students
Lessons ACIM ppg 467)"
Christ – The Son of God (Dreamer of the dream).
"Christ is God's Son as He created Him. He is the Self we share, uniting us with one another,
and with God as well. He is the Thought which still abides within the Mind that is His Source.
He has not left His holy home, nor lost the innocence in which He was created. He abides
unchanged forever in the Mind of God. Christ is the link that keeps you one with God, and
guarantees that separation is no more than an illusion of despair, for hope forever will abide in
Him. Your mind is part of His, and His of yours. He is the part in which God's Answer lies,
where all decisions are already made, and dreams are over." (Workbook for Students Lessons
ACIM ppg 431)
Jesus – The earthly (body) representation of the Christ.
The name of Jesus is the name of one who was a man but saw the face of Christ in all his
brothers and remembered God. So he became identified with Christ, a man no longer, but at
one with God. The man was an illusion, for he seemed to be a separate being, walking by
himself, within a body that appeared to hold his self from Self, as all illusions do. Yet who can
save unless he sees illusions and then identifies them as what they are? Jesus remains Savior
because he saw the false without accepting it as true. And Christ needed his form that he might
appear to men and save them from their own illusions. …..He offered you a final
demonstration that it is impossible to kill God’s Son; nor can his life in any way be changed by
sin and evil, malice, fear, or death. ... He will remain with you to lead you from the hell you
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made to God. And when you join your will with his, your sight will be his vision, for the eyes of
Christ are shared. (ACIM Clarification of terms ppg 87)
"The Name of Jesus Christ as such is but a symbol. But it stands for love that is not of this
world. It is a symbol that is safely used as a replacement for the many names of all the gods to
which you pray. It becomes the shining symbol for the Word of God, so close to what it stands
for that the little space between the two is lost, the moment that the Name is called to mind.
Remembering the Name of Jesus Christ is to give thanks for all the gifts that God has given you.
And gratitude to God becomes the way in which He is remembered, for love cannot be far
behind a grateful heart and thankful mind. God enters easily, for these are the true conditions
for your homecoming….....
This course has come from him [Jesus] because his words have reached you in a language you
can love and understand. Are other teachers possible, to lead the way to those who speak in
different tongues and appeal to different symbols? Certainly there are. Would God leave
anyone without a very present help in time of trouble; a savior who can symbolize Himself? Yet
do we need a many-faceted curriculum, not because of content differences, but because symbols
must shift and change to suit the need. Jesus has come to answer yours. In him you find God’s
Answer. Do you, then, teach with him, for he is with you; he is always here." ACIM Manual
for Teachers ppg
Holy Spirit – The Thought of God
The Holy Spirit mediates between illusions and the truth. Since He must bridge the gap
between reality and dreams, perception leads to knowledge through the grace that God has
given Him, to be His gift to everyone who turns to Him for truth… From knowledge, where
He has been placed by God, the Holy Spirit calls to you, to let forgiveness rest upon your
dreams, and be restored to sanity and peace of mind. Without forgiveness your dreams remain
to terrify you. And the memory of all your Fathers Love will not return to signify the end of
dreams has come. (Workbook for Students Lessons ACIM ppg 437)”
If you have made it a habit to ask for help when and where you can, you can be confident that
wisdom will be given you when you need it. Prepare for this each morning, remember God
when you can throughout the day, ask the Holy Spirit’s help when it is feasible to do so, and
thank Him for His guidance at night. And your confidence will be well founded indeed. Never
forget that the Holly Spirit does not depend on your words. He understands the request of your
heart, and answers them. (ACIM Manual for Teachers ppg 71)
Sin - Errors (Judgments) that are in need of correction.
Sin is insanity. It is the means by which the mind is driven mad, and seeks to let illusions take
the place of truth. And being mad, it sees illusions where the truth should be, and where it
really is. Sin gave the body eyes, for what is there the sinless would behold?. What need would
they of sights or sounds or touch? What would they hear or reach to grasp? What would they
sense at all? To sense is not to know. And truth can be but filled with knowledge, and with
nothing else. Sin is the home of all illusions, which but stand for things imagined, issuing
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from thoughts that are untrue. They are the “proof that what has no reality is real. Sin
proves” God’s Son is evil; timelessness must have an end; eternal life must die. And God
Himself has lost the Son He Loves, with but corruption to complete Himself, His Will forever
overcome by death, love slain by hate, and peace to be no more. (Workbook for Students
Lessons ACIM ppg 419)”
Forgiveness – The Holy Spirit’s method to correct errors.
“Forgiveness recognized what you thought your brother did to you has not occurred. It does not
pardon sins and make them real.. It sees there was no sin. And in that view are all your sins
forgiven. What is Sin, except a false idea about God’s Son? Forgiveness merely sees its falsity,
and therefore lets it go. What then is free to take its place is now the Will of God. An
unforgiving thought is one which makes a judgment that it will not raise to doubt, although it is
not true. The mind is closed, and will not be released…...Forgiveness on the other hand is still,
and quietly does nothing. It offends no aspect of reality, not seeks to twist it to appearances it
likes. It merely looks, and waits, and judges not. He who would not forgive must judge, for he
must justify his failure to forgive. But he who would forgive himself must learn to welcome
truth exactly as it is. (Workbook for Students Lessons ACIM ppg 401)”
Miracles Correction of errors, judgments
A miracle is a correction. It does not create, nor really change at all. It merely looks on
devastation, and reminds the mind that what it sees is false. It undoes error, but does not
attempt to go beyond perception, nor exceeds the function of forgiveness. Thus it stays within
time’s limits. Yet it paves the way for the return of timelessness, and love’s awakening, for fear
must slip away under the gentle remedy it brings. ….. The miracle is taken first on faith,
because to ask for it implies the mind has been made ready to conceive of what it cannot see
and does not understand. Yet faith will bring its witnesses to show that what it rested on is
really there. And thus the miracle will justify your faith in it, and show it rested on a world
more real than what you saw before; a world redeemed from what you thought was there.
(Workbook for Students Lessons ACIM ppg 473)”
Healing – Healed Mind / Body
"Healing involves an understanding of what the illusion of sickness is for. Healing is
impossible without this. I. The Perceived Purpose of Sickness Healing is accomplished the
instant the sufferer no longer sees any value in pain. Who would choose suffering unless he
thought it brought him something, and something of value to him? He must think it is a small
price to pay for something of greater worth. For sickness is an election; a decision. It is the
choice of weakness, in the mistaken conviction that it is strength. When this occurs, real
strength is seen as threat and health as danger. Sickness is a method, conceived in madness, for
placing God’s Son on his Fathers throne. God is seen as outside, fierce and powerful, eager to
keep all power for Himself. Only by His death can He be conquered by His Son."ACIM
Manual for Teachers, ppg 55
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"Healing as Release from Fear Our emphasis is now on healing. The miracle is the means,
the Atonement is the principle, and healing is the result. To speak of "a miracle of healing" is to
combine two orders of reality inappropriately. Healing is not a miracle. The Atonement, or the
final miracle, is a remedy and any type of healing is a result. The kind of error to which
Atonement is applied is irrelevant. All healing is essentially the release from fear. To undertake
this you cannot be fearful yourself. You do not understand healing because of your own fear" ..
[....] Only the mind can create because spirit has already been created, and the body is a
learning device for the mind. Learning devices are not lessons in themselves. Their purpose is
merely to facilitate learning. The worst a faulty use of a learning device can do is to fail to
facilitate learning. It has no power in itself to introduce actual learning errors. The body, if
properly understood, shares the invulnerability of the Atonement to two-edged application. This
is not because the body is a miracle, but because it is not inherently open to misinterpretation.
The body is merely part of your experience in the physical world. Its abilities can be and
frequently are over evaluated. However, it is almost impossible to deny its existence in this
world. Those who do so are engaging in a particularly unworthy form of denial. The term
"unworthy" here implies only that it is not necessary to protect the mind by denying the
unmindful. If one denies this unfortunate aspect of the mind's power, one is also denying the
power itself". (ACIM Text Cp.2 ppg 23)
Last Judgment – The Second Coming
""Atonement corrects illusions, not truth. Therefore, it corrects what never was. Further, the
plan for this correction was established and completed simultaneously, for the Will of God is
entirely apart from time. So is all reality, being of Him. The instant the idea of separation
entered the mind of God's Son, in that same instant was God's Answer given. In time this
happened very long ago. In reality it never happened at all." (ACIM Manual for Teachers
ppg5)
Christ's Second Coming gives the Son of God this gift: to hear the Voice for God proclaim that
what is false is false, and what is true has never changed. And this the judgment is in which
perception ends. At first you see a world that has accepted this as true, projected from a now
corrected mind. And with this holy sight, perception gives a silent blessing and then disappears,
its goal accomplished and its mission done.
The final judgment on the world contains no condemnation. For it sees the world as totally
forgiven, without sin and wholly purposeless. Without a cause, and now without a function in
Christ's sight, it merely slips away to nothingness. There it was born, and there it ends as well.
And all the figures in the dream in which the world began go with it. Bodies now are useless,
and will therefore fade away, because the Son of God is limitless. ........
This is God's Final Judgment: "You are still My holy Son, forever innocent, What Is the Last
Judgment? forever loving and forever loved, as limitless as your Creator, and completely
changeless and forever pure. Therefore awaken and return to Me. I am your Father and you are
My Son." ACIM Lessons ppg 455"
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Chapter: (2) Summary Chart
GOD ELOHIM CHRIST LOVE Eternal
Father & Son – One Thought
Stardust into Man The matrix
Dream of Forgetfulness Dream of Separation
World of Time
EGO
Special Relationships
Judgments Annoyance Resentments Anger Hatred Sickness Death
CHRIST JESUS HOLY SPIRIT
crucifixion & resurrection – exposing the lie
Gratitude Restitution Prayer Meditation
FORGIVENESS
SALVATION ENLIGHTENMENT
Return of the Prodigal Son
Real World
End of the dream
One – God -- Eternity
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Chapter: (3) Supporting Data
My descent into darkness – the world of separation & suffering
I was born in Omaha , Nebraska, and was brought up in loose “Christian” atmosphere, I was an alter
boy, and did go to regular Catholic church services on Sundays, but not overly so. Then about the age
of 11, my family decided to purchase a new-built house in the Benson area of town, a new sub
development on the outskirts of the city, closer to where my father worked and within our price range..
The local Catholic parish priest where I was then going to Grade School insisted that I remain in the
Catholic school and informed my mother that if I did not , we would be excommunicated. Well that
didn’t set well with my mother and we moved and she had me baptized in a local Lutheran church –
one Christian church is no better than another I supposed she thought. The differences to me were
more startling and soon I was leaning toward Gnosticism and later a full disdain for Christianity of any
form. [ See Supporting Data – Hypocrisy of the Church for more detail ]
One evening, my mother came into the bathroom to see what was taking me so long in there taking a
bath, and caught me masturbating. Well that was a surprise and she dragged me out to where my father
was sitting and screamed – look at that , look what hes doing. My father just laughed and told me that
the problem was getting caught. But later that evening I heard my mother say “I hope he isn't one of
them. I can still remember that now – I didn't want to be one of them. I really didn't realize how
dramatically this would affect my life form that point on. The guilt was enormous and drove me into
hiding, doing everything so that people would never know I had such thoughts.
In my Junior year at High School there, my family wanted to move to California, the Bay Area, my
father had a job offering there, and it would let me graduate from Berkeley High School so I could go
on to a California University.. Well that didn’t work out too well. It seems that Nebraska, farm
country, didn’t require 4 years of a foreign language like California and so I was forced to enroll in a
Junior College. That really pissed me off and I used it as an excuse to entertain my drinking addition.
by deliberately having affair with a local preacher's wive and breaking every commandment I could
When I was 18, I had to go to register for the draft. I went to my appointment and verification and
passed all requirement until I sat in with the physiologist. He asked me if I had ever been arrested, and
I answered Yes, then he said for what and I said What time, he said name some , so I told him about
my DWI, drunk in public, loitering, at that he said Looks like you have a drinking problem, well I said
NO , but so with my poor eyesight and their being no war they classified me 4F. and so that ended my
obligation for military duty.
About the same time, I dropped out of college and I was lashing out at what I thought God had done to
me, actually what he had NOT done for me During this time, drinking, arrests, arguments with the
family, moving out, drinking and drugs, more arrests, and finally, still more drinking.
By this time I had smashed up over 7 cars in drinking related accidents – my dad once said that I had
more cars the he has ahas his life. Filling station, front yard coors cans everyehaer but they cold not
make the driving chardge stick and so on
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***** chemist ************
In the mist of all of this in 1968 I got married. Now I had a drinking partner. Little more from my
side, if I’m honest about my real feelings at the time. I was doing what was expected of me. True love
didn’t enter the picture. We bought a house in Richmond Anex , California and tried to settle down.
My drinking history would increase during these yesrs to the point that I had collectd 5 DWI by this ie
time - hit in the eye and 21 stiches and pieces of fglass with a ¼ iof my iris removed ---- kiscked in
the back door and almost bleed to death --- and had already spent 30 days in jail for drunk driving
charge smashed up my new Ford Ranchero by rear end a camper on my way home for a baar.
--
one time we weer in a accident and I movedd over to the passenger seat and had my wife look as driver
– she got a dwi but her fisrt fo better than I --- went to her alcohl taariang schol and saced as a guinny
pig and drank alchol but passed the breath alsisise – another cocky show –
I managed to land a job as a quality control chemist with Inter Chemical Corp. Printing Ink Division ,
and advanced up through several more companies until 1970 I became a department manager even
without the degree Higgins Magee Printing Inks in Renton, Washington.
Partnering with a fellow employee, I left Higgins-Magee and we started our own Ink business KLM,
Through a public offering we raised about a half-million dollars, purchased equipment, set up a
manufacturing plant, and went into business. I did all product development and designed a product line
that competed extremely well with our competitors. Orders shot through the roof – we were on our
way. In 1974, there was a phony oil shortage and chemicals manufactured from oil products were put
on allocation and our company, being newly formed, was denied purchasing amounts we needed to
complete full sales. That put us out of business – fucked again.. Now if that wasn’t an excuse to
drink , nothing was..
The drinking went on continuously during this time leading to a divorce and loss of all my businesses
my alcohol, selling and using drugs, self loathing continued and increased. I was never happy! .I was
never really satisfied with sex and my wife and this continued as I tried to find sexual relations with as
many women as I could but no happiness.
I never seemed to have any problem making money or getting what I wanted, I was definitely blessed
but couldn’t or didn’t want to recognize it. I was also smoking about 3 packs a day and could feel the
effects it was having one me.
With the ink business gone , I converted all the inventory into artistic paints and packaged it under the
name “Touch of Elegance” - at that time time the only high gloss hobby painting for glass and
ceramics.
******** ralestate **************
Renting a home and culdn’t pay the rent so I thought the best way to handle the sitution was to go to
work for the realtor landord – that strte emnin Realstate – starte out sellong jhoused for 3 mon but
then switchd to land sales – that was my intch and off it wwent – handlesd many large project , on
form a man and his son from Texas develeoping a 350 acre land development subdidvision that
ultimatee mad eabout 3 moilloion forhte guss
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---- everything was in the Corporations name so I lived off andy funds we had and not worlkked ---
several projects with investors amade a logto of money but all in the name of the Corp --- tax rightoffs
made it so the Corp paied no taes but this soon ran out and I wsa left again with nothing..
I started in the Real Estate business and with several partners formed a company buying and selling
properties, we owned a lodge ion Montana, lands near Seattle –1980 that partnership broke up as my
drinking really went out of control .
Our second project was a 20 acre plot with a house oion it in Renton bought it but evertthig else was
going bac and I haddnt paid taxes ..
About this time I got involve with th eIRS and baack taxes --- bankrupt
it was here that I had a partner for 250 dopans each and bought a piece of land in Eumncalaw – made
well over 21 million for fland teimbe and sales and bought a lodge in montand nad put one throught
flying school
Burilging Northern – 1200 acrea of land flew to cnada to uy a island in San Jauna Fucia ------
50 acea in Banger Wash – timbers and let it go back – drunk –50,000
the last project was with buying a 35,000 ace ranch and turning it intoi a projcet – 8,500,000 lost one
partner because of the hight price and possileb problems
In 1980 Mt St Helen erupted and the resulting ash plugged up the Columbia river so I could not move
logs to Portland and sale – project had to be abandoned and walked away – another disaster in my life
--- God had it in for me.
I wass racking up the DWI’s (Drunk While Intoxicated) Here I experienced my fist bottom in drinking
and mover back to the Bay Area
and finally moved back to the Bay area
************* Paints ****AA controlled drinking***********
Up to this time I have chacked up about 8 Calif and Washington states DWI,,, most times I was just
lost my license for 6 mo aabut continued to drive on a work permit amd had to pay fines a-usuall y
about 15,000 each. I was instructed to go to AA meeting but normally didint go and just shrugged ot ff
to if you want to pay the game sometine you hasd a strile of and just had to pay.
Controlled dirnking but about every 3 years I lost it anc would get caught - but just enough time to
make sure tha tthere only appeared 2 offences ata time they only wnet back for 5 yessr when chedcking
the reecords.
Broke and without a future here iI moved back to he bay area and got a apt tos start all over
I started working for Sherwin williamd paint co.
My awaking from the dream of separation AA
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*************** paints *****AA controlled drinking**********
The courts were ordering me to attend A meeting san as they say onec you go to A it screwes up your
drinking. Started to try controlled drinking and going to asome AA meetings but would go to the bar
and discuss if it was a good meting -
About this time I obtained a position with the Sherwin Williams Pao\ingt company selling industrial
coatings out of the Emeryville office. Worked ther for a while and transferred to their So San
Francisco Office and got a house with the Office manager He attempted suicide and moved out
leaving me with the rental costs.
.
Ibought a 68 thumderbird and the story about it --- sellign auto repair software – wash stae dealer
franchise.
Hd a artery attach withoout knowing it --- ---
*********** computers**************
I decided to get into the computer business so I went to work at Fry’s Computer stor. 2Yr s on the
floor and had enough knowledge and couples with my past management experiences I went to work
as Sales manager with NCA computers in Sunnyvale, Calif. I would commute from Pacifica to
Sunnyvale every day - 45 min drive
n 1983 my father dies and I was somewhat sober to be able to help and handle his passing for my
mother and sisters. Car with my dad ansd Jesus drove around and pointed out the better things
inlife – back to normal. Controlled drinking
Neuois breakdown
DWI no sentence – could have been san quenton Last drunk - party from work – smashed
car – beat rap --- no job again. helping possible 9
th
dwi
March 26 1989 Easter Jesus forgiveness Nov 1989 -- Berlin wall down AA birthday
Oct 17 1989 earthquake --- Pacifica on hill with Chinese just got ACIM
June 1989 neousbreak down forward or backward hospital going to check in walked
with Jesus bed - stay devil give me drugs = wont make it - 3 days discharged no bill
living in car no job collecting unemployment
***********AA in earnest intro ACIM******
1989 family - smoking too much drive home last cig --- dig for cigs cannot stop voice last one
went to work - ?? gone
Thai restaurant -- Chang Mai mentioned'
DWI no sentence –would have been 19th could have been San quenton Last drunk - party from
work – smashed car – beat rap --- no job again. helping
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My assent out of darkness actually started 1988 when I was 48. When there as a drunk, laying on the
floor in my Seattle apt heaving my guts up . It was here I finally asked for “God’s” help because I had
no where else to turn. There knew must be a better way ? I knew I didn’t belong here, in a body, in
this world, alone and afraid. I didn’t know who or what I was.
S I packed up my thing and headed back to the Bay Area and what family I had left. At this time only
my mother cared, the rest had given up on me. Life couldn't get any worse, I had hit my bottom.
Friends, family, jobs, corporations I had owned, future possibilities, all the bananas I held dear were
gone, due to my drinking, attitude and perspective of life.
. . I also didn’t care about anyone or myself. I was watching everything melt away as I kept drinking.
It was here I hit what AA calls a bottom and moved back to the Bay Area in 1988. My father had died
by that time and I tried living with my mother but that didn’t work out eventually got a job and with it
so I moved to Pacifica, on the coast south of San Francisco.. Life was still the shits, still drinking, but I
thought I had it under control.
I was living in my car and would sneak into the local Baptist church, where all the AA meetings were
held, to sleep. It was here my faith was to be restored. I remember being the one evening and the
thought came to me “I am back in my Fathers house”, although I didn’t have great regard for the
Bible, churches, religion, and for that matter Jesus.
My Experience, My Strength, and My Hope. As I looked at my life I was always in a constant search
for happiness, trying this and that and constantly having them all fail me – ultimately only sobriety
seem to bring any chance of lasting peace. I have always been searching for what will make me happy.
As I mentioned in the Preface I started sobriety in Seattle and then moved back to the Bay Area where
my family was located. Here true meaning of sobriety started to sink in. I had always been a religious
rebel
When the student is ready the Teacher will arrive – ACIM
gay beaches AA 20$ starfish Pacifica AA living in church – starfish - visit san quenton -
20$ week aa --- apt Pacifica – car
ACIM breakdown walk with Jesus Easter – Berlin wall smoking Kal Frys -sales manger
IKON 2003 visited Thailand Tasanai 2.5 yr herniated disk 2005 retirement Nu 2.5 yr
Pattaya 4yr blocked arteries operaations Chiang Mai Thailand Monk Chat.
There you have it ! That is my life – gay, lonely, starting to walk in faith on my way to Thailand -
My Experience, My Strength, and My Hope anything else is hearsay
and facing a court sentencing for felonious drunk driving.
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I didn’t hear any voices, well yes I did, it was a judge sentencing me to AA. They couldn’t prove all
the charges that would have put me in prison – so AA was the judge’s decision. Reluctantly I began to
go to AA meetings and eventually started doing the 12 Steps to Recovery. Shortly thereafter I was also
introduced to “A Course In Miracles” ACIM and thankfully I still remembered my childhood
introduction to the Bible which I couldn’t accept it due to all the hypocrisy I thought I saw in the
churches. Later, much later when I was living in Thailand I started going to Wat Suan Dok’s Monk
Chat and began to learn the teaching of Buddha adding to my spiritual path.
Had to go back to the Bible and check up on all the “Red” words , supposedly spoken directly by Jesus
and compare then to the ACIM. I have done that for the past 28 years and so far cannot find any
problem – in fast mmany pst questions that were told mystery have been answered and confirmed by
then.
Retrospect is always easier to see after the lesson is learned – I had numerous miracles, initially I just
considered them coincidences, but as my faith grew and recovery strengthened I came to see the work
of the Holy Spirit answering my call for help.
The first miracle or Revelation occurred in the early days of my sobriety. I was living in Pacifica
and going to take my company (Sherwin Williams) car back as they were in the process of letting me
go. On the way I had an extremely painful attack, which I thought was just gas, but I was to find out
much later it was a total blockage of the artery supplying blood to my left side. I’ll explain in more
detail later. After that happened and the loss of the job I had what the doctors couldn’t explain, all of
my electrolytes were completely out of balance.
hill – forward in time or back - stay where I am --- Helen had same dream
Hospital – walk with Jesus
starfish
20$ week
Miracle Center – first exposure to group ACIM
lady dying with cancer at AIDS was a blessing
sleeping dog
And so my “Good News” is that sobriety works and God did hear me. For years I had been drowning
my feelings, resentments, fears, trials, with alcohol and defying God, at least what I then considered
God for putting me here where I didn’t belong. Faith, I thought I had none. I would come to realize
that I had extreme faith, faith strong enough to block out God from my life. Faith that could create a
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super Illusion called this Universe and populate it with people, making it so real that I would come to
believed there was nothing else – my nightmare. But, the nightmare was about to be over.
AA has taught me that only my experience, my strength and my hope is what I can witness to -
anything else is hearsay So armed with AA 12 steps, ACIM, Bible, and recently the Teaching of
Buddha I can present my model of my existence.
1995 AA - Alan 5 step came out gay openly -- I
2000 IKON sales
2000 --- ACIM conference Elohim realized =Real Jesus
2003 trip to Thailand - 2003 herniated disk
2005 early retirement - 2005 moved to thailand Chiang Mai
2012 movd to Pattaya
2014 - mother dies
2015 stient operations
2016 moved to chiang mai
Religions and the Gods
"The name of God used most often in the Hebrew Bible is the Tetragrammaton YHWH (Hebrew:
הוהי
). It is frequently anglicized as Jehovah and Yahweh and written in most English editions of the
Bible as "the Lord" owing to the Jewish tradition of reading it as Adonai ("My Lords") out of respect."
( Wikipedia Names of God in Judaism)
"Names of God (An Excerpt from Rabbi Kaplan's Handbook of Jewish Thought - Writing the
Torah) The most frequently used names in the Bible are the Tetragrammaton (YHVH), and
Elohim. Each of these has special significance.
The name Elohim represents God as Ruler of creation, and thus, the same word is used for
judges and angels. The name Elohim is therefore interpreted to indicate that God is the "master
of all power." This also indicates that God's primary relationship with the universe is to oversee
all the forces of creation and providence. When the name Elohim is used in God's relationships
with man, it indicates that He is acting in justice, according to laws as strict as those of nature.
The Tetragrammaton (YHVH) is used as a proper name of God, denoting Him as the ultimate
Source of all existence, high above the universe and its laws. The Tetragrammaton is therefore
interpreted to mean that God "was, is and will be," indicating that He is outside the realm of
space, time and all other attributes of nature. Therefore, when the Tetragrammaton is used in
relation to man, it indicates that God is acting in mercy, transcending all the rules of
providence."
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Bible and Judaism and Christianity
Genesis
1 “In the beginning God created the heaven and the earth. 2 And the earth was without form,
and void; and darkness was upon the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God moved upon the
face of the waters. 3 And God said, Let there be light: and there was light. 4 And God saw the
light, that it was good: and God divided the light from the darkness. 5 And God called the light
Day, and the darkness he called Night. And the evening and the morning were the first day. 6
And God said, Let there be a firmament in the midst of the waters, and let it divide the waters
from the waters. 7 And God made the firmament, and divided the waters which were under the
firmament from the waters which were above the firmament: and it was so. 8 And God called
the firmament Heaven. And the evening and the morning were the second day. 9 And God said,
Let the waters under the heaven be gathered together unto one place, and let the dry land
appear: and it was so. 10 And God called the dry land Earth; and the gathering together of the
waters called he Seas: and God saw that it was good. 11 And God said, Let the earth bring
forth grass, the herb yielding seed, and the fruit tree yielding fruit after his kind, whose seed is
in itself, upon the earth: and it was so. 12 And the earth brought forth grass, and herb yielding
seed after his kind, and the tree yielding fruit, whose seed was in itself, after his kind: and God
saw that it was good. 13 And the evening and the morning were the third day. 14 And God
said, Let there be lights in the firmament of the heaven to divide the day from the night; and let
them be for signs, and for seasons, and for days, and years: 15 And let them be for lights in the
firmament of the heaven to give light upon the earth: and it was so. 16 And God made two
great lights; the greater light to rule the day, and the lesser light to rule the night: he made the
stars also. 17 And God set them in the firmament of the heaven to give light upon the earth, 18
And to rule over the day and over the night, and to divide the light from the darkness: and God
saw that it was good. 19 And the evening and the morning were the fourth day. 20 And God
said, Let the waters bring forth abundantly the moving creature that hath life, and fowl that may
fly above the earth in the open firmament of heaven. 21 And God created great whales, and
every living creature that moveth, which the waters brought forth abundantly, after their kind,
and every winged fowl after his kind: and God saw that it was good. 22 And God blessed them,
saying, Be fruitful, and multiply, and fill the waters in the seas, and let fowl multiply in the
earth. 23 And the evening and the morning were the fifth day. 24 And God said, Let the earth
bring forth the living creature after his kind, cattle, and creeping thing, and beast of the earth
after his kind: and it was so. 25 And God made the beast of the earth after his kind, and cattle
after their kind, and every thing that creepeth upon the earth after his kind: and God saw that it
was good. 26 And God said, Let us make man in our image, after our likeness: and let them
have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over the cattle, and over
all the earth, and over every creeping thing that creepeth upon the earth. 27 So God created
man in his own image, in the image of God created he him; male and female created he them.
28 And God blessed them, and God said unto them, Be fruitful, and multiply, and replenish the
earth, and subdue it: and have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air,
and over every living thing that moveth upon the earth. 29 And God said, Behold, I have given
you every herb bearing seed, which is upon the face of all the earth, and every tree, in the
which is the fruit of a tree yielding seed; to you it shall be for meat. 30 And to every beast of
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the earth, and to every fowl of the air, and to every thing that creepeth upon the earth, wherein
there is life, I have given every green herb for meat: and it was so.
31 And God saw every thing that he had made, and, behold, it was very good. And the evening
and the morning were the sixth day.
(Chapter 2 actually starts here, but I broke it up for easier reading)
1 Thus the heavens and the earth were finished, and all the host of them. 2 And on the seventh
day God ended his work which he had made; and he rested on the seventh day from all his work
which he had made. 3 And God blessed the seventh day, and sanctified it: because that in it he
had rested from all his work which God created and made.”
(Something happened here, hold this point it will be explained later )
Genesis continues
Genesis Chapter 2:4 “These are the generations of the heavens and of the earth when they
were created, in the day that the LORD God made the earth and the heavens, 5 And every
plant of the field before it was in the earth, and every herb of the field before it grew: for the
LORD God had not caused it to rain upon the earth, and there was not a man to till the
ground. 6 But there went up a mist from the earth, and watered the whole face of the ground. 7
And the LORD God formed man of the dust of the ground, and breathed into his nostrils the
breath of life; and man became a living soul. 8 And the LORD God planted a garden
eastward in Eden; and there he put the man whom he had formed. 9 And out of the ground
made the LORD God to grow every tree that is pleasant to the sight, and good for food; the tree
of life also in the midst of the garden, and the tree of knowledge of good and evil. 10 And a
river went out of Eden to water the garden; and from thence it was parted, and became into
four heads. 11 The name of the first is Pison: that is it which compasseth the whole land of
Havilah, where there is gold; 12 And the gold of that land is good: there is bdellium and the
onyx stone. 13 And the name of the second river is Gihon: the same is it that compasseth the
whole land of Ethiopia. 14 And the name of the third river is Hiddekel: that is it which goeth
toward the east of Assyria. And the fourth river is Euphrates. 15 And the LORD God took the
man, and put him into the garden of Eden to dress it and to keep it. 16 And the LORD God
commanded the man, saying, Of every tree of the garden thou mayest freely eat: 17 But of the
tree of the knowledge of good and evil, thou shalt not eat of it: for in the day that thou eatest
thereof thou shalt surely die. 18 And the LORD God said, It is not good that the man should be
alone; I will make him an help meet for him. 19 And out of the ground the LORD God formed
every beast of the field, and every fowl of the air; and brought them unto Adam to see what he
would call them: and whatsoever Adam called every living creature, that was the name thereof.
20 And Adam gave names to all cattle, and to the fowl of the air, and to every beast of the field;
but for Adam there was not found an help meet for him. 21 And the LORD God caused a deep
sleep to fall upon Adam, and he slept: and he took one of his ribs, and closed up the flesh
instead thereof; 22 And the rib, which the LORD God had taken from man, made he a
woman, and brought her unto the man. 23 And Adam said, This is now bone of my bones, and
flesh of my flesh: she shall be called Woman, because she was taken out of Man. 24 Therefore
shall a man leave his father and his mother, and shall cleave unto his wife: and they shall be
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one flesh. 25 And they were both naked, the man and his wife, and were not ashamed.”
(KJV)
Although the author if Genesis is attributed to Moses most biblical scholars speculate that Genesis was
actually collection of many authors - two of which they called the Elohist (God called Elohim) and the
Jahwist (God called LORD Yahweh). And early scribes put the two together creation stories together
with others as a single document. We will discuss this in more detail later n future chapter
But notice something changed between chapter 1 and 2. God’s name changed, creation turned to
making, what was “Very Good” developed evil tendencies. Man and woman went from being spirits
to becoming bodies. From here and through the rest of the Bible , division, deceit, murder, power
struggles, religions, mysteries, pride, greed, lust and all the deadly sins developed and grew as the
human race flourished and took dominion of the earth. What started out perfect, Good in God’s eyes,
defied God’s command and ate of the tree of knowledge, causing a new God to expel them from
paradise and into a world that now had death and causing them to notice their nakedness and making
them ashamed. Depravity continued up to the time of Jesus, when his message was directed toward
the then spiritual authorities, the Sagasgees and Pharisee. Again we will cover this is a future chapter.
Many scholars have also pointed out the phrase “that the LORD God put Adam into a deep sleep” ----
but no where does it say he woke up. Another way of looking at the same problem.
What happened ?
What I thought I was taught from my Christian childhood was that we had sinned and God being all
righteous demanded sacrifice and worship. Adam and Eve had committed the original sin of which we
are now all guilty and only through the blood of Jesus could we be saved, Saved from what ? The
wrath of God - The great mystery of God. I supposed that if I would have been born into another body
or family or culture I would have a different perspective but still each needs to find some kind of
salvation or karma.
It was in my search for sobriety that I found the first explanation and clarity of this mystery from “A
Course of Miracles”
“Into eternity, where all is one, there crept a tiny, mad idea, at which the Son of God
remembered not to laugh. In his forgetting did the thought become a serious idea, and possible
of both accomplishment and real effects. Together, we can laugh them both away, and
understand that time cannot intrude upon eternity. It IS a joke to think that time can come to
circumvent eternity, which MEANS there is no time.
A timelessness in which is time made real; a part of God which can attack itself; a separate
brother as an enemy; a mind within a body, all are forms of circularity, whose ending starts at
its beginning, ending at its cause. The world you see depicts exactly what you thought you did.
Except that now
you think that what you did is being done to you. The guilt for what you thought is being placed
outside yourself, and on a guilty world which dreams your dreams and thinks your thoughts
instead of you. It brings its vengeance, not your own. It keeps you narrowly confined within a
body, which it punishes because of all the sinful things the body does within its dream. You have
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no power to make the body stop its evil deeds, because you did not make it, and cannot control
its actions or its purpose or its fate. (ACIM 27.8.6)”
God’s Child or Children (“Christ”) asked a question – Is there anything other than God that would
make me happy ? A tiny mad idea and as he thought about it As the ACIM text would say “ the Son
of God forget to laugh” at such a ridiculous idea or thought. But every thought of the Son of God has
consequences – BANG - from nothing the entire universe, the world of illusion was made, all the
different possible perspectives thereof, past- future (time invaded eternity). In that instant the “Ego”
(edge god out) was born – the belief that part of the Son of God had driven God out.
Have you ever seen a flip card show where each frame only has one character but each frame has the
charterer in a different position on the frame. If the cards are flipped through rapidly a single character
seems to move around. Imagine being able to flip the cards at God’s speed and having many
characters but each one on a single card, like a Disney movie – the results would be a movie populated
by many people each doing their own thing but in reality there is only one character on any one frame.
That frame, that instance, would be “NOW” and the viewer of the movie would be Christ. Looking at
the movie but from each frame a different perspective. The world of Illusion, a Star Trek holo-deck like
that in the movies.
In this world where God was not allowed, he listened to the ego or the ego was born – the father of
lies, the great deceiver. Sin demanded sacrifice – no longer an error that could be corrected. and yet
because we are still part of God his presents is always there but it is fleeting because we keep turning
away -
"The Origns of Separation
To extend is a fundamental aspect of God which he gave to His Son. In the creation, God
extended Himself to His creations and imbued them with the same loving will to create. You
have not only been fully created, but have also been created perfect. There is no emptiness in
you. Because of your likeness to your Creator you are creative. No child of God can lose this
ability because it is inherent in what he is, but he can use it inappropriately by projecting. The
inappropriate use of extension, or projection, occurs when you believe that some emptiness or
lack exists in you, and that you can fill it with your own ideas instead of truth. This process
involves the following steps:
* First, you believe that what God created can be changed by your own mind.
* Second, you believe that what is perfect can be rendered imperfect or lacking.
* Third, you believe that you can distort the creations of God, including yourself.
* Fourth, you believe that you can create yourself, and that the direction of your own
creation is up to you.
These related distortions represent a picture of what actually occurred in the separation, or the
"detour into fear." None of this existed before the separation, nor does it actually exist now.
Everything God created is like Him. Extension, as undertaken by God, is similar to the inner
radiance that the children of the Father inherit from Him. Its real source is internal. This is as
true of the Son as of the Father. In this sense the creation includes both the creation of the Son
by God, and the Son's creations when his mind is healed. This requires God's endowment of the
Son with free will, because all loving creation is freely given in one continuous line, in which all
aspects are of the same order.
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The Garden of Eden, or the pre-separation condition, was a state of mind in which nothing was
needed. When Adam listened to the "lies of the serpent," all he heard was untruth. You do not
have to continue to believe what is not true unless you choose to do so. All that can literally
disappear in the twinkling of an eye because it is merely a misperception. What is seen in
dreams seems to be very real. Yet the Bible says that a deep sleep fell upon Adam, and nowhere
is there reference to his waking up. The world has not yet experienced any comprehensive
reawakening or rebirth. Such a rebirth is impossible as long as you continue to project or
miscreate. It still remains within you, however, to extend as God extended His Spirit to you. In
reality this is your only choice, because your free will was given you for your joy in creating the
perfect." ACIM Chapter 2
Today I was feeding my fish and thought about what their world must be like,. They have no idea what
the world outside their tank looks like nor any reference point to compare it to where they are living
now. It would be impossible for them to imagine anything like an elephant, bird, mountain, or any
other thing from this world. Jesus is my reference point here in the dream of separation from God,
and the Holy Spirit is the quiet voice for God forever telling me I am not alone.
Forgiveness is the key
Thus we have our model , now lets see how well this model holds up under scrutiny
Elohim MOST HIGH GOD
– Most High GOD First mentioned in Genesis, who created the Heavens and the Earth and again
referred to in the story of Abraham and his flight out of Canaan. Where he meet Melchizedek the priest
of the Most High GOD Very little is mentioned about Elohim.
16 And he brought back all the goods, and also brought again his brother Lot, and his goods,
and the women also, and the people. 17 And the king of Sodom went out to meet him after his
return from the slaughter of Chedorlaomer, and of the kings that [were] with him, at the valley
of Shaveh, which [is] the king's dale. 18 And Melchizedek king of Salem brought forth bread
and wine: and he [was] the priest of the most high God. 19 And he blessed him, and said,
Blessed [be] Abram of the most high God, possessor of heaven and earth: Genesis 14:16
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What happened next – in chapter one God “Elohim” creates and is Spirit and in chapter two, God Yahweh
makes the world and everything in it - Additional names of God “El Shaddai, Adonai, Jehovah, Yahweh-
Jireh, Yahweh-Rapha, and many more mentioned in the Bible - each describing different aspects of God
God became divided. Not all inclusive. (https://www.gotquestions.org/names-of-God.html)
Notice above “God said” and it was so created. And behold it was very good – in the likeness of God
“Spirit” “a thought or idea” he created them – male and female and gave them dominion over all. All
power to create like Himself. God’s name referred to here was “Elohim”, “El”, and “Eloah” Later we
will see that name mentioned again concerning Melchizedek, Priest of the “Most High God” and later
most Biblical scholars agree that Jesus would be called a priest on the order of Melchizedek. Please
remember this for further reference. Hebrew 5:10 The Great High Priest after the order of Melchizedek
The plural form ending in -im can also be understood as denoting abstraction, as in the Hebrew
words chayyim ("life") or betulim ("virginity"). If understood this way, Elohim means "divinity"
or "deity". The word chayyim is similarly syntactically singular when used as a name but
syntactically plural otherwise. In many of the passages in which elohim occurs in the Bible it
refers to non-Israelite deities, or in some instances to powerful men or judges, and even angels
(Exodus 21:6, Psalms 8:5) as a simple plural in those instances. ( Wikipedia Names of God in
Judaism)
Question: "What is the Melchizedek priesthood?" Answer: In biblical Christianity, the
Melchizedek priesthood is an office that applies only to Christ. Melchizedek is introduced in
Genesis 14:18 and is described as the king of Salem and “priest of God.” Abram (later
Abraham) offers Melchizedek a tithe and is blessed. The name Melchizedek is the combination
of the Hebrew words for king” and “righteous,” making Melchizedek a righteous, kingly
priest. In Matthew 22 Jesus debates the Pharisees. In verse 44 Jesus cites Psalm 110:1, stating
that the Messiah is David’slord” in that verse. Melchizedek is mentioned in the same psalm:
The Lord has sworn and will not change his mind:You are a priest forever, in the order of
Melchizedek’” (Psalm 110:4). So the Messiah, David’s lord, was given Melchizedeks
priesthood. Melchizedek is therefore a type of Christ—some commentators say Melchizedeks
appearance to Abraham was actually a Christophany, an early revelation of Jesus Christ.
Much of chapters 6 and 7 of the book of Hebrews is given to explaining why Jesus’ Melchizedek
priesthood is superior to that of Aaron. Hebrews 7:23–24 implies that Jesus holds His priestly
office eternally, using a Greek word that suggests something that cannot be passed down or
changed. Hebrews 7:26 calls this priest “exalted” and sinless. For all of these reasons, Christ
alone can fulfill the office of the Melchizedek priesthood (Hebrews 6:20), at least according to
the Bible. (https://www.gotquestions.org/Melchizedek-priesthood.html)
Yahweh LORD God
Now the God (LORD God Yahweh) made the earth and heavens- and everything else and He had
Adam name the animals – friend or foe. It is also where original Sin was created, direct defiance
against God command not to eat of the fruit of the tree of knowledge, kicked from paradise and left to
wander the world in pain and suffering. Here we also begin to see the story of the human race,
dividing (separation) , increasing corruption, hatred, sin and above all the development of a jealous,
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vicious, vengeful, demanding sacrifices, type of God. This continues on through the balance of the
Bible until Jesus appears and questioned the existing doctrine.. Life as we know It still today.
"In the Book of Exodus, God commands Moses to tell the people that 'I AM' sent him, and this is
revered as one of the most important names of God according to Mosaic tradition. - Yahweh
LORD = I Am Moses said to God, “Suppose I go to the Israelites and say to them, ‘The God
of your fathers has sent me to you,’ and they ask me, ‘What is his name? Then what shall I tell
them? God said to Moses, “I am who I am. This is what you are to say to the Israelites: ‘I am
has sent me to you.'" God also said to Moses, “ Say to the Israelites, ‘The Lord, the God of your
fathers—the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac and the God of Jacob—has sent me to you.’
This is my name forever, the name you shall call me from generation to generation".Exodus
3:13-15
Most Christian doctrine generally states 10 things about the LORD Yahweh
(http://www.desiringgod.org/authors/john-piper)
1) He never had a beginning. Every child asks, “ Who made God? And every wise parent
says, “Nobody made God. God simply is. And always was. No beginning.”
2) God will never end. If he did not come into being he cannot go out of being, because he
is being.
3) God is absolute reality. There is no reality before him. There is no reality outside of him
unless he wills it and makes it. He is all that was eternally. No space, no universe, no
emptiness. Only God.
4) God is utterly independent. He depends on nothing to bring him into being or support
him or counsel him or make him what he is.
5) Everything that is not God depends totally on God. The entire universe is utterly
secondary. It came into being by God and stays in being moment by moment on God’s
decision to keep it in being.
6) All the universe is by comparison to God as nothing. Contingent, dependent reality is to
absolute, independent reality as a shadow to substance. As an echo to a thunderclap. All
that we are amazed by in the world and in the galaxies, is, compared to God, as nothing.
7) God is constant. He is the same yesterday, today, and forever. He cannot be improved.
He is not becoming anything. He is who he is.
8) God is the absolute standard of truth and goodness and beauty. There is no law-book to
which he looks to know what is right. No almanac to establish facts. No guild to
determine what is excellent or beautiful. He himself is the standard of what is right,
what is true, what is beautiful.
9) God does whatever he pleases and it is always right and always beautiful and always in
accord with truth. All reality that is outside of him he created and designed and governs
as the absolute reality. So he is utterly free from any constraints that don’t originate
from the counsel of his own will
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10) God is the most important and most valuable reality and person in the universe. He is
more worthy of interest and attention and admiration and enjoyment than all other
realities, including the entire universe.
However a careful examination would reveal that these characteristic should be applied to
Elohim and Elohim alone. Not to Yahweh --- If we read the Bible from Genesis chapter 2 to
the end we find references to God referred to as
Vengeful God --- "The LORD is a jealous and avenging God; the LORD takes vengeance and
is filled with wrath. The LORD takes vengeance on his foes and vents his wrath against his
enemies." Nahum 1:2
Jealous God You shall not make for yourself an idol in the form of anything in heaven
above or on the earth beneath or in the waters below. You shall not bow down to them or
worship them; for I, the LORD your God, am a jealous God." Exodus 20:4-5
Early in Genesis, God becomes mad and disgusted with the human race and produces a flood to with
them all out except a choose few, Noah and his family.
"And God said unto Noah, The end of all flesh is come before me; for the earth is filled with
violence through them; and, behold, I will destroy them with the earth. Genesis 6:13 (KJV)"
"And it came to pass, that, when Abram was come into Egypt, the Egyptians beheld the woman
that she was very fair. 15The princes also of Pharaoh saw her, and commended her before
Pharaoh: and the woman was taken into Pharaoh's house. 16And he entreated Abram well for
her sake: and he had sheep, and oxen, and he asses, and menservants, and maidservants, and
she asses, and camels. 17And the LORD plagued Pharaoh and his house with great plagues
because of Sarai Abram's wife. Genesis 12:17 (KJV)"
Later we are told that God sent 10 plagues against the Egyptians – water into blood, frogs, lice, flies,
diseased livestock, boils, thunderstorm of hail, locusts, darkness for 3 days and finally the most
inhumane plague of all - death of the firstborn sons. Exodus 7-10 And finally split the waters for
Moses and killed the entire Pharaoh’s army.
"And the LORD hardened the heart of Pharaoh, and he hearkened not unto them; as the LORD
had spoken unto Moses. 13And the LORD said unto Moses, Rise up early in the morning, and
stand before Pharaoh, and say unto him, Thus saith the LORD God of the Hebrews, Let my
people go, that they may serve me. 14For I will at this time send all my plagues upon thine
heart, and upon thy servants, and upon thy people; that thou mayest know that there is none like
me in all the earth. 15For now I will stretch out my hand, that I may smite thee and thy people
with pestilence; and thou shalt be cut off from the earth. Genesis 9:14 (KJV)
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The Jew’s were constantly calling on God to take sides and protect them from their enemies such as:,
"And the Philistines were afraid, for they said, God is come into the camp. And they said, Woe
unto us! for there hath not been such a thing heretofore. 8Woe unto us! who shall deliver us out
of the hand of these mighty Gods? these are the Gods that smote the Egyptians with all the
plagues in the wilderness. 9Be strong, and quit yourselves like men, O ye Philistines, that ye be
not servants unto the Hebrews, as they have been to you: quit yourselves like men, and fight. 1
Samuel 4:7 (KJV)"
He also allows the innocent to die, cripples, blue babies, natural disaster victims, accidents and
diseases.
From Genesis 2 to the end of the Bible God takes on human like characteristics, emotions and
reactions. Christianity and Judaism try to pass this off and develop theories that attempt to explaining
these human characteristics away but in my model these gods would have been made by the ego A
nightmarish dream where God becomes vengeful, jealous, Love becomes hate and so on.-
Buddhism , Islam, and other spiritual practices
Does my model exclude other religions of practices If we are all one with God than all must be
included. If Christ is everywhere and in me than Christ must be in you too. Be they Atheist to
Buddhist.
Although I have not studied the original teaching of Buddha, I believe I present an accurate view to of
his path to Enlightenment.
Considering Buddhism, the Buddha did not speak about “God”. He did speak about the
“Indescribable” that beyond Enlightenment - The Teaching of Totality, The Philosophy of Hwa Yen
Buddhism, The Commentary on the Diamond Sutra. And from Pascal’s Pensees 13 in his great Insight
into Totality is so clearly expressed “In short it is the greatest sensible mark of the almighty power of
God that imagination loses itself in that thought”
His primary teachings were to relieve suffering in the word. How to free the mind - let go of
attachments - how to calm the monkey mind through meditation. However it is not in conflict with
the teaching of Jesus. It is a path to freeing oneself from physical and emotional attachments the
underlying causes for suffering. Addictions are obvious, but special relationships to people, places and
things, and resentments and emotions are as addictive as well and can contribute to the same suffering.
Schools of Buddhism The Man
Separation started right after the Masters death -
Reincarnation, past lives,
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déjà vu is the phenomenon of having the strong sensation that an event or experience
currently being experienced has already been experienced in the past and so on.
Wai – respect the God within – love thy enemy
Each morning the monks go out for their daily alms walk
Isn’t this the same thing that Jesus taught to his disciples
25 Therefore I say unto you, Take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat, or what ye shall
drink; nor yet for your body, what ye shall put on. Is not the life more than meat, and the body
than raiment? 26 Behold the fowls of the air: for they sow not, neither do they reap, nor gather
into barns; yet your heavenly Father feedeth them. Are ye not much better than they? 27 Which
of you by taking thought can add one cubit unto his stature? 28 And why take ye thought for
raiment? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they toil not, neither do they spin: 29
And yet I say unto you, That even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 30
Wherefore, if God so clothe the grass of the field, which to day is, and to morrow is cast into the
oven, [shall he] not much more [clothe] you, O ye of little faith? 31 Therefore take no thought,
saying, What shall we eat? or, What shall we drink? or, Wherewithal shall we be clothed? 32
(For after all these things do the Gentiles seek:) for your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have
need of all these things. 33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all
these things shall be added unto you. 34 Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the
morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day [is] the evil thereof.
Matthew 6:25
Enlightenment --- Judgments & Attachments
"Prashanth Hirematada, Author of LAMP (Living Awareness Meditation & Practice)
Written Mar 10, 2015 https://www.quora.com/Did-Buddha-believe-in-God
A prerequisite crash course on Buddhism for Christian background: His message/teaching/?
was about...
1. Compassion
2. End of your own suffering (rough translation of Dukkha)
3. Know your own attachments to things/ideas/labels - this also does not mean to live a life of
an ascetic. Learn about the middle way.
You could still carry any belief you may have or even non-belief. He does not attempt to explain
how the universe came to be, who created it, how it was created - because knowing it does not
help you to end your own suffering in any manner. Whatever Buddha believed has nothing to do
with you and your own suffering. It is not about following him, inheriting his beliefs, but
understanding and practicing his teachings, that may help you to know and end your own
Dukkha. Buddha's method is one of self-inquiry, not even faith... and that is also not to say you
abandon your faith. Be a light onto yourself. In order not to confuse yourself, please be careful
about mixing what you know about the religion you are already familiar with and Buddhism. Or
trying to look for concepts you are already familiar within Buddhism.
Remember only thing that matters in Buddhism is... Ending of your own suffering (rough
translation of Dukkha) Blossoming of compassion within you. All else is drama."
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Describing the Indescribable by Tom Graham (Translator) Amazon review
The Diamond Sutra is revered throughout Asia as one of the Buddha's most profound expressions
of the nature of reality. A gem among the vast Perfection of Wisdom literature, the Diamond Sutra
elicits an experience of eternal truth through its use of a seemingly paradoxical style, as the reader
goes back and forth between "what is" and "what is not." Master Hsing Yun skillfully plumbs the
depths of the Diamond Sutra, illuminating for us its power to change who we are and how we
interpret our world.
The Buddhist Teachings of Totality: The Philsosphy of Hwa Yen Buddhism by Gama C C Chang
Google Books –(https://books.google.co.th/books?id=s-
BrJ0MlahAC&pg=PT15&lpg=PT15&dq=buddha+and+indescribable&source=bl&ots=BzcDwUB8SS
&sig=otShMN8MfnE1NPr4aAjPKzyUXvA&hl=en&sa=X&ved=0ahUKEwjMs4-
yw4_TAhWMxrwKHWTRB6cQ6AEIOzAB#v=onepage&q=buddha%20and
%20indescribable&f=false)
Describing the Indescribable: A Commentary on the Diamond Sutra by Hsing Yun
AT ONE TIME” INDICATES A REALM BEYOND TIME” All Buddhists sutras begin with the
phrase “Thus have I heard. At one time ...” This phrase does not indicate a specific time, but
only a general notion of something occurring in time, or a general notion of many things
coming togetherat one time.” At an ordinary level, this time marker is used to assure people
that the teachings in the Sutra was actually spoken by the Buddha and heard by Ananda at a
specific time. At a deeper-level, time itself is dependent on the karma of the people gathered to
listen to the Buddha. At a level deeper still, all Buddhas are entirely beyond time. “
(https://books.google.co.th/books?id=782-
CwAAQBAJ&pg=PT30&lpg=PT30&dq=buddha+and+indescribable&source=bl&ots=rAw33f
OzrD&sig=oa-TTcViUJfgIcp3oOovKDXyzoA&hl=en&sa=X&ved=0ahUKEwjMs4-
yw4_TAhWMxrwKHWTRB6cQ6AEIPjAC#v=onepage&q=buddha%20and
%20indescribable&f=false
why do you worry about what to eat or wear – God will supply --- monks going out each morning for
alms
Islam
.
In Islam, Jesus (commonly transliterated as Isa) is considered one of God's important prophets
and the Messiah. Muslims believe Jesus was a bringer of scripture and was born of a virgin but
was not the Son of God. The Quran states that Jesus himself never claimed divinity. To most
Muslims, Jesus was not crucified but was physically raised into Heaven by God. (Wikipedia
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jesus)
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Hypocrisy of the Churches – at least my interpretation.
hy·poc·ri·sy həˈpäkrəsē/ noun
Cambridge Dictionary "a situation in which someone pretends to believe something that they
do not really believe, or that is the opposite of what they do or say at another time:"
Google Grammar states:"the practice of claiming to have moral standards or beliefs to which
one's own behavior does not conform; pretense."
I had great problems believing in the Church and therefore the Bible. All lies nothing built on the
truth Didn’t Jesus say the truth will set you free and the He was the truth and the light.
And what is the church’s position on Jesus: They state:
He was not born on Dec 25
th
- but sometime in the summer or spring when the shepherds were
in the fields with their flocks.
"In the 3rd century, the date of birth of Jesus was the subject of both great interest and great
uncertainly. Around AD 200, Clement of Alexandria wrote: “There are those who have
determined not only the year of our Lord's birth, but also the day; and they say that it took place
in the 28th year of Augustus, and in the 25th day of [the Egyptian month] Pachon [May 20] …
Further, others say that He was born on the 24th or 25th of Pharmuthi [April 20 or 21] "
(Wikipedia Christmas)
"Although it is not known why December 25 became a date of Christmas, there are several
factors that may have influenced the choice. December 25 was the date the Romans marked as
the winter solstice,[35] the shortest, and therefore darkest day of the year. Jesus was identified
with the Sun based on an Old Testament verse.[36] The date is exactly nine months following
Annunciation, when the conception of Jesus is celebrated.[37][38] Finally, the Romans had a
series of pagan festivals near the end of the year, so Christmas may have been scheduled at this
time to appropriate, or compete with, one or more of these festivals ( Wikipedia - Christmas)"
The 3 Wise men did not come at his birth, but later when Herod was trying to kill all boys under
3 to make sure he got Jesus
One of Jesus’s commandments is “call no man father on earth” and yet the church calls the
Pope, Holy Father and priest Father.
Most of the church doctrine is Paul’s teaching not Jesus’s.
Holy Mother of God, praying to statues of Mary – Jesus said “no one is my mother or father”
Easter was originally the celebration of Ishtar, the Assyrian and Babylonian goddess of fertility
and sex. Her symbols (like the egg and bunny) were and still are fertility and sex symbols.
After Constantine decided to Christianize the Empire, Easter was changed to represent Jesus.
But at its roots, is all about celebrating fertility and sex.
again ….all falsehoods, you could call them lies, nothing built on the truth. Jesus said “the
truth would set you free”
Regarding God and the Bible:
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God (that had in Genesis 1 created everything “Good and like Himself” had angles that turned
bad or evil rebelled against Him. That would be impossible. If God is ALL he would not be
attacking himself.
The same angles later came to earth and fornicated with female humans and raised giants which
later God had to be destroyed - that meant spirits and bodies, only god could breath life.
Lot was tortured by the devil with god’s permission, just to prove a point
Lot’s wife was turned to salt because she turned around
Several were killed because they touched the Arc of the Covenant and it was also used as a
weapon.
Noah time - great flood to destroy the earth and all inhabitants except a chosen few.
Tower of Babel – made them so they could not understand each other
God was constantly choosing sides – killed Philistines and later the Egyptian Pharaoh and his
army chasing Moses.
and on and on A god that was hateful, revengeful, jealous, wrathful, killer.
I remember that the church was having a special meeting and so the Pope issued a decree that it would
be alright to not eat fish on Friday – I had always thought that was a commandment from God and he
had no right to issue such a thing. That started my separation from the church.
The Church and the Bible didn’t man anything to me – the Bible was just a book of short stories – but
AA made me look for a Higher Power and after I was introduced to ACIM I had to find out more about
Jesus, after all He was supposed to have dictated it to Helen, If ACIM is true then Jesus’s teaching in
the bible must be of value and cannot contradict the teachings in ACIM, if it did some then one of them
is not true.
Jesus’s Teachings
Jesus said
"Wherefore, if thy hand or thy foot offend thee, cut them off, and cast them from thee: it is better
for thee to enter into life halt or maimed, rather than having' two hands or two feet to be cast
into everlasting fire. And if thine eye offend thee, pluck it out, and cast it from thee: it is better
for thee to enter into life with one eye, rather than having two eyes to be cast into hell fire. Take
heed that ye despise not one of these little ones; for I say unto you, That in heaven their angels
do always behold the face of my Father which is in heaven. For the Son of man is come to save
that which was lost." Mathew 18:5
If two make peace with one another in one and the same house, (then) they will say to the
mountain:Move away, and it will be so” . (Gospel of Thomas)
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His disciples said to him: When will the <resurrection> of the dead take pace and when will
the new world come? He said to them:That (resurrection) which you are awaiting has
(already) come, but you do not recognize it.” (Gospel of Thomas)
Most Christian’s describe Jesus as:
"Jesus[e] (/jee-zuss; c. 4 BC – c. AD 30/33), also referred to as Jesus of Nazareth or Jesus
Christ, was a Jewish preacher and religious leader who became the central figure of
Christianity. Christians believe him to be the Son of God and the awaited Messiah (Christ)
prophesied in the Old Testament.
Christian doctrines include the beliefs that Jesus was conceived by the Holy Spirit, was born of
a virgin named Mary, performed miracles, founded the Church, died by crucifixion as a
sacrifice to achieve atonement, rose from the dead, and ascended into Heaven, whence he will
return. Most Christians believe Jesus enables humans to be reconciled to God. The Nicene
Creed asserts that Jesus will judge the living and the dead[33] either before or after their
bodily resurrection, an event tied to the Second Coming of Jesus in Christian eschatology."
......Virtually all modern scholars of antiquity agree that Jesus existed historically, although
the quest for the historical Jesus has produced little agreement on the historical reliability of
the Gospels and on how closely the biblical Jesus reflects the historical Jesus Jesus was a
Galilean Jew] who was baptized by John the Baptist and subsequently began his own ministry,
preaching his message orally and often being referred to as "rabbi". He was arrested and tried
by the Jewish authorities, and was crucified by the order of Pontius Pilate, the Roman prefect.
Jesus debated fellow Jews on how to best follow God, performed heaings, taught in parables
and gathered followers. After his death, his followers believed he rose from the dead, and the
community they formed eventually became the Christian Church. ….…..Christian
doctrines include the beliefs that Jesus was conceived by the Holy Spirit, was born of a virgin
named Mary, performed miracles, founded the Church, died by crucifixion as a sacrifice to
achieve atonement, rose from the dead, and ascended into Heaven, whence he will return. Most
Christians believe Jesus enables humans to be reconciled to God. The Nicene Creed asserts that
Jesus will judge the living and the dead either before or after their bodily resurrection, an event
tied to the Second Coming of Jesus in Christian eschatology. The great majority of Christians
worship Jesus as the incarnation of God the Son, the second of three persons of a Divine
Trinity..
Now lets consider how “The Course in Miracles” describes Jesus:
The name of Jesus is the name of one who was a man but saw the face of Christ in all his
brothers and remembered God. So he became identified with Christ, a man no longer, but at
one with God. The man was an illusion, for he seemed to be a separate being, walking by
himself, within a body that appeared to hold his self from Self, as all illusions do. Yet who can
save unless he sees illusions and then identifies them as what they are? Jesus remains Savior
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because he saw the false without accepting it as true. And Christ needed his form that he might
appear to men and save them from their own illusions. …..He offered you a final
demonstration that it is impossible to kill God’s Son; nor can his life in any way be changed by
sin and evil, malice, fear, or death. ... He will remain with you to lead you from the hell you
made to God. And when you join your will with his, your sight will be his vision, for the eyes of
Christ are shared. (ACIM Clarification of terms ppg 87)
My God, My God, Why has Thou Forsaken me?
I had been lead to believe from my early Bible teaching that this is what Jesus cried out when he took
on and suffered the pain of the world's sins so he [Jesus] would be a worthy sacrifice to God for
redemption of the human race. God had sent his only begotten Son to die for my sins. That never
made any sense to me Why would God have to create such an elaborate scheme to forgive anything.
For years I was constantly reminded just what Jesus did for me and I should feel the guilt for Adam and
Eve’s original sins and my own. Say the sinner’s prayer and be humbled and do what the church
leaders commanded.
It was not till I attended the first International ACIM Conference in San Francisco in 1995 and heard
this explanation from Rev. John Moundy, speaking there. He was asked the standard question “Did
Jesus believe that God had left Him ? His answer surprised me, he said that you have to take it in
context – Jesus was considered a Rabbi, and at that time all Rabbi’s began their sermons with a Psalm,
that way the congregation would know what the sermon was going to be addressing.
These words, are the beginning of the 22 Psalm
1 (To the chief Musician upon Aijeleth Shahar, A Psalm of David.)
My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me? why art thou so far from helping me, and from
the words of my roaring? 2 O my God, I cry in the daytime, but thou hearest not; and in the
night season, and am not silent. 3 But thou art holy, O thou that inhabitest the praises of Israel.
4 Our fathers trusted in thee: they trusted, and thou didst deliver them. 5 They cried unto thee,
and were delivered: they trusted in thee, and were not confounded. 6 But I am a worm, and no
man; a reproach of men, and despised of the people. 7 All they that see me laugh me to scorn:
they shoot out the lip, they shake the head, saying, 8 He trusted on the LORD that he would
deliver him: let him deliver him, seeing he delighted in him. 9 But thou art he that took me out
of the womb: thou didst make me hope when I was upon my mother's breasts. 10 I was cast
upon thee from the womb: thou art my God from my mother's belly. 11 Be not far from me; for
trouble is near; for there is none to help. 12 Many bulls have compassed me: strong bulls of
Bashan have beset me round. 13 They gaped upon me with their mouths, as a ravening and a
roaring lion. 14 I am poured out like water, and all my bones are out of joint: my heart is like
wax; it is melted in the midst of my bowels. 15 My strength is dried up like a potsherd; and my
tongue cleaveth to my jaws; and thou hast brought me into the dust of death. 16 For dogs have
compassed me: the assembly of the wicked have inclosed me: they pierced my hands and my
feet. 17 I may tell all my bones: they look and stare upon me. 18 They part my garments
among them, and cast lots upon my vesture. 19 But be not thou far from me, O LORD: O my
strength, haste thee to help me. 20 Deliver my soul from the sword; my darling from the power
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of the dog. 21 Save me from the lion's mouth: for thou hast heard me from the horns of the
unicorns. 22 I will declare thy name unto my brethren: in the midst of the congregation will I
praise thee. 23 Ye that fear the LORD, praise him; all ye the seed of Jacob, glorify him; and
fear him, all ye the seed of Israel. 24 For he hath not despised nor abhorred the affliction of
the afflicted; neither hath he hid his face from him; but when he cried unto him, he heard. 25
My praise shall be of thee in the great congregation: I will pay my vows before them that fear
him. 26 The meek shall eat and be satisfied: they shall praise the LORD that seek him: your
heart shall live for ever. 27 All the ends of the world shall remember and turn unto the LORD:
and all the kindreds of the nations shall worship before thee. 28 For the kingdom is the
LORD'S: and he is the governor among the nations. 29 All they that be fat upon earth shall eat
and worship: all they that go down to the dust shall bow before him: and none can keep alive
his own soul. 30 A seed shall serve him; it shall be accounted to the Lord for a generation. 31
They shall come, and shall declare his righteousness unto a people that shall be born, that he
hath done this. Psalms 22
1 (A Psalm of David.) The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want. 2 He maketh me to lie down
in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. 3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me
in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake. 4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the
shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head
with oil; my cup runneth over. 6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my
life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever. Psalm 23
When I got home that evening I looked up the 22 and 23 Psalm and I was astounded, His sermon was
about the “Suffering Servant” , commonly believed as to what would need to happen to the Messiah
and what the Old Testament said would be requited to gain God’s forgiveness for the Jews. It told the
story of what would happen and what Jesus was doing NOW, He then gave up the Spirit. And he had
already told them he would rise from the dead in 3 days. He was doing what they thought was
impossible, He was doing what they thought God and their law required , He was explaining what
was going on. That’s far from a man suffering the pain of the worlds sins and believing his father had
abandoned him. .-
Who do you say I am - Commandments, Sayings and Parables
Who do you say I am – Jesus asked his disciples. You are “The Christ”
13 When Jesus came into the coasts of Caesarea Philippi, he asked his disciples, saying, Whom
do men say that I the Son of man am? 14 And they said, Some say that thou art John the
Baptist: some, Elias; and others, Jeremias, or one of the prophets. 15 He saith unto them, But
whom say ye that I am? 16 And Simon Peter answered and said, Thou art the Christ, the Son
of the living God. 17 And Jesus answered and said unto him, Blessed art thou, Simon Barjona:
for flesh and blood hath not revealed it unto thee, but my Father which is in heaven. 18 And I
say also unto thee, That thou art Peter, and upon this rock I will build my church; and the gates
of hell shall not prevail against it. 19 And I will give unto thee the keys of the kingdom of
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heaven: and whatsoever thou shalt bind on earth shall be bound in heaven: and whatsoever
thou shalt loose on earth shall be loosed in heaven. 20 Then charged he his disciples that they
should tell no man that he was Jesus the Christ. Mathew 16:13
Think not that I am come to destroy the law, or the prophets: I am not come to destroy, but to
fulfil. For verily I say unto you, Till heaven and earth pass, one jot or one tittle shall in no wise
pass from the law, till all be fulfilled. Whosoever therefore shall break one of these least
commandments, and shall teach men so, he shall be called the least in the kingdom of heaven:
but whosoever shall do and teach them, the same shall be called great in the kingdom of
heaven. For I say unto you, That except your righteousness shall exceed the righteousness of
the scribes and Pharisees, ye shall in no case enter into the kingdom of heaven. Mathew 5-
13 KJV
"Then said the Jews, Now we know that thou hast a devil. Abraham is dead, and the prophets,
and thou sayest, If a man keep my saying, he shall never taste of death. Art thou greater than
our father Abraham, which is dead? and the prophets are dead: who makest thou thyself? Jesus
answered, If I honor myself, my honor is nothing: it is my Father that honoreth me; of whom ye
say, that he is your God: yet ye have not known him: but I know him: and if I should say, I know
him not, I shall be a liar like unto you; but I know him, and keep his saying. Your father
Abraham rejoiced to see my day; and he saw it, and was glad. Then said the Jews, Thou art not
yet fifty years old, and hast thou seen Abraham? Jesus answered,
Verily, verily I say unto you, Before Abraham was, I am. "The Pharisees therefore said, Thou
bearest record of thyself; thy record is not true. Jesus answered, Though I bear record of
myself, yet my record is true: for I know whence I came, and whither I go; but ye cannot tell
whence I come, and whither I go. Ye judge after the flesh; I judge no man. And yet if I judge,
my judgment is true: for I am not alone, but I and the Father that sent me. It is also written in
your law, that the testimony of two men is true. I am one that bear witness of myself, and the
Father that sent me beareth witness of me. Then said they, Where is thy father? Jesus
answered, Ye neither know me, nor my Father: if ye had known me, ye should have known my
Father also. These words spake Jesus in the treasury, as he taught in the temple: and no man
laid hands on him; for his hour was not yet come. Then said Jesus again, I go my way, and ye
shall seek me, and shall die in your sins: whither I go, ye cannot come. Then said the Jews, Will
he kill himself? because he saith, Whither I go, ye cannot come. And he said, Ye are from
beneath; I am from above: ye are of this world; I am not of this world. I said therefore unto you
that ye shall die in your sins: for if ye believe not that I am he, ye shall die in your sins. (John
8, 2-59.The complete sayings of Jesus, Arthur Hinds)"
I am the light that is all over. I am the All. The All came forth out of me. And to me the All
has come.” Split a piece of wood - I am there. Lift the stone, and you will find me there.”
(Gospel of Thomas)
Jesus saith unto her, Touch me not; for I am not yet ascended to my Father: but go to my
brethren, and say unto them, I ascend unto my Father, and your Father; and to my God, and
your God. John 20:17
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All things are delivered to me of my Father: and no man knoweth who the Son is, but the
Father; and who the Father is, but the Son, and he to whom the Son will reveal him. Luke
10:22
Believest thou not that I am in the Father, and the Father in me? the words that I speak unto
you I speak not of myself: but the Father that dwelleth in me, he doeth the works. John 14:10
All things are delivered unto me of my Father: and no man knoweth the Son, but the Father;
neither knoweth any man the Father, save the Son, and he to whomsoever the Son will reveal
him. Matthew 11:27
His disciples said: Show us the place where you are, because it is necessary for us to seek it.
He said to them:Whoever has ears should hear! Light exist inside a person of light, and he
shines on the whole world. If he does not shine, there is darkness.” (Gospel of Thomas)
But when the Comforter is come, whom I will send unto you from the Father, even the Spirit of
truth, which proceedeth from the Father, he shall testify of me: John 15:26
trying to summarize who I am , why am I here, what is my beliefs now and what is my future – is
there a future
Sunflower spiracles in nature remind me that Jesus said he will draw all men to him - one alcoholic
helping another alcoholic --- one atheist helping another the only way to the father is through me
All culminating at the center – Christ The Son of God
My Father is the father of Truth . Yours is the father of lies I come into the world not to condemn
but to save.
No one goes to the Father except through me. When you see me you see my Father
Call no man father on earth
And, behold, men brought one sick of the palsy, lying on a bed borne by four. They could not
come nigh unto Jesus for the press: and when they could not find by what way they might bring
him in, they went upon the housetop, and uncovered the roof, and let him down through the
tiling with his couch into the midst before Jesus. Jesus seeing their faith said unto the sick of
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the palsy, Son, be of good cheer; thy sins be forgiven thee. Certain of the scribes sitting there,
and reasoning in their hearts, said within themselves, This man blasphemeth: who can forgive
sins, but God alone? Jesus knowing their thoughts said, What reason ye in your hearts? Why
reason ye these things? Wherefore think ye evil? Whether is it easier to say to the sick of the
palsy, Thy sins be forgiven thee; or to say, Arise, and take up thy bed, and walk? But that ye
may know that the Son of man hath power on earth to forgive sins,” Mathew 9:2
23 But he turned, and said unto Peter, Get thee behind me, Satan: thou art an offence unto me:
for thou savourest not the things that be of God, but those that be of men. 24 ¶ Then said Jesus
unto his disciples, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross,
and follow me. 25 For whosoever will save his life shall lose it: and whosoever will lose his life
for my sake shall find it. 26 For what is a man profited, if he shall gain the whole world, and
lose his own soul? or what shall a man give in exchange for his soul? 27 For the Son of man
shall come in the glory of his Father with his angels; and then he shall reward every man
according to his works. 28 Verily I say unto you, There be some standing here, which shall not
taste of death, till they see the Son of man coming in his kingdom. Mathew 16:23
Commandments
"34 Then he {Jesus} called the crowd to him along with his disciples and said: Whoever wants
to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me. 35 For whoever
wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me and for the gospel will
save it. 36 What good is it for someone to gain the whole world, yet forfeit their soul? 37 Or
what can anyone give in exchange for their soul?" Mark 8:34
37 Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy
soul, and with all thy mind. 38 This is the first and great commandment. 39 And the second
[is] like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself. 40 On these two commandments hang
all the law and the prophets. Matthew 22:37
Call no man father:
7 And greetings in the markets, and to be called of men, Rabbi, Rabbi. 8 But be not ye called
Rabbi: for one is your Master, [even] Christ; and all ye are brethren. 9 And call no [man] your
father upon the earth: for one is your Father, which is in heaven. 10 Neither be ye called
masters: for one is your Master, [even] Christ. Matthew 23:7
Give all you have:
25 Therefore I say unto you, Take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat, or what ye shall
drink; nor yet for your body, what ye shall put on. Is not the life more than meat, and the body
than raiment? 26 Behold the fowls of the air: for they sow not, neither do they reap, nor gather
into barns; yet your heavenly Father feedeth them. Are ye not much better than they? 27 Which
of you by taking thought can add one cubit unto his stature? 28 And why take ye thought for
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raiment? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they toil not, neither do they spin: 29
And yet I say unto you, That even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 30
Wherefore, if God so clothe the grass of the field, which to day is, and to morrow is cast into the
oven, [shall he] not much more [clothe] you, O ye of little faith? 31 Therefore take no thought,
saying, What shall we eat? or, What shall we drink? or, Wherewithal shall we be clothed? 32
(For after all these things do the Gentiles seek:) for your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have
need of all these things. 33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all
these things shall be added unto you. 34 Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the
morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day [is] the evil thereof.
Matthew 6:25
Now when Jesus heard these things, he said unto him, Yet lackest thou one thing: sell all that
thou hast, and distribute unto the poor, and thou shalt have treasure in heaven: and come,
follow me. Luke 18:22
Jesus said unto him, If thou wilt be perfect, go and sell that thou hast, and give to the poor, and
thou shalt have treasure in heaven: and come and follow me. Matthew 19:21
But Jesus said unto him, Follow me; and let the dead bury their dead. Matthew 8:22
Deny himself – take up his cross:
And when he had called the people unto him with his disciples also, he said unto them,
Whosoever will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow me.
Mark 8:34
My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me: John 10:27
If any man serve me, let him follow me; and where I am, there shall also my servant be: if any
man serve me, him will my Father honour. John 12:26
Simon Peter said unto him, Lord, whither goest thou? Jesus answered him, Whither I go, thou
canst not follow me now; but thou shalt follow me afterwards. John 13:36
Sayings and Parables
Jesus says:Adam came from a great power and a great wealth. But he did not become
worthy of you. For if he had been worthy, (then) [he would] not [have tasted] death. (Gospel
of Thomas)
Jesus says:if those who lead you say to you:Look, the kingdom is in the sky!” then the birds
of the sky will precede you. If they say to you: It is in the sea,then the fishes will precede
you. Rather, the kingdom is inside of you and outside of you” When you come to know
yourselves, then you will be known, and you will realize that you are the children of the living
Father. But if you do not come to know yourselves, then you exist in poverty, and you are
poverty.” (Gospel of Thomas )
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“I will give you what no eye has seen, and what no ear has heard, and what no hand has
touched, and what has not occurred to the human mind.” (Gospel of Thomas)
Peter walks on water
"His disciples went over the sea toward Capernaum. The sea arose by reason of a great wind that blew.
It was now dark, and the ship in the midst of the sea, tossed with the waves, and Jesus on the land,
alone. He saw them toiling in rowing; and about the fourth watch of the night, they see Jesus walking
on the sea, and drawing nigh unto the ship. They cried out for fear, saying, It is a spirit. But
straightway Jesus spake, Be of good cheer; it is I: be not afraid. Peter answered, Lord, if it be thou, bid
me come unto thee on the water. Jesus said, Come. And Peter walked on the water, to go to Jesus. But
he was afraid; and beginning to sink, he cried, Lord, save me. Jesus stretched forth his hand, and
caught him, and said,
O thou of little faith, wherefore didst thou doubt? When they were come into the ship, the wind ceased.
They came into the land of Gennesaret." (Matthew 14, 22-32: Mark 6, 45-53: John 6, 15-21. The
complete sayings of Jesus, Arthur Hinds)"
The Prodigal Son
11 And he said, A certain man had two sons: 12 And the younger of them said to [his] father,
Father, give me the portion of goods that falleth [to me]. And he divided unto them [his] living.
13 And not many days after the younger son gathered all together, and took his journey into a
far country, and there wasted his substance with riotous living. 14 And when he had spent all,
there arose a mighty famine in that land; and he began to be in want. 15 And he went and
joined himself to a citizen of that country; and he sent him into his fields to feed swine. 16 And
he would fain have filled his belly with the husks that the swine did eat: and no man gave unto
him. 17 And when he came to himself, he said, How many hired servants of my father's have
bread enough and to spare, and I perish with hunger! 18 I will arise and go to my father, and
will say unto him, Father, I have sinned against heaven, and before thee, 19 And am no more
worthy to be called thy son: make me as one of thy hired servants. 20 And he arose, and came
to his father. But when he was yet a great way off, his father saw him, and had compassion, and
ran, and fell on his neck, and kissed him. 21 And the son said unto him, Father, I have sinned
against heaven, and in thy sight, and am no more worthy to be called thy son. 22 But the father
said to his servants, Bring forth the best robe, and put [it] on him; and put a ring on his hand,
and shoes on [his] feet: 23 And bring hither the fatted calf, and kill [it]; and let us eat, and be
merry: 24 For this my son was dead, and is alive again; he was lost, and is found. And they
began to be merry. 25 Now his elder son was in the field: and as he came and drew nigh to the
house, he heard musick and dancing. 26 And he called one of the servants, and asked what
these things meant. 27 And he said unto him, Thy brother is come; and thy father hath killed
the fatted calf, because he hath received him safe and sound. 28 And he was angry, and would
not go in: therefore came his father out, and intreated him. 29 And he answering said to [his]
father, Lo, these many years do I serve thee, neither transgressed I at any time thy
commandment: and yet thou never gavest me a kid, that I might make merry with my friends:
30 But as soon as this thy son was come, which hath devoured thy living with harlots, thou hast
killed for him the fatted calf. 31 And he said unto him, Son, thou art ever with me, and all that I
have is thine. 32 It was meet that we should make merry, and be glad: for this thy brother was
dead, and is alive again; and was lost, and is found. Luke 15:11
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Judas and the Crucifixion & Resurrection
Judas Jesus needed some one to TURN him in (not betray )
Jesus answered, He it is, to whom I shall give a sop, when I have dipped it. And when he had
dipped the sop, he gave it to Judas Iscariot, the son of Simon. And after the sop Satan entered
into him. Then said Jesus unto him, That thou doest, do quickly. Now no man at the table knew
for what intent he spake this unto him. For some of them thought, because Judas had the bag,
that Jesus had said unto him, Buy those things that we have need of against the feast; or, that he
should give something to the poor.” John 13:26
The Holy Spirit –& Ego
Holy Spirit (God’s quiet voice)
Jesus says: Whoever blasphemes against the Father, it will be forgiven him. And whoever
blasphemes against the Son, it will be forgiven him. But whoever blasphemes against the Holy
Spirit, it will not be forgiven him, neither on this earth or in heaven.” (Gospel of Thomas)
Analysis of the Ego (The loudest voice)
The Ego (belief in separation) saw a world opposite , limited instead of eternal, flesh eating flesh,
separation as opposed to oneness, divide and conquer an Illusion, a dream, a nightmare. All the
aspects that a world would have without God’s Love present. He had done the impossible – but did
He - even thought God’s Child (Christ”) had turned his back on God he could not remove himself
from God so the darkened world he made still contains glimmers of God’s Love. He did not create
himself so he cannot kill God and live. H lives in God, with God in eternity.
Ye are of your father the devil, and the lusts of your father ye will do. He was a murderer from
the beginning, and abode not in the truth, because there is no truth in him. When he speaketh a
lie, he speaketh of his own: for he is a liar, and the father of it. John 8:44
And they made their father drink wine that night: and the firstborn went in, and lay with her
father; and he perceived not when she lay down, nor when she arose. Genesis 19:33
These words spake Jesus in the treasury, as he taught in the temple: and no man laid hands on
him; for his hour was not yet come. Then said Jesus again, I go my way, and ye shall seek me,
and shall die in your sins: whither I go, ye cannot come. Then said the Jews, Will he kill
himself? because he saith, Whither I go, ye cannot come. And he said, Ye are from beneath; I
am from above: ye are of this world; I am not of this world. I said therefore unto you that ye
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shall die in your sins: for if ye believe not that I am he, ye shall die in your sins. (John 8, 2-
59.The complete sayings of Jesus, Arthur Hinds)"
My Miracles
20 Baht bill each week AA
Starfish on beach – San Quentin
Stop the sun – working in staining
Thunderbird – all have to profited
Kal’s death – anger - death
Healing – The mind or the body - Spiritual Hypochondria
What is real healing – ACIM speaks of healing, everyone I know who studies the Course consiers
healing the body as a main component of the Course – but I beliec=ve is it is the mins and only the
mind that needs healing – to heal the body is meaningless.
The lady with cancer who o I met at the AIDS meetings
How needs to be healed mongoloid child, midget, transsexual, gay, blind man, cripple, which is need
more a child born blind, or lost sight later illusion healing an illusion - still an illusion.
If a man asks for you coat give him your cloak also – to deny him what you have is to say that you need
it more then he does -
True healing does not change what the body’s eyes can see it changes what the mind thinks or what the
believes – if is is necessary that the mind projects a different vision ok but does not meed to do so.
Perhaps th supposed sick person is actually a teacher for some subject and my decision to heal him is
not in accord with the healing at that time then I must leave all healing up to the Hold Spirit and know
that what I have healed in my mind will be healed when the time is due.
Spiritual Hypochondria
Hypochondria is a constant worry over the state of your own health even when nothing is wrong. Often
the person believes they have a specific illness, or notices little bodily changes and experiences severe
health anxiety as a result. a disorder of thought, whereby a patient lives in constant fear that he is dying
of some awful disease when in fact he is not sick at all.
The problem is that it's very hard to convince yourself nothing is wrong (even if you know the thought
is irrational) when you still feel physical symptoms. Belief that the body is real is the ego’s defense
system.
Some people with health anxiety have a medical condition, which they worry about excessively. Others
have medically unexplained symptoms, such as chest pain or headaches, which they are concerned may
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be a sign of a serious illness, despite the doctor's reassurance. Others may be permanently anxious
about their future health, worrying about things like: "What if I get cancer or heart disease?"
How do you heal it -
McCormick hospital in Chiang Mai has printed on all their pharmacy labels “ We dispense the
medicine, Jesus does the healing”
McCormick hospital was founded by the compassion of American Presbyterian missionaries who
shared their own family medicines to the ailing people in Chiang Mai in the 1880s.
Special Relationships & Sexuality
– need someone to be whole- that we are not whole – if they leave - die we will be less – this is a
contact -
"CLAIM: Moses explains, “If two men are fighting and the wife of one of them comes to rescue
her husband from his assailant, and she reaches out and seizes him by his private parts, 12 you
shall cut off her hand. Show her no pity (Deut. 25:11-12). [........] However, Copan also points
out that this law was still ahead of the ANE at the time. He writes, “In fact, Middle Assyrian
laws (around 1100 BC) present a similar scenario (in the case of injury to the man), though
with far more drastic consequences. If a woman in a quarrel injured a man’s testicle, her finger
was cut off. If the other testicle was injured, both of her eyes were gouged out.” (See Copan,
Paul. Is God a Moral Monster?: Making Sense of the Old Testament God. Grand Rapids, MI:
Baker, 2011. 121-122.)"
Homosexuality
Jesus gay disciple – laying eating on floor for my own benefit not that it means anything to the story
Now there was leaning on Jesus' bosom one of his disciples, whom Jesus loved. Simon Peter
therefore beckoned to him, that he should ask who it should be of whom he spake. He then lying
on Jesus' breast saith unto him, Lord, who is it? Jesus answered, He it is, to whom I shall give
a sop, when I have dipped it. And when he had dipped the sop, he gave it to Judas Iscariot, the
son of Simon. “ John 13.23
In Jesus time it was customary to lie on the floor arund a centeral dish for community dinners -explaine
see full article in my blog (www.asiancoop.com) Titled “homosexuality in the Bible”
Homosexuality
It is significant that the word "homosexuality" did not enter the English vocabulary until the
early twentieth century. The word, and with it the concept of lifelong primary sexual orientation
toward members of one's own gender, was unacknowledged and probably unknown in the
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biblical world. Some today will therefore argue that what the Bible appears to condemn can be
distinguished from homosexuality. They maintain that the homosexual orientation, to the extent
that it develops in early childhood or even before birth, is not consciously chosen and is
therefore not sinful. As long as this form of sexuality is expressed monogamously, it is argued,
homosexual relations merely constitute an expansion of the biblical view of marriage. In order
to assess the legitimacy of this approach, it is important to begin with an understanding of the
view of same-gender sex in the ancient world.
The Ancient World. Because there is so little evidence of same-gender sex before the New
Testament period, our view of "the ancient world" must focus more narrowly on the Greco-
Roman period. Writings during this period demonstrate familiarity with sexual Acts between
members of the same gender, but these were not understood to result from an "orientation."
Sexuality was important in the ancient world only in terms of male progeniture. It appears that
the rape of other males and the use of boys for sexual pleasure (pederasty) were performed as
Acts of dominance, violence, or experimentation by otherwise heterosexual men. As a phase or
as an occasional act, sex between males did not detract from male progeniture. In some circles,
most notably those of the intellectual elite philosophers and poets, relationships between men
and boys were lauded as the highest expression of romantic love. These relationships were not
reciprocal, however. Males who were (willing or not) the receiving partners in these Acts,
especially on a repeated basis, were socially outcast. Boys were bought as slaves and discarded
when they reached puberty. Lesbians, who were by definition reducing the possibility of male
progeniture, were scarcely mentioned but consistently condemned. Thus the modern supposition
of a tolerant pagan society subsequently oppressed by Judeo-Christian taboos is a complete
myth. It was, rather, a culture almost empty of regard for the sexual rights or desires of anyone
but the small ruling class of men, who commonly exercised their almost limitless privilege at
the expense of those young women and men in their power.
(http://www.biblestudytools.com/dictionaries/bakers-evangelical-
dictionary/homosexuality.html)”
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AAAlcoholics Anonymous
Twelve-step program is a set of guiding principles outlining a course of action for recovery
from addiction, compulsion, or other behavioral problems
"The Twelve Steps of Twelve Steps of Alcoholics Anonymous
1. We admitted we were powerless over alcohol—that our lives had become unmanageable.
2. Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
3. Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood
Him.
4. Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.
5. Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.
6. Were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.
7. Humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings.
8. Made a list of all persons we had harmed, and became willing to make amends to them all.
9. Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure
them or others.
10. Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly admitted it.
11. Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God as we
understood Him, praying only for 12. knowledge of His will for us and the power to carry that
out.
13. Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps, we tried to carry this message
to alcoholics and to practice these principles in all our affairs." (Wikipedia Twelve-step
program)"
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Modern Science, Entertainment, Misc.
Center of the Universe
It’s amazing that modern Physics through their work with the Plank Observatory telescope has stated
that the center of earth in universe theory:
But when you look at [the cosmic microwave background] map, you also see that the
structure that is observed, is in fact, in a weird way, correlated with the plane of the earth
around the sun. Is this Copernicus coming back to haunt us? That’s crazy. We’re looking out at
the whole universe. There’s no way there should be a correlation of structure with our motion of
the earth around the sun — the plane of the earth around the sun — the ecliptic. That would say
we are truly the center of the universe.” (https://scitechdaily.com/new-planck-data-
challenges-our-understanding-of-the-universe/)
evolution – Big bang – Atheism
A surprising encounter took place between the pope, who holds that God’s mercy is infinite, and
a scientist who rejects the existence of God due to the infinity of the Universe. On December 2,
Stephen Hawking participated in a conference in Rome on the Big Bang, today considered the
most widely accepted theory for the origin of the universe—a theory proposed by the Catholic
priest Georges Lemaître (1894-1966) in 1927. ] Pope Francis and Stephen Hawking: Faith
and reason reach out to each other
British scientist Stephen Hawking and Pope Francis met face to face on November 28 in the
Vatican, just days after that renowned astrophysicist had confidently declared that asking “what
was before the Big Bang” is meaningless, since it “is like asking what lies south of the South
Pole.” The meeting between these two charismatic figures, world-renowned representatives of
the Catholic Faith (Francis) and of reason based on scientific knowledge (Hawking), was rare
but cordial, although they have completely opposite stances regarding the idea of God.
Pope Francis considers God to be an infinitely merciful Father, greater than the Universe He
created — the same Universe that Hawking has been studying for decades and which he
believes arose from nothing, without divine intervention.
Hawking stated that “the discovery of the expansion of the Universe” the “big bang” theory
has been one of the “most important intellectual discoveries” of recent times. However,
With James Hartle from the University of California, I worked out what physical conditions
the early universe must have, if space-time had no boundaries in the past. Our model became
known as the ‘No-Boundary Proposal,' said Hawking, during the Science and Sustainability
conference organized by the Pontifical Academy of Sciences at the Casina Pio IV in the Vatican.
Although the Big Bang is a well-accepted theory among experts, and it is fundamental for the
formation of galaxies and planets, there is still no convincing answer to what happened before
the explosion, what caused it, and consequently the reason for existence. Nevertheless, the
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theory fits into a logical explanation of the universe. “The message of science is that we are the
children of logic and not of chaos,” explained Italian nuclear physicist Antonino Zichichi, a
colleague of Hawking, in an interview with Vatican Radio.
Pope Francis and the Big Bang In a discourse in October of 2014 to a Plenary Session of the
Academy of Sciences, Pope Francis—not biting the “apple of discord” between faith and
science—affirmed that the Big Bang is an act of God’s love. Fr. Georges Lemaître, Father of
the Big Bang, Died 50 Years Ago Similarly, he holds that science and its discoveries do not
deny the existence of God; on the contrary, evolution (for example) is part of God’s design for
His creation.
Creation has been progressing for centuries and centuries, millennia and millennia, until
becoming as we know it today, precisely because God is not a demiurge or a magician, but the
Creator who gives life to all beings. “The beginning of the world was not a work of chaos that
owes its origin to another, but derives directly from a supreme Principle who creates out of
love. “ The Big Bang theory, which is proposed today as the origin of the world, does not
contradict the intervention of a divine creator but depends on it. Evolution in nature does not
conflict with the notion of Creation, because evolution presupposes the creation of beings who
evolve,” Francis explained.
The miracle of Stephen Hawking’s life Stephen Hawking, one of the most respected scientists
in the world, has a different opinion. In 2010, in his book The Grand Design, he argues that the
universe arose spontaneously on its own, and that behind it lies physics with its laws, leaving
God out of the explanation of the origin of life. In his book, this famous astrophysicist and
cosmologist openly declares himself an atheist. He describes religion as believing in miracles,
in contrast to the scientific method. “There is no God,” he insists. 3 Lies you might believe
about the Catholic Church Nonetheless, Hawking is something of a miracle from a scientific
perspective. Inexplicably, he is still alive at the age of 73 after being diagnosed at 21 with
Amyotrophic Lateral Sclerosis (ALS), a degenerative disease that causes muscular paralysis.
The medical prognosis was that he would live no longer than two or three years. On the
contrary, Hawking married, has children, and travels around the world to give conferences.
Currently, he can move his eyes and cheeks, which allow him to control a computer to
communicate through a voice synthesizer. With his robotic accent, he insists that science will
someday explain the principle of life. http://aleteia.org/2016/12/03/when-religion-pope-
francis-met-science-stephen-hawking/ Article By Waldir Ramos Diaz / Dec 3, 2016
vegetarianism
And God said, Behold, I have given you every herb bearing seed, which is upon the face of all
the earth, and every tree, in the which is the fruit of a tree yielding seed; to you it shall be for
meat. 30 And to every beast of the earth, and to every fowl of the air, and to every thing that
creepeth upon the earth, wherein there is life, I have given every green herb for meat: and it
was so.” Genesis 1:29
- this would support that we should seriously consider vegetarianism
drink my blood - eat my flesh
love is max car accident with 1 3 people is the pain more – love is he dame - pain is the same
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gratitude list -
what ever you do for one of my brothers you do it for me
In a nutshell, Bush discovered that the process occurring in necrotic tissue, such as that of a
diabetic ulcer, behaved almost identically to cancer cells viewed under a microscope. "I said,
'My gosh. There's no such thing as diabetic ulcers. There's no such thing as cancer. There's no
such thing as disease. There's only a loss of cell-cell communication,'" he says. "There's only a
loss and isolation … that leads to this broken state … That was a huge transformational
moment." The truth Bush discovered can be likened to the analogy of light and dark you
cannot have both in the same place. If you shine a light in the darkness, darkness disappears.
Health is like the light, and if you have health, you're just not going to be sick.(How Soil
Microbes and Intercellular Communication Affects Human Health)
"A Holographic Environment Simulator, or holodeck for short, was a form of holotechnology
designed and used by Starfleet. They were installed aboard starships, space stations, and at
Starfleet institutions for entertainment, training, and investigative purposes. A typical holodeck
consisted of a room equipped with a hologrid containing omnidirectional holographic diodes,
enabling holographic projections and creation of holodeck matter through the manipulation of
photons contained within force fields. [.......]
Holodeck walls can generate holographic images that appear to extend for an unlimited
distance, seemingly much larger than its own dimensions. In doing so, however, the holodeck is
aware only of its users; it does not recognize its own created objects. For example, if a person
were to throw a holographic rock at the holodeck's walls, the rock would not be allowed to pass
beyond the wall (if it were of replicated matter). (TNG: "Encounter at Farpoint") It does this by
continuously adjusting the projections of the force fields and the use of a force field
"treadmill".With this, an individual approaching a wall causes an instant shift away. It can also
manipulate light photons, 'lensing' them to make individuals appear further away if two persons
were separated in a scenario. The holodeck can change gravity in three dimensions, so
occupants don't notice the change, (Star Trek: The Next Generation Interactive Technical
Manual) as observed during the stop of B'Elanna Torres' holographic orbital skydiving session."
(VOY: "Extreme Risk") (Web Fandom, powered by Wikia)
Don’t we all have the same godspark, making categorization unnecessary? We may all be
One in origin and essence, but we vary in the expression, form, function, polarity, and intensity
of that fundamental spark. That is because we all have different life histories. And once
lifeforms acquire self-awareness and freewill, they make different choices in response to their
circumstances. So we are unified at the trunk, but diverse at the branches. We are a unified
diversity, and classification is needed to better understand that diversity and the relation among
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its parts. Where did this paradigm originate? It was first delineated as such in the Law of One
books, also known as the Ra Material published by L/L Research in 1981. These books are
transcripts of trance channeling sessions held with a sixth density social memory complex that
called itself Ra, who explained the concepts of density, Service-to-Self, Service-to-Others, and
related topics. Many of these concepts resembled those of hermetic, gnostic, eastern, and other
spiritual traditions, just stated in a more technical and complete manner. [.......] We can
therefore extrapolate this spectrum upwards until the ultimate singularity of sentience is
reached, which would by definition be the infinite Creator. Hence, between elementary matter
and the infinite Creator resides a spectrum of life that can be divided into at least seven primary
levels as follows:
First Density (1D) is the lowest, corresponding to subatomic particles, atoms,
molecules, chemicals, and minerals, where conscious development is rudimentary and
limited to simple awareness at best. Because consciousness, freewill, and
nondeterminism go hand in hand, the unpredictable behavior of quantum systems (such
as atoms and subatomic particles jittering nondeterministically) is due to their
possessing (or being immersed in) an infinitesimal but nonzero level of consciousness, a
kind of blind primordial awareness.
Second Density (2D) encompasses plant and animal life, where consciousness first
experiences striving, will, passion, drive, pain, or pleasure. Examples of the lowest 2D
lifeforms include plants, bacteria and fungi, whose consciousness is rudimentary. The
higher 2D lifeforms begin experiencing the first inklings of freewill and self-awareness.
Third Density (3D) includes humans and other unpolished beings like us. 3D beings
possess the seed of self-awareness and freewill. With these, they begin exploring their
own individuality and its relation to others, and consequently they begin choosing
whether to hone their individuality by helping others or by exploiting them. This process
comes with a myriad of experiences and lessons accumulated over many lifetimes that
hammers together their core of individuality and exalts it. As the choice of polarity
solidifies and the limitations and illusions of life in 3D are overcome, a threshold is
eventually reached where one has more consciousness and metaphysical energy than
can be contained by the 3D realm of experience, and so one transcends to the next level.
Fourth Density (4D) includes beings that have partially transcended the limitations of
space-time. They straddle the boundary between physicality and the higher nonphysical
realms. Both 4D beings and their environments are part physical, part ethereal. For
them, physicality is plastic and responsive to thought. Telepathy and supernatural
abilities come easily. They exist behind the dimensional curtain and can project into our
physical reality at will. Some are positive, others more negative. The spiritual goal of
4D existence is to achieve understanding of consciousness and mastery of mind over
matter, to evolve as a cohesive society, and to fully live out one’s choice of spiritual
polarity with intensifying love and dedication. Fledgling 4D entities and societies tend
to lack wisdom and perspective compared to the more seasoned ones.
Fifth Density (5D) is a completely nonphysical state of existence. It functions both as a
stopover zone (the “afterlife”) for departed 2D/3D/4D souls and as a native realm for
5D beings who have evolved to that density after transcending 4D. The natives of 5D
seem focused on accumulating the highest wisdom and total perfection of their
individuality. This is the first density that is entirely nonphysical.
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Sixth Density (6D) is also completely nonphysical or ethereal, occupied by individual
entities who have attained perfection as far as personal evolution is concerned, who
then join with other perfected individuals to evolve together as a soul group unit. They
exist as energy beings in a realm completely outside space-time. They are outside the
Matrix so to speak.
Seventh Density(7D) is “ unity with the Creator and the total dissolution of individual
existence, though not through annihilation of consciousness but achievement of infinite
expansion of consciousness that permeates all life and all existence.
There are no sharp boundaries between the densities; they blend relatively smoothly like the
seven colors of the light spectrum. Thus we have animals like bonobos or dolphins who might
as well be 3D beings; human occult masters who have understanding and abilities that rival
those of aliens; and aliens of such divinity and nonphysicality that they might as well be
considered angelic light-beings.
(http://montalk.net/metaphys/267/sto-sts-and-densities)
An artificial womb successfully grew baby sheep — and humans could be next
"Inside what look like oversized ziplock bags strewn with tubes of blood and fluid, eight fetal
lambs continued to develop — much like they would have inside their mothers. Over four
weeks, their lungs and brains grew, they sprouted wool, opened their eyes, wriggled around, and
learned to swallow, according to a new study that takes the first step toward an artificial womb.
One day, this device could help to bring premature human babies to term outside the uterus —
but right now, it has only been tested on sheep. [.........] It’s appealing to imagine a world where
artificial wombs grow babies, eliminating the health risk of pregnancy. But it’s important not to
get ahead of the data, says Alan Flake, fetal surgeon at the Children’s Hospital of Philadelphia
and lead author of todays study. “It’s complete science fiction to think that you can take an
embryo and get it through the early developmental process and put it on our machine without
the mother being the critical element there,” he says. Instead, the point of developing an
external womb — which his team calls the Biobag — is to give infants born months too early a
more natural, uterus-like environment to continue developing in, Flake says."
(http://www.theverge.com/2017/4/25/15421734/artificial-womb-fetus-biobag-uterus-lamb-
sheep-birth-premie-preterm-infant)
"Scientists Found That The Soul Doesn’t Die – It Goes Back To The Universe by Peace Quarters
Posted on April 1,2017
(https://www.peacequarters.com/scientists-found-soul-doesnt-die-goes-back-universe/)
According to two leading scientists, the human brain is in fact a ‘biological computer and the
consciousness of humans is a program run by the quantum computer located inside the brain
that even continues to exist after we die. As experts explain it;after people die, their soul
comes back to the universe, and it does not die.”
The debate about the existence of the soul and whether it is immortal or dies with the person is
an endless story that for centuries has occupied the time of the great thinkers of universal
history. Its mysterious nature continues to fascinate different areas of science, but now a group
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of researchers has discovered a new truth about it: the “soul does not die; it returns to the
universe. Since 1996, Dr. Stuart Hameroff, an American Physicist and Emeritus in the
Department of Anesthesiology and Psychology, and Sir Roger Penrose, a mathematical
physicist at Oxford University, have worked in a Quantum Theory of Consciousness in which
they state that the soul is maintained in micro-tubules of the brain cells.
Their provocative theory states that the human soul is be contained by the brain cells in
structures inside them called micro-tubules. The two researchers believe the human brain is in
fact a biological computer and the consciousness of humans is a program run by the quantum
computer located inside the brain that even continues to exist after we die. Furthermore, both
scientists argue that what humans perceive as ‘consciousness’ is in fact the result of quantum
gravity effects located within the so-called micro-tubules.
This process is named by the two scientists “Orchestrated Objective Reduction – (Orch-OR)“ .
The theory indicates that when people enter a phase known as ‘clinical death,’ the microtubules
located in the brain lose their quantum state but maintain the information contained within
them. In other words – as experts explain it after people die, their soul returns to the universe,
and it does not die’. Speaking to the Science Channel’s Through the Wormhole documentary,
Dr. Hameroff said:Let’s say the heart stops beating, the blood stops flowing; the micro-
tubules lose their quantum state. The quantum information within the micro-tubules is not
destroyed, it can’t be destroyed, and it just distributes and dissipates to the universe at large. If
the patient is resuscitated, revived, this quantum information can go back into the micro-tubules
and the patient says ‘I had a near-death experience.’ If they’re not revived, and the patient dies,
it’s possible that this quantum information can exist outside the body, perhaps indefinitely, as a
soul.” According to this theory, the human souls are more than just ‘interactions’ of neurons in
our brain and could have been present since the beginning of time."
As John stated in Revelations: I was in the Spirit on the Lord's day, and heard behind me a
great voice, as of a trumpet, 11 Saying, I am Alpha and Omega, the first and the last: and,
What thou seest, write in a book, and send it unto the seven churches which are in Asia; unto
Ephesus, and unto Smyrna, and unto Pergamos, and unto Thyatira, and unto Sardis, and unto
Philadelphia, and unto Laodicea. ( KJV Revelations 1:11) [.............] 11 And I saw heaven
opened, and behold a white horse; and he that sat upon him was called Faithful and True, and
in righteousness he doth judge and make war. 12 His eyes were as a flame of fire, and on his
head were many crowns; and he had a name written, that no man knew, but he himself. 13 And
he was clothed with a vesture dipped in blood: and his name is called The Word of God. 14
And the armies which were in heaven followed him upon white horses, clothed in fine linen,
white and clean. 15 And out of his mouth goeth a sharp sword, that with it he should smite the
nations: and he shall rule them with a rod of iron: and he treadeth the winepress of the
fierceness and wrath of Almighty God. 16 And he hath on his vesture and on his thigh a name
written, KING OF KINGS, AND LORD OF LORDS. 17 And I saw an angel standing in the
sun; and he cried with a loud voice, saying to all the fowls that fly in the midst of heaven, Come
and gather yourselves together unto the supper of the great God; 18 That ye may eat the flesh
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of kings, and the flesh of captains, and the flesh of mighty men, and the flesh of horses, and of
them that sit on them, and the flesh of all men, both free and bond, both small and great. 19 And
I saw the beast, and the kings of the earth, and their armies, gathered together to make war
against him that sat on the horse, and against his army. 20 And the beast was taken, and with
him the false prophet that wrought miracles before him, with which he deceived them that had
received the mark of the beast, and them that worshipped his image. These both were cast alive
into a lake of fire burning with brimstone. (KJV Revelations 19:10)
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